:~: in limbo :~:

and I can make all your demons be gone

2012-02-02T19:47:00.002-06:00

I am disgustingly busy this semester,
but we all know how much I love to bitch
~_^

whirlwind romance

2012-01-01T15:24:00.003-06:00

I had a really good time in dallas for christmas.
the whole experience was really relaxed, and there was no 20-questions session.

he's big on hockey, and the stars happened to be playing while we were in town.
so we took a train (!! I'd always wanted to ride a train - not exactly what I was hoping for, though.. more like riding a bus, imo) to the game, and I had a surprisingly good time.
pic below, of the brisket nachos we had there.
seriously, if you're ever at the american airlines center for a sporting event, you should try the brisket nachos.
YUM!
and the stars won! that was a nice bonus.
as for the game itself, it was a lot more graceful than I'd expected.
and really fast paced.
pretty much my only experience with hockey is watching The Mighty Ducks when I was a kid, so I was kinda lost, but he didn't seem to get annoyed by my questions.

our hotel was terrible, though.
I had to do a couple of installs during the day, before we headed to dallas, so by the time we got there it was late and I was tired and sore and all sorts of cranky.
and we pull into the hotel and it looks kinda shifty on the outside.
whatever, right? all we want is to go to bed.
he checks us in and we grab our bags... we stagger in, drop our bags, and he goes over to turn the air condition on.
nothing.
on any setting.
we head back to the front desk... chick apologizes, and "upgrades" us to a room with a king bed.
we exchange glances with each other, but whatever, right?
he opens the door to the new room and....
there are cups on the counter and in the sink, and towels on the floor...
seriously, this happened.
we laugh a bit and then head back to the front desk again... chick apologizes and walks us to our newer new room.
this one is clean and air condition works.
we finally fall into bed, and fuck wakeup calls.
lol
long story short, never stay at the extended stay at greenville and 635.

aside from the crap hotel and the soreness (from the installs) I had a really great time.
he loved the pillow case [hey! stockings are expensive!] full of ebola that no one else really understood (read the hot zone if you ever get the chance), and the bacon tuxedo box filled with tshirts was a hit as well.

he made us dinner two nights ago.
hibachi steak, shrimp, scallops, and fried rice.
pic below.
this dude is great.

I've really enjoyed the winter break, and I'm not looking forward to the new semester.
I'll be seeing significantly less of him, both for lunch and after work.
he seems confident we'll manage, but I bet we're both gonna get pretty stressed out before the semester is over.
and then summer, with class every day.
I dunno if I'm gonna take anything during the summer, or if I even can, with my work schedule.
we'll see.

for now, happy new year!
oh and pics!

brisket nachos:

dinner:

because I'd been struggling along with only 4 gigs!

2011-12-25T10:33:00.002-06:00

I wanted to ring out the bells and fling out my arms and to sing out the news

2011-11-30T02:08:00.002-06:00

we had a fantastic time in the valley.
and in houston.
and briefly in dallas.

even after spending 12 hours stuffed in a car with him,
what I wanted most in the world was to curl up with him and nap.
and after 6 straight days together,
I still just want to curl up with him and nap.

the fall will be terrible, but I do love him.

more to follow eventually :x

strangely burdened

2011-11-17T00:40:00.002-06:00

the company I work for is providing me with a phone now.
$100 for an iphone 4s, or a free iPhone 4.
I went with the free one.

they'd been threatening for months,
but yesterday they finally handed me one.

I think I need a proper purse or something.

this

2011-11-14T22:33:00.000-06:00

"We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.” ― Dr. Seuss

stabbing with sweetness

2011-11-11T00:14:00.002-06:00

he put a soda in the fridge for me last night (while he was locking up the house), so I could have a cold mountain dew (some flavor I'd never tried) while at work today.

there may or may not have been tears, but I know I misted up pretty badly.

it's shit like this, cabbage

2011-11-08T22:36:00.005-06:00

edit for my last post - instead of "had I always felt I belonged in the jesus fan camp?" it should read "had I never really belonged in the jesus fan camp?" and I am updating that post to reflect it.
I ended up with a mesh of my thoughts and I don't proofread as often as I should.
:x

so the bf had a friend come into town.
he asked if it was ok if, instead of spending his evening with me, he could spend them with his friend.
there's no way I can say no, you know?
but the illusion of choice.... I am eating this up.
I am consistently surprised by how well this dude handles me.

he's also really sweet. randomly.
I like to tell him that most of the time he's a dick (we both talk a lot of shit) but randomly... he'll stab me with a random act of extreme sweetness that is often so poignant I tear up.
like, he writes me notes. pen and paper notes that he leaves for me to find when I wake up and he's not home.
I can't think of any other examples, but I promise... random sweetness.

in the light, I'm quite transparent; in the dark, I'm such a dream

2011-11-01T20:48:00.002-05:00

so the little chick who sits next to me in my bible class is a pretty hardcore jesus fan.
she used the phrase "science nerds" as a derogatory term to describe people who don't believe in creationism.
it was like the first time someone called me a "fucking breeder"

had I always felt I belonged in the jesus fan camp?
that I was never exposed to the other side of the name-calling coin?
that I didn't even know the phrase even existed

/sigh

2011-10-28T09:07:00.002-05:00

budd & I have been split up for 8 months now...
back in January we had the talk deciding we weren't going to stay together once our lease expired, effectively putting an expiration date on our relationship.
so I've known for about 10 months that he and I were not going to live happily ever after.

I'm in a relationship now that may be the easiest and most fulfilling one I've ever been in.

but after all this time,
and even knowing budd has been running his mouth,
sometimes I still have bad days.

incidently

2011-10-15T00:47:00.002-05:00

last weekend was the bf's bday, and a few years ago lus & budd went to this steakhouse in albuquerque that they both raved about.
the bf wanted to go to this crap steakhouse here in town, and I also offered to take him to that other steakhouse lus & budd raved about for several years.
so lus gets off work this past sunday morning and we pile into his car and drive the 5+ hours (or something) to albuquerque for the best steak lus has ever had.
we pull into the packed parking lot and notice there's some sort of car show going on.
and we head to the door...
... and it won't open...
.... some biker type dude passing by tells us the place isn't open on sundays.
gfg.

we ended up heading across town to this other joint that'd made it onto triple D and let me tell you - that was the best fucking meatloaf I've ever had.
the bf ended up having a fancy burger that he was really fond of. I'm no burger connoisseur, but he was talking about some special cow they use to make the patty... kobe beef, I think?
so while the trip didn't go as planned I think we all had a really good time.

the shit I got him for his bday has slowly been pouring in.
he seems to like the 3ds and the zelda game, but I haven't seen him play with the bucky cubes.
I got him a couple more things that I'm actually really excited about, but they haven't come in just yet.
I hope he likes them, since I am still really happy with my ipad.

we're both pretty stressed out with school.
I fell asleep yesterday on the couch and missed my raid.
I also didn't get to study since I crashed super early... so it's kinda ruining my weekend plans.
imo it's a bad sign when I can't nap an afternoon away without fucking myself over for the next week.
ugh.
next semester I am only gonna take one class. some math, if I can help it.

aaaand my ipad update is complete, so back to studying for me!

me and my god damned sand castles

2011-09-27T20:15:00.003-05:00

I had a pretty rough weekend.

I did get a [tentative] raiding spot in my WoW guild, though.
I'm excited about that.

I also managed to produce a paper on the gospel according to mark.
kudos to me again.

and the three-fer!
I actually did really well on that test I was worried about.
though it's more of a case of dude-being-an-easy-grader rather than the quality of my work.

still.
AND
the fair is in town ^_^
hopefully we'll get to go tomorrow.

tldr; jesus hates figs

2011-09-20T22:32:00.002-05:00

I'd been hoping for a more objective approach to this bible class, but oh well.

we had our first test today, and it didn't go so well.
I'll be ok if he gives partial credit, but if not...
well.

things with the bf are great, as always.
I'm disappointed that I seem to spend more time on homework than he does, but that really is my biggest complaint.

have I mentioned how awesome my ipad is?
bestest gift EVAR!
:x
his bday is next month, and I'm at a loss =/

I got my new mac in.
it's quite glorious, but I don't think I like it.
I went with the 15" and I wish I'd chosen the 13"
oh!
the bf bought a mac too!
an old black macbook pro
and now he is considering buying a new macbook pro
I think he's trolling me >_>

and about the title:
The next morning as they were leaving Bethany, Jesus was hungry. He noticed a fig tree in full leaf a little way off, so he went over to see if he could find any figs. But there were only leaves because it was too early in the season for fruit. Then Jesus said to the tree, “May no one ever eat your fruit again!” And the disciples heard him say it. (Mark 11:12-14 NLT)

I remember I used to have free time

2011-09-19T07:31:00.002-05:00

so I had really expected at least one of my classes to get cancelled, if not both.
ugh.
it seems I'm always short on time, and even more short on sleep.
I'm still trying desperately to have time for stuff like killing zombies (dead island) and playing medkit (my priest in WoW), but it's a losing battle, I think.
anyhow... just wanted to bitch a bit before work.

pics ahoy!

2011-08-29T18:24:00.005-05:00

sorry for the delay, but filezilla can fuck off. <3 transmit.

so. here he is, in full cardassian mode:

and here is a sloth we met when he took me to the aquarium in dallas a couple of weeks ago

here he is again (photo taken with my snazzy new ipad)

here's the garden zombie I got him for my birthday - in this pic it's laying on the rug in his "den" (read: living room) - it still startles me pretty consistently

and here's the fruit tart we all shared at my birthday lunch with my dad & my sister

that's all for now folks!

... well fuck me

2011-08-27T11:08:00.002-05:00

have I mentioned exactly how happy I've been with this guy?
seriously.
and my birthday is tomorrow, right?
so he gave me my gift on thursday.
he got me an ipad.
seriously.

I am a level of shocked I am almost uncomfortable with.
I mean, all I got him was a garden zombie!

and his birthday is in a couple of months.
I need a plan.

pics to follow, though
^_^

sometimes more than others

2011-08-23T18:03:00.002-05:00

I meant to post this several days ago, but I mostly hate screencaps taken on a windows machine.
BUT! apparently win7 comes with this handy little application called "snipping tool" and I think it will make me a lot more receptive (to that aspect of windows at least)

anyhow!

he's pretty great, isn't he?

so school starts next week.
there's been another hiccup so atm I'm enrolled at the local community college.
cross your fingers the two classes I signed up for don't get cancelled!

"what the internet lacks is the store clerk that'll nerd out with you because your chick is wearing an ffvii tshirt"

2011-08-15T23:53:00.003-05:00

I had a great time in dallas and a wonderful dinner with lus ^_^
I'm sore after 2 (!) near car accidents today, both involving me slamming on my brakes and swerving to avoid another vehicle.
fun times!

oh cabbage, my cabbage

2011-08-01T07:28:00.000-05:00

he makes better sweet potato fries than outback
^_^

hippos love cabbage

2011-07-30T01:01:00.010-05:00

the only time () reminds me of the bf.
do you know the lyrics?
I know it's lame, but I promise, the first time I kissed him properly I heard part of it in my head:
i swear
i just found everything i need
the sweat in your eyes the blood in your veins are listening to me
well i want to wrap it up and swim in it until i drown
my moral standing is lying down

I keep waiting to feel more... detached?
I guess I am just surprised at our current situation.
I feel kind of like I've accidently developed feelings for a fuckbuddy.
does that make sense?
like, we're still friends... just with a few perks now.
maybe I've always loved him, just I never paid attention to what kind of love until now.

it's actually really great.
a few nights ago we played drunken tekken that ended with a drunken make out session when I trekked to the fridge for more red bull. it was bizarre and I loved it.
probably tmi, but this is my blog after all.
is there a polite way to say he rocks my world?
it's how I felt about the snickerdoodle thing - betrayed by everyone who had known about them and not shared the knowledge with me.
how could he not tell me for so long? I started dating about 15 years ago, and I feel like I have wasted every minute of that time.
I know it sounds harsh, but isn't your SO supposed to be your best friend?
is that what's been wrong for every relationship I've been in?

I'm sure this is just the newness, but it seems everything we do together is also something I enjoy doing on my own.
I dunno how much of it is him just humoring me, and I'm even more concerned that he's trolling me, but I think he is fucking amazing.
I said I'd make it public in august, and it's about here.
I'll be surprised if it does turn out he's making it up, and I'll deserve to get torn up for it.
but we spend huge amounts of time together and it seems like he enjoys himself.
I keep telling myself this will change once school starts - it's how I'm rationalizing not rationing the time we spend together.
for now, though, I'm gorging myself on him.
ds9, wow, movies, lunch and dinners, sometimes breakfast... he even went to see the tekken movie with me and my sister!
this is the best summer I've ever had.

I know the fall will be devastating, but it's so easy to be happy with him.

I am pretty amused about my lack of posts lately.
I went from not posting because I was bummed all the time,
to not posting because all I'll do is talk about how great things are.

oh.
speaking of great!
there are these potato empanadas... they are heavenly.
we've been buying the frozen ones filled with potato mush and cheeses.. and omg...
seriously y'all have got to try some.

those bastards!

2011-07-25T22:38:00.001-05:00

cabbage and I went to outback for dinner...
... and sweet potato fries are back ^_^

(they didn't email me to tell me, so who knows how long I've been missing out on them)

poopy bath water

2011-07-18T20:38:00.001-05:00

do you ever look back and think,
.oO(what is the worst day of my life?)

the last 24 hours have been up there for me.

mew!

2011-06-25T19:54:00.004-05:00

you know, things are pretty great for me right now.

I have a job I'm ok at, and I love the guys I work with...
I'm still hoping to be able to go back to school, though it did get pushed back to the fall...
the bf is actually really great, and I am wondering if he isn't on to something (with being so picky about who he dates). if we're still together in august, I'll come out and tell you who it is. if not, I really don't wanna go through another public breakup so soon. but if you know me at all, surely you know who he is.
I've got all the ds9 I can handle, with plans for assorted other things once we finish ds9. I've also been watching macgyver on netflix, and apparently the ateam is on there too! and next month all the star trek series! and holy shit all of sg1 is already! <3 netflix. woooh!
I finally purchased city of fallen angels on my nook, and it's going well so far. I've got a ton of other things I could start reading if it suits me (including several batman graphic novels mcrough has loaned me that I plan on buying for myself next paycheck)
I got my new tv set up, though I didn't buy any fancy cables. while it hasn't improved my game, it's nice to be able to read text from my couch :P
I'm looking forward to renewing my gamefly subscription. I also have been wanting to play rock band 3 a lot lately, so I've been looking for a game+keyboard bundle. I haven't found one irl, so I'll likely order it off amazon next month. can you believe the bf's never played rock band 3? it's actually pretty shocking to me. I'd like to go through and finish all the games I own, since so often I'd play for a bit and then lost interest (or get stuck due to my gimp jumping/aiming skills)

speaking of games I never finished - the tekken movie is coming to town!
I'm super stoked about it y'all.
I hope I can convince javi-er to go with us ^_^

oh!
I got an invite into google music's beta on thursday.
I've been uploaded nonstop since about 1715 thursday, and it's only about 5300 songs in.
it also won't work on any that have drm on them.... so... ugh.
all I can say is: right now, icloud looks really attractive.

that's all for now, I think.
atm my biggest pain is having to be at work at 08, but it really can't be helped.
and ugh, the company I work for is moving into a new building next week... I think it's gonna double my morning commute.

still, though - things in my world are surprisingly pleasant at the moment.
it's almost creepy :P

sometimes I say it right the first time

2011-06-01T12:39:00.004-05:00

though this wasn't actually the first time, I still think it's the best I've ever said it.

the bf wants to stay on the island when we go home for thanksgiving.
well, when I take him home for thanksgiving.

I feel kinda bad that I'm dragging him there after only a couple of months, but after budd refusing to go...
it's not really the promise of a commitment it would have been with budd, but at least he's willing to meet them.
and before I have to meet his parents.

though, the way he talks about his mom...
I kinda want to meet her for s&g.
the way he explains their relationship... they've got a really interesting dynamic and I wanna see it in real time.
on the other hand, I have a history of moms disliking me... so maybe I'll just enjoy the "I'm happy she makes you happy" for a while longer.

when it comes down to it, I don't know that we'll even still be together for thanksgiving.
but if we are, he's taking that trip with me.
if he doesn't, at least I'm not waiting 5 years to find out.

see what god did to me?!

2011-06-01T11:57:00.001-05:00

it seems my faith in my hydrochloric acid was misplaced
=/

"not for who you are, but for who you were"

2011-05-29T14:28:00.012-05:00

so I've got a new bf, right?
and don't take this as an insult to budd, because it's not.
but, you know that quote....
something like, "I wouldn't want to belong to any club that'd have me as a member."
I love budd, and I still think the world of him.
but.
I think we were equals. we both had our strengths, and they didn't overlap. and physically we were a good match too - he wasn't out of my league and I wasn't out of his.
now...
now I'm in way over my head.
the guy I'm seeing is way smarter than me, much more attractive... and seems to be better than me at everything either of us has ever done.
and yes, he and I have been really close friends forever, so I'm sure my interactions with him over the last few years play a big part in how high an opinion I have of him.
/sigh
I don't even know where I'm going with this.

oh right.
so when budd and I first decided to split up...
I've gained a TON of weight since he and I got together.
ooh pics to prove it!
here's me a couple of months after budd and I got together... here's me a couple of months before budd and I split up... and since my personality has always been my selling point, here's me with some panties on my head.
aaaand here's two of mostly the same shot, with a few years difference between the two: then and now

now, as me, I still think I'm pretty awesome.
between "round is a shape!" and naming my belly Ester... I'm not really bothered by how I look.
and seriously, my selling point has been my personality since I graduated high school.
but.
there's always a "but" with me lately.
the bf seems genuinely attracted to me (physically) and I'm not sure how I feel about it.
I mean, it's great that he wants me, ya know? of course I want him to want me.
but after being friends with him for so long... and if it wasn't me that he's wanting... I think he can do better.
we're not really in the same league

so now I kinda wanna start working out and dieting and assorted other bullshit.
for him.
and I'm worried.
that's bad, right?
but I want to do it for him... in the sense that, I want to be worth it for him? not that he wants me to?
does that make sense?

maybe he's just better at the game than I am.
lord knows I've convinced people that what I wanted was really what they wanted.
of course, if he and I weren't together now... I'd have made at least some effort to get ester under control.
something small, that wouldn't be much work.
and wouldn't be very noticeable, either, I bet.
/shrug

I really think he's out of my league, and it made perfect sense when he blew me off all those years ago.
don't get me wrong - I think budd is a great person.
just... this guy is better.
probably the best person I know.
cue: IT'S A TRAP!
(I am still half convinced he's trolling me)

joking aside, I think he's an amazing human being and deserves someone way better than me.
and not just because I'm rocking 200 lbs.
I want to read more, and build stuff more often, and other random things that don't seem to be related (like getting contacts for ninja cuddles that won't leave me cleaning my glasses afterwards, or always wearing my hair down because I love how it feels when he runs his hands through my hair and pushes my bangs behind my ears) aside from wanting to be close to him.
I want to be the someone who inspires him.

I just wish I could tell
that I could know for sure
that it's because I think he's great
and not because I couldn't even keep budd happy.

EDIT: the title of this post was said by a guy I knew in high school, after he hadn't seen me in several years, and was astonished by how huge I was (and I'm even bigger now!)

still cheaper than porn

2011-05-26T18:30:00.002-05:00

milkdud renewed his wow acct ^_^
AND he got cata too!
I've been leveling my hunter with him, though I should have leveled my druid with him (I'm a TERRIBLE druid)
I'm hoping to get accepted into the same guild slave is in (did I mention resurrected has mostly fallen apart?) after I transfer, but I need to get my shit together.

it's comfortable to be playing wow for chunks at a time.
it's familiar.
I don't remember if I like it, but I can always worry about that later.

leftovers ^_~

2011-05-22T17:58:00.005-05:00

I've spent the day playing assorted video games, watching some macgyver, and munching on snacks.
the bf was in town last week and left his snacks here!
I've eaten cheese & crackers, enjoyed limeade, and suffered through some chewy chocolate chip cookies.

I didn't know this (though I guess I should have), but I am a ~huge~ fan of this cheese and crackers business.
I think he usually gets some sort of garlic and herb cheese... and rosemary crackers.
I have been considering going out and purchasing some myself.
I haven't, though, because I've got a ton of other perishables here that I need to consume.
this cheese & crackers business has made me want some apples & cheddar.
I'm gonna start adding stuff to my grocery list, at this rate.

speaking of the bf,
at some point when he was in town, though not this last trip, we were at this local dive with a friend of ours.
and there's this big group of folks at the table next to us... and this chick misquotes captain kirk.
all three of us (at my table) realized what she'd done, and we looked at each other knowingly.
I sure wanna watch st:iv now.
double dumbass on you!

never thought I'd say this

2011-05-17T07:22:00.002-05:00

but I miss nerys.
/sigh

if I ever have the misfortune of getting knocked up

2011-05-09T20:48:00.004-05:00

you know me, right?
you know I'm not fond of kids.
they're creepy.

you know I don't want kids, right?
ew @ the whole pregnancy/birth thing.
seriously.

BUT.
if I ever make that mistake,
there's a list of books I want my would-be offspring to enjoy.

the only thing I've got to say about this is,
I spend significant amounts of time on r/books.

so anyway.
the list.

It's pretty short atm, and do keep in mind it's been years since I've read most of these , but they made a distinct impression on me.
I imagine I'll come back to this, the more that I read.
but this is stuff I want to read to my child more than once, ya know?

anyhow.
the list.
seriously this time.

in order that they've occurred to me:

The Once and Future King
Ender's Game
Stranger in a Strange Land
Rumble Fish
Lord of the Flies
The Left Hand of Darkness
The Fountainhead
The Giving Tree

I'm sure I'll add to this eventually,
and I promise I am not suddenly wanting kids.

think of it more as a "tinafish awesomesauce recommends" list.
though if I'm recommending.... seriously go read stranger in a strange land!

ohhhhhhhhhh we're halfway theeeere

2011-04-28T07:27:00.004-05:00

seems all my posts are useless lately.
I've got a few minutes before I need to head to work, and I'm trying to think of something witty to say, but mostly I just wanna *gurgle*

budd called me a stalker yesterday.
I'm pretty amused since I'd been calling myself a stalker too, only... really, I do work right down the street from the apt and we literally drive down a road about 30 feet from the apartment almost every day during our lunch break.

I'm still incredibly fond of the guys I work with.
the job itself is.... daunting.
I used to rag on budd as being just glorified tech support (when he worked for a competitor) but I hadn't realized how accurate a description that is. we handle anything and everything that's wrong with almost any electronic device. I would not be surprised if I got a ticket in for someone's tv not working properly.
I spend more time on google than I ever thought possible.
I'm interested in whether or not they'll keep me.

particularly because I'd planned on going back to school this summer.
with the new SO, though... mostly I just wanna lounge around with him.
this working days thing is for the birds.
I think I may just keep working for a while until I can pay off my school loans completely and then take it from there, but it'd ~really~ be nice to not continue stagnating.

I've been trying to read more.
it's not really going too well.
last week I read women and left hand of darkness, but this week I've only started on the hobbit.
in my defense, I've had a couple of bad nights this week.....
not really a defense, but it is difficult to concentrate sometimes.

and on that bombshell,
off to work!

nauseous

2011-04-24T08:46:00.000-05:00

My gut began to twitch and roll. I felt ill, useless, sad. I was in love with her.

wb wb

2011-04-22T20:11:00.003-05:00

welcome back internets, how I have missed you...

disclaimer: I stand beside my original statement that I would be fine without an internet connection. just that it's still a bad time for me to be stranded, ya know?

remember how I'm always saying I can't be trusted?

2011-04-17T08:56:00.003-05:00

though I may have the perfect guy 500 miles away,
there's something to be said for the OK guy on the stool next to me.

and if I don't go out then I always end up sitting in the dark crying over budd.

I don't think this would even be an issue if I had an internet connection at home.

now there's not enough whiskey in the world to make me burn a bridge I wouldn't burn sober,
but I wish my loyalties weren't always so fucked up.

time's up

2011-04-13T17:52:00.009-05:00

it's been a month now, and I really need to quit my shit.
I drove home drunk last night.
if I can't drink responsibly, then no more drinking for me!

so that's that.
I'm not totally swearing it off, just none of it if I'm going to have to drive within 12 hours.
because I stayed trashed through a 2 hour movie. and eating didn't help. I didn't drive to the theatre, but I thought I'd be sober enough after the movie to drive home.
NOT TRUE.
so since I'm a lightweight, I'm gonna start acting like one.

**edit: no more shots. girly drinks ahoy!

dunno why I subscribe to r/happy

2011-04-03T19:59:00.000-05:00

The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
- Elie Wiesel

but I appreciate the gesture

2011-04-03T12:38:00.004-05:00

this past week was one of the longest weeks of my life....
but not really in a bad way :)
I really like the guys I work with, and think they could all be my friends.
and that's super exciting since I've spent the last year with almost no one to talk to (I don't recommend working at home to anyone because of this).
but I'm spending sooooo much money! we go out for lunch every day and then have been going out after work for drinks...
it's great fun, though.
but ugh @ having to wake up at a certain time. being unemployed was so convenient!

so, yes. I've been going out a lot lately.
I met up with a previous coworker on friday.
I think it's kind of amusing how even guys with beer goggles on don't say they wanna fuck me 'cause they're physically attracted to me, but because I'm so much fun to hang out with and have such an awesome personality.
ok, so, I'm not ~actually~ amused. I'm kinda upset about it.
I keep coming back to it over the last couple of days. I can appreciate that a chick may not want to hear that someone wants to fuck her because she's hot... but really? was there a memo sent out or something? from two different guys on the same night?
/sigh
and I dunno if it's just a pity fuck or what, but a surprising number of guys I know are willing to "console" me after my break up, if you know what I mean.
that's ~kind~ of flattering, only...
one of the guys at work brought up how (in a completely unrelated-to-me conversation, just I'm focusing on retarded things right now and I can't really help it) being told someone wants to fuck you isn't a compliment, since you're just a fuck and not good enough to date.

in the same vein, I've actually had a couple of offers.
like, dating offers.
I'm surprised because after being with budd for so long I hadn't bothered to maintain any ambiguous relationships.
I'm still half convinced he's trolling me, but the one I chose has potential. huge potential. it'll be either great or end terribly.
nothing official for a while longer, but I don't think I'm gonna change my mind. really I'm expecting him to change his mind - it's like we're playing chicken and waiting to see which one of us will swerve.
it's a pretty big change of his role in my life, and I'm not sure he fully understands that.
I really didn't see it coming, and even looking back with 20/20 hindsight I still don't really see it coming.
nothing I love more than a game of chicken.

accidently employed

2011-03-23T09:21:00.002-05:00

I went out for lunch with mcrough on monday, and got offered a job.
I start monday.
I had to go out yesterday and buy some "business casual" clothes, but I don't think I did a good job.
and I'm heading to dallas today to buy the last bits of furniture I'm still missing.

I'm gonna miss breakfasts with lus :(

las horas pasan mejor entre tus brazos

2011-03-21T07:27:00.002-05:00

so I'm mostly finished with that music thing - took several hours and I'm not gonna fuss with it again.

I'm waiting around on lowe's to deliver my fridge (milkdud did NOT help me with it like he was supposed to!), and then gonna go over to the apt and move the rest of my stuff.
I'm hoping to go to dallas at the end of the week, but that depends on the move situation.

ahh the move situation.
it feels like it's been months, but it's only been a couple of weeks.
maybe if I spent more time unpacking and less time dicking around.
hm!

speaking of unpacking.... or is this part of dicking around?
neither one of my wireless 360 controllers will hold a charge.
I think maybe the little charging cord is broken?
I need to look into alternatives.

let's pretend I can time travel!

2011-03-20T15:59:00.009-05:00

at slave's request, I'm gonna fill this baby out!
... or try to, anyway. so far I'm skipping a ton of stuff =/
guess I'll post this & then keep working on it, and then make another post when I've finished.
BUT! I may just skip any that are repeats and I can't think of anything else to fill them in with.
I also don't really keep up with new music, or music videos. so.

Day 01 - A song from the first album you ever bought
"Guitars, Cadillacs" by Dwight Yoakam, from Just Lookin' For A Hit.

Day 02 – Your favourite single
"Already Gone" by Sugarland, from Love On the Inside (Deluxe Fan Edition).

Day 03 – Your favourite album track
"The Great Below" by Nine Inch Nails, from The Fragile (Left).

Day 04 – A song by the first band/artist you saw live
"She Thinks My Tractor's Sexy" by Kenny Chesney, from Greatest Hits.

Day 05 – A song from your childhood
"In My Own Little Corner" by John Green & Lesley Ann Warren, from Rodgers & Hammerstein's Cinderella.

Day 06 – A song by your favourite band/artist
"Starfuckers, Inc." by Nine Inch Nails, from And All That Could Have Been [EXPLICIT LYRICS] [LIVE].

Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a tv series
"I'll Be There For You (Long Version)" by The Rembrandts from Friends (Music from the TV Series).

Day 08 – Your most played song on itunes
"The Only Time" by Nine Inch Nails, from Pretty Hate Machine.

Day 09 – Favourite new release (has to be less than 2 months old)

Day 10 – An awsome driving track

Day 11 – A song that reminds you of your best mate
"MacArthur Park" by Richard Harris, from A Tramp Shining.

Day 12 – A song that makes you laugh
"Violin" by They Might Be Giants, from No!.

Day 13 – The song that contains your favourite lyrics
"At The End" by 16Volt, from Supercoolnothing.

Day 14 – A song off an album that has brilliant cover art
"Extraordinary" by Liz Phair, from Liz Phair.

Day 15 – Your favourite TV theme tune

Day 16 – A song that reminds you of a holiday
"Hard Candy Christmas" by Dolly Parton, from The Best Little Whorehouse In Texas (Music from the Original Motion Picture Soundtrack).

Day 17 – A song that makes you think of a family member
"A Boy Named Sue" by Johnny Cash, from JOHNNY CASH AT SAN QUENTIN (The Complete 1969 Concert).

Day 18 – A song you never get sick of hearing
"Pictures of You" by The Cure, from Disintegration.

Day 19 – A guilty pleasure
"Bad Romance" by Lady GaGa, from The Fame Monster.

Day 20 – A song you can’t help but sing along to
"I Love Rock N' Roll" by Joan Jett, from Fit To Be Tied: Great Hits By Joan Jett.

Day 21 – A song that reminds you of your partner/closest friend
"Making Love Out of Nothing at All" by Air Supply, from Ultimate Air Supply.

Day 22 – A song you play when you want to relax
"In the Chess Court" by Tan Dun, from Hero (Soundtrack from the Motion Picture).

Day 23 – A song you play before a night out
"Blue Suede Shoes" by Elvis Presley, from 2nd to None.

Day 24 – A song from a band/artist you’ve just ‘discovered’

Day 25 – A song off of the last album you bought/ last track you downloaded
"Hand Covers Bruise" by Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross, from The Social Network (Soundtrack from the Motion Picture).

Day 26 – A song no one would expect you to love
"Cordero de Dios" by Various Artist, from Misa Panamericana Misa de Renovacion.

Day 27 – A song you would sing at a karaoke night
"I Touch Myself" by Divinyls, from Living In The 90's [Disc 2].

Day 28 – A song you love for it's lyrics
"Head Over Feet" by Alanis Morissette, from Jagged Little Pill.

Day 29 – A song you love for it's video

Day 30 – A song you've only recently started listening to
"God Love Her" by Toby Keith, from That Don't Make Me a Bad Guy.

Day 31 – A song from a band your best friend introduced to you
"Light My Fire" by The Doors, from Legacy: The Absolute Best (Disc 1).

Day 32 – A song you've performed infront of people
"1812 Overture" by Chicago Symphony Orchestra & Fritz Reiner, from Tchaikovsky: Greatest Hits.

Day 33 – A song from any artist you've been to see live
"Just Another Day in Paradise" by Phil Vassar, from Phil Vassar.

Day 34 – A song from an artist you wish you could see live
"Feuer Frei!" by Rammstein, from Mutter.

Day 35 – A song you used to hate but now love
"Just Like a Pill" by Pink, from M!ssundaztood.

Day 36 – A song from an artist a family member has introduced you to
"Say It Isn't So" by The Outfield, from Play Deep.

Day 37 – Your favourite Beatles song
"I Want to Hold Your Hand" by The Beatles, from The Beatles 1.

Day 38 – Your favourite cover of a song
"Knockin' On Heaven's Door" by Guns N' Roses, from Use Your Illusion.

Day 39 – A song with a great video
"Buddy Holly" by Weezer, from Weezer.

Day 40 – A song that brings back amazing memories
"Something Like That" by Tim McGraw, from A Place In The Sun.

Day 41 – A song that brings back bad memories
"The Freshmen" by The Verve Pipe, from Villains.

Day 42 – Favourite song from the 80's
"Livin' on a Prayer" by Bon Jovi, from Slippery When Wet (Special Edition).

Day 43 – Favourite song from the 90's
"Caress Me Down" by Sublime, from Sublime.

Day 44 – A song you play air guitar to
"Techno Syndrome" by Immortals, from Mortal Kombat Soundtrack.

Day 45 – Your favourite acoustic version of a song
"My Happy Ending" by Avril Lavigne, from Live Acoustic EP.

Day 46 – The first song you ever bought
"You Don't Know How It Feels" by Tom Petty, from Wildflowers.

Day 47 – The only song you like by a band you otherwise hate
"Lucky" by Britney Spears, from Oops!... I Did It Again.

Day 48 – Your favourite song at this time last year
"We Were in Love" by Toby Keith, from Dream Walkin'.

Day 49 – Your favourite Love song
"Mis Ojos" by Maná, from Cuando Los Angeles Lloran.

Day 50 – Your favourite song of all time
"The Great Below" by Nine Inch Nails, from And All That Could Have Been [EXPLICIT LYRICS] [LIVE].

and you'll see that it's time to move on

2011-03-12T11:43:00.006-06:00

breaking up sucks.
either I feel bad because I'm sad it's over, or I feel bad because I'm happy it's over.
ugh.

sloth like

2011-03-09T19:39:00.002-06:00

keeping whatever hours I want to is actually pretty great ^_^

I cry alone

2011-03-07T21:25:00.004-06:00

only I think I'm done crying.
I feel pretty bad about what's going on btwn me & budd, but I mean... he did have an entire year to go meet my mom... and he didn't.
all my friends and even my family are being super supportive, and I can't tell you how much I appreciate it.
I like to think that I'd have left no matter what, since us staying together last year was contingent upon his going to the valley to meet the rest of my family... but I dunno.
budd is a great guy. seriously. I know I bitch about him a lot, but he really is.
but the meeting-my-folks thing is where I decided to take a stand, and he didn't care.
/sigh
I dunno what I did (or didn't do) for it to come down to this. but here we are.
so I've decided to be done with feeling sorry for myself. trying to put the whole "his loss anyway" mindset on.

I just got back from spending the day at the apt.. budd & I went by home depot to get a shower head for him, and then to walmart for me since I'm looking for a space heater (still looking - they didn't have it out).
and I packed up a few more of my things from "home."
when I was leaving I told him I'd be by next week, once I've purchased a fridge and built a counter, to pick up my kitchen things.
that's really all I've got left over there.
as I was closing the door behind me... I dunno... I just felt really sad.
I guess that's what this whole post is about.
I'm sad that he's just letting me walk out of his life. like I tricked him into letting us stay together last year. like he's been waiting for me to leave for the last 5 years.
I'm not so bad, right?

nosleep and imaginarymonsters

2011-03-05T23:00:00.004-06:00

so tonight's the night guys!

I'm an incredible pussy (I scare easily - books, movies, really anything that would scare a 5 year old) and I failed to bring a nightlight with me.
I also forgot my laptop keyboard cover, ugh.
but back to being a pussy - I've got a loft bed now.
and I'm always half afraid of monsters under my bed.
budd's bed is maybe 6" off the ground, so I had to worry about 6" tall monsters... but now I've gotta worry about 6' tall monsters!

AHHHH!

I think I'll leave my bathroom light on, with the door cracked.
or maybe my desktop comp on, tuned into this. I prefer vibes, rain, thunder, and wind chimes. it kinda reminds me of some garden stage or something in ffvii. well, the vibes do. I just plain love the sound of a thunderstorm. and the wind chimes are kinda silly, but I like the way they sound in this combo.
I'll be fucked, though, when the internet connection [inevitably] goes down.

but for now, I'd better get back to cleaning my bathroom.
I'll let you know how my sleeping goes ;)

worf wins

2011-03-05T14:01:00.001-06:00

master chief never had a chance!

well I want to wrap it up and swim in it until I drown

2011-03-05T12:42:00.007-06:00

I'm aiming to be completely moved out by monday, but I didn't move a damn thing yesterday and today has been equally unproductive.
I'm really wanting to go take a nap, but I know I should be gathering my things.
so instead of doing either, I'm blogging.
go me!
I will, no matter what, be sleeping over there starting tonight.

I've had a very social week.
monday I moved a few things.
tuesday I hung out with lus in the morning, and then I hung out with kotton and watched some anime that afternoon.
wednesday I hung out with peaches and arranged action figures.
thursday I hung out with javi-er and had some tacos.
friday I hung out with lus and had a concrete (yum!).
so today, I really should work on moving stuff. I keep rationalizing it by reminding myself exactly how much stuff I don't have over here. and really, I could probably pack up all my shit in a couple of hours.
also, I finally ordered a router and it won't be here until monday, so I'll hafta spend all day monday over here anyway.

we've agreed on the not-continuing-to-date-once-I-move-out thing, but it's much more mutual than anything (I'm taking this round much better than last year).
budd says he's gonna take some time off to get back to himself, and I'm not sure what I'm gonna do.
there's a very good chance I'll just start dating again, but I dunno if that's really what I should do. it's supposed to be a month off for every year spent together... so 5 months... but I've seriously never really been single that long.
I'm a lot older now, though. and I imagine finding someone new to go out with would be a bit harder seeing as how I'm rocking a ton more weight than usual. but I have an awesome personality, I promise!
maybe it'll hit me in a day or two, once I've moved out, but right now I'm pretty frustrated at his indifference and I think if I did just start dating randomly it wouldn't necessarily be because I want to, but because I suck at coping with things.
I guess we'll see.
at the very least I won't have a proper internet connection for a while, so I can spend some time with myself reading and maybe taking up knitting again.
or maybe I'll run away to dallas or the valley for a while, and just lounge about with friends and/or family.

speaking of family, my dad & my sister have been especially gracious in their time spent with me (and our meals).
I think they're worried I'm gonna take this breakup like I took the one with my david, but lol since they don't really know what happened back then.
I think I'll be fine. if we'd split up last year it would have been much harder for me, but things have certainly continued to fizzle over the last year... so I'm sure I'll be ok.
not that I don't wanna drown myself in a bottle, but it's not entirely because of budd.

and now I'm off to pack my toiletries and move my clothes. since, you know, I'll be sleeping over there from now on.

just gimme an excuse

2011-02-23T10:03:00.002-06:00

I wanna go back to dallas. I am trying to convince lus he should take a few days off and we can make a road trip out of it.
I'm gonna miss him so much when he's gone.
but for now - off to my sister's to put together furniture!

orgasmic

2011-02-19T21:32:00.002-06:00

the only thing that could make this trip better is if lus was here to eat all this deliciousness too (not that I don't love you guys that are here with me, 'cause I do! <3 to all of you!)
the downside is: I've probably gained 10 pounds

battle for shelf space: which action figure will win?!

2011-02-16T15:46:00.003-06:00

my trip to dallas has been so much fun. the food here is so wonderful and I don't ever want to go back to lubbock.
of course, I'm kind of afraid of crowds... and DFW is full of people.
still, though, fantastic food!

ikea was great. held off on buying the stuff until I'm headed out of town because the box for the couch is fucking huge.
and the rug is pretty huge too.
and after dicking around with a loft bed on display, I'm seriously considering just buying one instead of making one. I dunno, though - there's still so much stuff I hafta buy. I should sit down with a calculator and figure shit out.
on the bright side, when I get back into town I'll either have an entire half bedroom complete, or possibly the whole bedroom (depends on the bed).
I'm seriously thinking about getting rid of the huge desk that I have, since I haven't really used a desktop computer in years. but lus gave me a printer, and it'd be nice to have somewhere to put it.... guess we'll see.
I could just hold off on buying the bed and come back around for another vacation (seriously it's been like a week long slumber party so far) and lord knows my dad would be up for that. plus, now that I think about it, the box for the couch is so big that I don't think I could fit the box for the bed and the box for the couch in my truck's bed even if I wanted to.
I will talk things over with my dad and take it from there.

speaking of the slumber party.. I have had more to drink in the last week than... probably about the last 3 years.
there's this star trek drinking game....
and....
yeah....
:D

it lives!

2011-02-05T11:31:00.005-06:00

so this past wednesday & thursday my dad and I spent a few hours making me a bookshelf.
I'm pressed for space in my room, and previously I'd been using 3 small bookshelves (~ 3' tall, ~2' wide) and one large one (~ 5' tall, ~2' wide)... and I decided to make one big bookshelf to save on space.
I decided to place it along the wall by the door (the place where previously I'd been able to fit 2 small bookshelves) so it's 8' tall by 6' wide.
here are some pics!

me & my dad after getting one side attached

the back support

my dad standing next to it, before we attached it to the wall

loading books into it - found my copy of women

found my copy of the earthsea quartet

me unpacking a box of star trek books

books unpacked - still one entirely empty shelf up top!

so far I'm pretty happy with it :)
I've still gotta make a new coffee table, but my biggest concern is making my bed.
did I mention I plan on making my bed?
I'm hoping to build a loft bed (saving space is a continuing theme), so we'll see how that turns out.
and I knoooooow - the biggest space saver is the nook budd got me for christmas.
<3

I'm REALLY looking forward to having my own space again.
if I've said it once, I've said it a thousand times: I am never sharing a 1-bedroom anything with anyone again.

hurry up and wait

2011-02-01T11:37:00.002-06:00

well, I've filled out my fafsa and applied to my current college of choice.
just need to mail in my application fee and then start requesting transcripts.
hopefully I'll get in, but my gpa is gonna be super low.
so low I will have to petition the dean to get accepted.
but hey! hopefully I'll get started in the summer, or in the fall at the latest.

it's fucking freezing out.
so far, the warmest it's gotten is a whopping 9 degrees.
oi!
gonna make some tea here in a bit, and then get started on my model-to-scale loft bed.

I'm heading to dallas next week to stop by ikea.
I have a couch all picked out:

I haven't decided on an area rug, but I'm hoping to get one as well.

have decided to build the bed and bookshelf, and buy a couch & closet organizer.
it's gonna be great! wooh!
still need another fridge.. but then I should be set.
aaaaand gonna go make some tea.
brr!

I've got not soul to sell

2011-01-23T02:16:00.002-06:00

well I'm still here. should be going by the apt complex on monday to let them know I'm not renewing.

I'm not entirely sure what I'm gonna do.
the plan had been to get back in school asap, and I've done nothing so far to really get that started.

I feel like somewhere in this I settled, and I dunno when, or exactly what I settled on... or what I gave up on.

sophisticated kind of style

2011-01-09T14:08:00.002-06:00

took another trip to the valley, and got back this past thursday.
I had a great time, as usual.
while I didn't get to eat quite everything I wanted to (turns out the nearest friday's is in corpus, and due to my niece getting out late from school because of choir practice, we didn't have enough time to make the trip to & from in one afternoon), but I still ate quite a bit of things I'm fond of.
I got to spend a lot of time with my youngest older sister (that makes sense to you too, right?) which was nice because I didn't get to see too much of her last trip. she has a really loud laugh, and laughs pretty often, and apparently finds me super funny... and ended up spitting soda all over me after making a funny comment while she was drinking soda. while we were at kumori. and she kept urging me to hit on the waiter, which was pretty funny in itself.
so yes, I had a pretty good time. I'm glad to be home, though.
I was surprised at being sad to leave. that same sister offered me a job, which would pay more than I was making back at erf, and a ton more than I was making at telenetwork. plus, the cost of living down there is super low. I can get a 3 bedroom house in town for the price of the 1 bedroom apt budd & I share now. the job isn't tech support, but it's still not in a field I'm interested in.
guess we'll see what I decide when my lease here is up. and where lus ends up going to law school.

completely unrelated - I have a much better time with pandora when I put in 'george jones' than 'garth brooks' and I don't really understand why.

guilty pleasure :">

2010-12-22T08:56:00.009-06:00

I don't even know why, and I've never heard any of her other stuff, but I'm pretty fond of bad romance.
but don't tell anyone; I might deny I said that.
plus, at the end, the sparks shooting from her chest, always remind me of penance.
it may be playing now. again.

I've been playing a ton of WoW.
I'm really pleased with the expansion.
I'm eating up archaeology, and had planned on leveling it even before I found out the alchemy mount recipe is an arch drop. they added loads of new mini-pets & mounts, and a lot of really pretty clothes (gear) as well. :)
I've also rolled a worgen priest, but haven't gotten around to playing her. I named her "winafish" at budd's suggestion, since I didn't want to go with "tinafish" because I'm a bit psycho about people knowing my irl name.
budd seems pleased with the expansion as well, which is surprising. he's getting worked up again about switching guilds, but is at least considering applying to other guilds on medivh so he & I can still do some stuff together.
I haven't given any of the new battlegrounds a try yet, and I've only gotten into the very tail-end of a tol barad that we lost. but I'm hopeful that with the new guild achievements I may be able to scrounge a pvp group together some point soon.
pve... hah! I'm still struggling through pug regulars, and refusing to heal anything but guild heroics. budd's chomping to get to raiding but I could stand for another week of 5man heroics. while my gear is about as good as it's gonna get outside of raiding... well, I'm just not as comfy as I think I should be. on the other hand, 5mans are terrible since raid buffs are lacking. /shrug

I'd been planning on going home for christmas, but I don't think I wanna test my immune system just yet (since I just finished getting over the black plague).
and sarah's in town! hopefully we can get together for dinner or something while she's here.
milkdud was in town last week! we got together for dinner and had a pretty good time. I still haven't gotten him a birthday gift. I've given up on knitting. I'm just gonna buy him something.
but yes, I won't be going home for christmas but will be going home instead in early january.
ugh, my lights still aren't working. I need to get that fixed before I go, since with a 12 hour drive I'm either starting or ending in the dark.

and now for another episode of supernatural.

bryan adams is my hero

2010-12-07T13:57:00.000-06:00

I had a good feeling when summer of '69 came on pandora...
it's here! wooh!

I just completed a quest called "mortal enemies"

2010-12-07T13:47:00.004-06:00

the quest giver is a pirate, and the quest is to kill 15 ninjas.
I lol'ed.

and yes, cataclysm is out today.
I preordered a CE off amazon, and it's not here yet.
/sigh
I really wanna bitch, but let's be honest here folks - no way am I gonna fight crowds and/or terrible weather to get a copy at a midnight release.
plus, I'm sick. again. did I mention that?
same as before. ugh.
so no fucking way I'd have gone out to get a copy irl. not that it mattered much this year, since the expansion went live at midnight pacific time, unlike previous expansions that went live at midnight server time.

oh well. deliveries here are usually between 15 and 17.
more hurry-up-and-wait for me.

TIL

2010-12-01T07:54:00.004-06:00

ok so more like:
[a week ago] today I learned that my mother puts bell peppers in her stuffing.
I am shocked and amazed that I have been eating this stuff my entire life even though I have such an intense dislike for bell peppers.
I know this doesn't seem like a big deal, but I promise... to me... it's earth shattering.

I had a pretty great time while I was home.
I ate SO much.
thanksgiving lunch was great, thanksgiving leftovers were even better.
my sister cammie & I made some cream puffs using that pumpkin flavored pudding I bought.
my mom made those corn-raisin griddle cakes.
we stopped by my favorite sushi joint in the world (kumori) and had the more-fantastic-than-I-remember chihuahua roll.
we went to a huge flea market with little food stands every few booths. I had a roasted corn that comes with mayo standard! and a cup of jicama! and cantaloupe water! and watermelon water! and a spiraled fried potato on a stick (seriously it was heaven)! a cup of assorted fruits - watermelon, cucumber, jicama, cantaloupe... mmm! some dried shrimp. some fried wheat chips...
I also bought some snes games for james (barbie was the only game I could think of that he might not have played, but I did consider his sisters may have owned it - turns out he has played it, lol)
I am hoping to go back down for christmas, unless I get accidently employed.

speaking of christmas, budd gave me my christmas gift last night.
but I'm not allowed to tell you what it is.
I'm pretty stoked, and I think I may get him the same thing.
it'll be just like the year we gifted each other wiis :D

you know how I chopped off my hair a while back?
my sister and I got haircuts yesterday. she also got her hair colored - kind of a reddish brown. it looks pretty good.
we also bought a straightner. I'm planning to try it out here in a while.
currently I'm watching through tons of the stuff I tivo'ed while out of town.
and I'm gonna get back to that now.

and I call myself a glutton

2010-11-30T08:49:00.002-06:00

is it sad that I am more looking forward to the release of cata than I am to christmas?

my trip went well - am heading out for breakfast with lus but will come back with a post about my thanksgiving.

almost turkey time

2010-11-09T08:00:00.001-06:00

this sounds great!
seriously! I would love to try it.
also I wanna have another turkey pie, if I get the chance.

in other news, I put my notice in last week, and my boss took me off the schedule for the next two weeks, since I'm resigning.
/shrug
so I've got extra free time on my hands.
thinking I'm gonna try pro keys in rock band 3.

for now, though, I'm gonna make some pumpkin spice coffee & watch some sharktopus :)

selling point

2010-10-25T23:49:00.003-05:00

I'm fixing to head to bed (been playing diablo 2 and didn't realize how late it is) but I wanted to throw this out there before I forget - pumpkin spice k cups by green mountain coffee are fucking amazing.
if you've got a keurig, try it out. if you don't like it, COD me the remainder of the box :P
up until today I'd always considered our keurig an overpriced appliance we used to heat water (seriously), but now I'm planning on stockpiling this flavor to last me for special occasions (or particularly bad days) throughout the year.
now bedtime!

I love pumpkins as much as the next girl

2010-10-19T12:36:00.002-05:00

but the nightmares I get this time of year suck ass.

about that time again

2010-10-17T21:58:00.003-05:00

pumpkin season!
I've already enjoyed a couple of pumpkin pie concretes from our local frozen custard establishment, and night before last I had a wonderful pumpkin spice latte at the bookstore.
anyone wanna make me smell good?

you remember my david?
it's been forever. seems like it's not even me that went through that.
anyhow, at some point before things went to shit with him, I gave him a lightwedge. remember how he uses to spend all his time studying at assorted coffee shops? the lighting was usually pretty bad and I thought it'd be helpful.
fast forward to present day.
there's one lamp that we've got over in the corner of the living room, literally across the room from where I usually sit on the couch. budd likes to keep the light on, but only at the lowest setting. me, I'm more of a leave-it-off type of person, unless I need light for something (reading) in which case I want it all the way up.
instead of continuing to argue with him about the lighting, I went out and purchased myself a lightwedge.
I feel so behind... everyone I know has either an ipad, a kindle, or a nook. with my current and future (the next 6 months at least) financial situation, about all I can afford is a book light. and to read books I already own. starting now :P
but anyway, on friday I picked up books 2 & 3 of the mortal instruments series, and got the lightwedge as well.
so far I've been pretty pleased with the light, though I'm considering exchanging it since there's a bubble in the surface that is easy to ignore but I find extremely annoying when I do notice it.

so I read the first 3 books of the mortal instruments, as I mentioned. I liked them well enough, seeing as how I've been in a sappy/fantasy/action mood lately. there will be 3 more, and I didn't find out until I'd already read the first one and bought the second and third.
I was anxious when getting close to the end of the third book - I was really worried I'd be stuck with a cliffhanger. and with the fourth book not coming out for another few months I'd have been kinda pissed that I let my sister drag me in to an incomplete series. but no worries! book 3 wraps quite up nicely, with the major story lines wrapping up (albeit a bit too conveniently).

aside from that, nothing's really been going on.
I'm still employed, for now. this month's review hinted at "administrative action" for my high call times, and though I'm still making an effort to improve I'm still about 85 seconds too high.
so I'm giving notice on nov 1. at least I'll be able to go home for thanksgiving.
my sister will be working, and I burned bridges with budd's family last year, since I'd been certain I wouldn't be with him for another holiday season. and I don't want another holiday where I stay home and play WoW while he spends the day over at his parents'.

speaking of family, budd got a new job and won't be able to take any time off for the holidays to go meet mine. I know I shouldn't hold it against him, but it's been a while now and he's never displayed the slightest interest in meeting the people who actually raised me.
I know he couldn't possibly have arranged it, but part of me resents him for being able to legitimately weasel out taking the trip.
I'm always surprised by how selfish I am.

good eats :D

2010-10-02T23:11:00.002-05:00

so I went to dallas last weekend to watch my brother & his latest band play somewhere, but due to bad weather the event got pushed back so I didn't get to see it.
I did, however, enjoy some pretty tasty food.

milkdud & I went out for some sushi friday evening, and saturday for lunch my brother took us to that brazilian joint again. yum!
for dinner saturday my brother made fajitas (yum again!)... and on sunday morning my sis & I stopped at a jack in the box on our way out of town.

and the fair is in town.
^_^

AND budd got me pho for dinner tonight.
seriously good times.

budd went out and purchased a new receiver & speaker system.
he seems pretty stoked about it.
it's all fancy with a mic you plug in and put in different areas of the room so it can optimize the speakers or whatever.

milkdud got me sc2 for my bday, did I mention that?
I've been playing through the campaign on casual, and still failing missions.
/sigh
and you can't coop the campaign!
the story is pretty engaging, though, and I'd much rather just read the book so I wouldn't have to go through the trouble of playing.

I've also been considering reading the WoW books, but then I'd probably nerdrage when the game went against lore.
perhaps when I [inevitably] get fired. I've been on borrowed time since july... so...
yeah...

I should really visit my main page more often

2010-09-21T10:17:00.001-05:00

ugh, but the ptr beckons...

yay screenshots!

2010-09-10T16:44:00.003-05:00

I'm only linking to the page I published, so you won't have to look if you don't want to :P
WoW dressup

also, it's official.
my sister & I tried cherry garcia & peach cobbler to be sure.
peach cobbler is the new winner.

long hard half hour of work

2010-09-09T08:50:00.003-05:00

I'm off work early, guess I should do laundry... though I've very tempted to go back to bed.
I still have to check in for my on call shift this afternoon, so I'm not really free.

I just wanted to post about my WoW awesomeness!
I solo'ed hgmt yesterday for the first time, on my priesty!
kael was no match for me & my shadowfiend!
(plus, mc makes it almost cake)

budd renewed his WoW account, which was a shock.
I imagine he'll be wanting to find a new guild pretty soon, and I am convinced he'll be trying to get into the guild our former guildmates formed.
which would mean a server transfer back to aegwynn, but I dunno how I feel about that.
on one hand, supposedly it is higher pop than medivh is now, and my alt guild is still over there.
on the other hand, ugh @ leveling on a pvp server.
of course, it'll come down to whether or not budd wants to go back, so there's no point in me fussing either way.

if my truck doesn't start I'm going back to bed.
otherwise, laundry.

double dipping

2010-08-27T14:53:00.002-05:00

so budd & I went to see the expendables on wednesday.
*ahem* spoilers below:
wtf @ sylvester stallone & his characters (rambo & the guy he plays in this movie) having some sort of connection with some chick that never gets explained. why does rambo care that some chick jesus fan wants to go to burma? why does whatever-this-guy's-name-is care that some chick didn't leave her country? I seriously want to know.
at least the chick from this movie is hot, but the one from rambo is... well, mediocre, at best.
*sigh* done I suppose.

oh and for an update in wow!
we downed lk last night.
I can tell you're excited.
I was... underwhelmed.
with a 30% buff to us and this late in the game... well, I guess it's still better than not having killed him.
perhaps this is why I'm mostly indifferent to raiding. whether we wipe or whether we kill the boss, I always seem to be doing the same thing as I was doing the attempts before, to where I know the outcome of the encounter doesn't really rely on me.
the last time I felt like I really made a difference was back in BC, against alar in TK. I was the last healer up for about 5 mins (not really sure, but it felt like forever) and was chain casting the entire time. gg! my twin ocd's must-have-retarded-amounts-of-mana-regen-in-case-I'm-ever-the-last-healer-up and must-stack-haste-because-I-want-to-pretend-I'm-secretly-a-shaman let us have our first alar kill.
the best time I've ever had was in ZA, on our first bear run. it was the first time we 2 healed it, and we were trying killing the first few bosses in a different order than usual. that night was the best boss kill I've ever had. seriously.
perhaps if we had ever legitimately killed kael, since we put so much effort into him. significantly more time than we spent on illidan, and then I never saw sunwell.
I dunno. we downed lk after... maybe 3 real weeks of attempts. as opposed to the months I spent wiping on kael.
*shrug*
so anyhow, I've got some screenshots from last night's kill, and since this is my blog you may have to suffer through seeing them.

I'm off work early, and I think I may enjoy some cherry garcia while reading one of the harry potter books.
just to be sure, you know, that my favorite ice cream has actually changed.

ice cream 4: s'mores

2010-08-12T22:19:00.003-05:00

hrm.
it's been a while since I ate this one, but I haven't gotten around to blogging since I've been busy playing dress up.
well, the chocolate ice cream was pretty great. which is a good thing, you know, since it's the bigger portion of the pint.
from the description it sounded like it'd be rocky road but with no nuts and added cinnamon.
and I love me some cinnamon.
there were marshmallows, I guess, but I don't know that I can differentiate between "cold marshmallow" and "cold toasted marshmallow." maybe if I was more of a marshmallow connoisseur, but my love of fish sticks leaves room for no other!
the places where the cinnamon swirl were... like, it made the ice cream come off in chunks. does that make any sense? wherever the cinnamon swirl was the ice cream would come off in huge spoonfuls along the cinnamon-fault line, rather than just a regular spoonful. not bad, just kind of inconvenient.
supposedly it had bits of fudge, and it probably did, just I don't remember them.
so yes. pretty similar to rocky road, imo. just with cinnamon instead of nuts. maybe, anyway. now that I think about it all I know is rocky road is chocolate ice cream with marshmallows and some kind of nuts? just googled it, and indeed rocky road is chocolate ice cream with marshmallows and usually bits of almonds. according to wikipedia it's the 10th most popular ice cream flavor. but wikipedia lies (read: I am still crushed by the biblioburro incident).

biggest pro: yum chocolate ice cream
biggest con: cinnamon fault lines

TLDR: blue bell's rocky road is cheaper and easier to handle

aw :x

2010-08-08T14:23:00.001-05:00

my mom sent me a birthday gift...
a big box full of 10 bags of apple chips.
\m/

WoW RP clothes

2010-08-06T17:39:00.010-05:00

so you know how I'm a chick? well in case you didn't, I am.
and I play a lot of WoW, right?
I collect non-combat pets and mounts.
I have a full set of the biggest bags in the game (well, minus 1 bag slot and 3 last-expansion's-biggest-herb-bags) with all bag slots purchased in my bank.
those bags slots used to be filled with assorted pets and mounts (before blizzard made them not take up any inventory space in this expansion).
now I collect clothes. and some cool looking weapons.
kind of.
it's gotten worse over this expansion, what with bigger bags and my mounts & pets not requiring inventory space.

I've been meaning to screenshot all the shit I have now and show y'all, 'cause that's how awesome I think it is.
I mentioned my brother being in town, right?
I'm pretty sure I did. well his daughter was intrigued with WoW and how I have one of each healer (so was my brother).
so I logged into my favorite character (the ever popular sockninja¹) and decided to show them some of the outfits I've created.
my awesome fishing outfit, my cooking outfit, my full set of t6 (the bits that I actually deserved, not just stuff I can get at 80), my nearly complete t1 set² (milkdud & I run MC almost weekly), the s2 armor that makes sock's wide & child bearing hips look not quite so wide, assorted cute dresses complete with matching MH/OH³ frill & head pieces, a yellow outfit I made when I finally got my AB tabard, and... you get the idea.

I recently acquired a chest piece that looks like a tshirt while questing on my little female creature and knew I had to get it on sock while I had the chance (before cata may-or-may-not remove the quest). so I did, and had been trying to build an outfit around it.

I picked up some awesome (lame) looking socks & sandals shoes a while back in a BWL I got invited to.
aurora pants look a lot like some rolled up jeans, and I liked the look but I've been aching to use that foot piece I just mentioned.
so I headed over to the auction house to "try on" all the leg items listed. by sheer luck I happened to find some shorts (at least, they look like shorts on a human female).
I give you the only wow shorts I've been able to find.
they went fairly well with the outfit I had in mind, so I snatched them up.
I also put on an offhand that looks like a plain black book.
I'm pretty happy with how the outfit looks so far - like I'm heading off for some light reading in the sun somewhere.

since then, though, I've been trying to find more shorts.
and I've not found anything! well I found some scandalous panties but I'm not into my priest looking like a whore. I also have seen a lot of capri type things, but I want something above the knee.
slave suggested trying wow model viewer a try, and I guess I'm gonna have to.
in the past I've tried checking a WoW database for all cloth leg items (was looking for a nice skirt to go with my sawbones shirt), but having to go through and click on each one & then also view in 3d takes FOREVER.

so I'm at a loss.
we all know how much I hate talking to people I don't know, but I'm pretty close to registering at a WoW RP clothes site and asking if folks there have seen any others.
but ugh I don't want to.

*sigh*
anyhow, I'll be back soon with a write up of my latest ice cream taste test.
for now, I'm off to try and convince budd to get me some spinach alfredo pizza. yum~

and yes, I got a bit carried away with the superscript. I know.
too bad I didn't feel like looking up go-to :P

¹ give my gear a break; my guild is less-than-casual (read: dead) and I hate pugs. AND I raid mostly as holy (hence the heavy spirit) but spend most of my time as disc
² benediction included, along with vanilla enchants :) and sometimes I LFD with 2 pallies and heal heroics in it :D
³ main hand/off hand

maybe they do have souls after all

2010-08-03T20:00:00.002-05:00

my brother was in town for a death in our family... I spent about 18 hours with his kids this past thursday. it was pretty intense, though they were remarkably well behaved.
the kids were pretty impressed with budd. his video game collection was a factor.

oh and good news - starting tomorrow sweet potato fries are back at outback!
wooh!

ice cream 3: peach cobbler

2010-08-01T12:13:00.003-05:00

it was fantastic, y'all.
seriously.
the peach ice cream was tasty, the bits of crust (shortbread, I think?) were great, and there were huge chunks of peaches as well.
I feel like I should try to tell you more about it, but I think the only thing that would explain it is to pick up your own pint and give it a whirl.

biggest pro: I am a huge fan of peach cobbler
biggest con: for how good the bits of crust were, there should have been a few more

TLDR: cherry garcia is dead. long live peach cobbler.

ice cream 2: happy tracks

2010-07-28T22:17:00.002-05:00

it was ok.
it sounded delicious, though.
"Happy Tracks is a creamy vanilla ice cream loaded with chocolate-coated peanut butter cups and a dark chocolate fudge swirl."
yeah. about that.
it was plain vanilla, if that makes any sense. like, I'm a fan of homemade vanilla because it tastes vanilla-y. this stuff tasted like... well, I dunno. like plain ice cream.
the "fudge" was just swirls of what tasted like hershey's chocolate syrup.
the peanut butter cups were pretty large (for ice cream, imo) and kind of sparse.
it went better than the chunky monkey, in the sense that I at least ate the entire pint. but it's not something I'll be purchasing again. I'd eat it if I happened to find a pint in the freezer, but not something I'd go out of my way for.

biggest pro: I'm a pretty big fan of peanut butter cups
biggest con: lame tasting vanilla ice cream

TLDR: would try again as long as I'm not buying.

ice cream 1: chunky monkey

2010-07-12T17:16:00.002-05:00

it was gross :(
and I really REALLY wanted to like it.
I tried it twice spread out over a couple of days, and the first time actually went better than the second time.
the ice cream itself was so overpowering it was offensive, but I enjoyed the bits of fudge and walnuts. only at the same time, though... which took some creative spooning (it was hard to see the walnuts since they blend so well into the faded yellow of the ice cream).
I ended up throwing about half the pint down the drain. and we all know how much I hate to waste ice cream.

biggest pro: chunky monkey is a lot of fun to say
biggest con: super artificial banana taste

TLDR: would not do again.

elvis always gives me the best results

2010-07-09T22:59:00.003-05:00

I tried pandora recently, and it seems nice.
it completely sucks for country music, but I think only because I don't listen to the radio anymore (I only ever did on my short drives to work, and now that I work at home I don't drive hardly anywhere).
I really love it when I put in elvis as the starting place.
I know the country bit won't get better until I start liking/disliking stuff, but you can only skip 4 songs (or something super low) an hour? so for now, I'm sticking with starting with elvis.
I wish there was a way to import my audioscrobbler history, but my half-assed google search didn't bring up anything.

I've been going through pics tonight, to show lus some pics from the trip to albuquerque back when I turned 21. he & james recently went to a rush concert out there, and I was sad I didn't get to go. I guess he thought it was 'cause I'd never been, but mostly it was because I love road trips and eating at new places. so does lus, and I hear both he & budd had awesome steaks at some steakhouse out there.
/envy
I also emailed my sis a few pics since she doesn't seem to recall much about the trip. that made me kinda sad, since I had such a great time, so I sent her ~ 30 pics. that's quite a bit that than "a few" and her gimp internet connection (I think she's rocking 768k) is gonna freak. I sent them medium sized, but I bet it's still several megs worth.

I went grocery shopping a few days ago and decided to pick up more ice cream than anything else.
I ended up bringing home... I think 7 different flavors just for me.
I haven't started yet, and it's not like I plan on eating them all in one sitting.
plus, after that frozen yogurt blunder (cherry granola crunch, by blue bell) ... every bite is like a kick in the mouth; imo spree has nothing on this stuff. it's like, natural cherry flavor rather than artificial cherry flavor, so it is SUPER tart. the taste grew on me, but seriously it's a kick in the mouth. every. single. bite.
so I was up for a splurge, and staying away from frozen yogurt.
I'll let you know how these flavors go :)

I love lus

2010-06-21T14:17:00.003-05:00

so, lus and I...
ok lemme start over.

me, lus, my sis, my dad, and budd went out for dinner a while back, out at texas roadhouse. there'd been a huge fiasco about my dad & sis coming and then not coming and then finally showing up, so budd was a bit miffed and not really joining in conversation.
and, as often does with my dad & sis, the conv turned to how awesome god is
and you know how I'm pro-suicide? well I mean, not in general, but I don't think you should burn in hell for eternity because your life sucks. because my soul is worth more than a collection of my actions, and I'm sure yours is too.
and my sis said something about the bible... and then there was a baby a few tables over.
and I said something like, "well according to the Church if that baby chokes on a cracker and he hasn't been baptized he's gonna burn in hell for eternity too"
which is bullshit, 'cause I mean, babies aren't evil (but they are! lol, ok, not really, but still I don't want one), and I don't really care for the idea of original sin
so then lus said something about ambushing babies with holy water to save their souls, and I said something about a super soaker...
and he & I were laughing pretty hard.
my dad & sis were shaking their heads disapprovingly.
and james was dicking around on his phone, probably.

anyway
lus' bday was a few weeks ago and I hadn't gotten him anything (aside from assorted desserts, yum!), so when I was at walmart a couple of weeks ago and we passed by a super soaker display I bought him one.
so I wrapped it and all, but hadn't seen him again until yesterday.

and I got an email this in an email from him today:
First of all, thanks to you and your thoughtfulness, I have "saved" all of the unbaptised babies within a one-mile radius of my house. Praise be!
(Secondly, can you bail me out of County Jail?)

I love him so much :D

LOL!
I just noticed the subject of that email.. "lus the baptist"

you are what you eat

2010-05-26T11:28:00.002-05:00

and I've been enjoying some good eats!
lus and I went by stella's for desserts a few days ago... and they were all FANTASTIC.
I really can not tell you how fantastic they were.
the food at stella's is shit, but we stopped in for a place to chat and snack. it's nice and quiet and the water is really nice.
we ended up ordering 4 desserts to nibble on, and we were both super surprised at how tasty they all were (because seriously, the food in general is shit)
we took some crap photos with lus' phone, but here they are anyway:
all four desserts, and a lemon berry cake (possibly the lemon layer cake listed on their online dessert menu, but I don't really recall), a chocolate confusion (fucking amazing), really great carrot cake (yay fiber :P ), and créme brulee (our favorite of the four).
my favorites, in order: créme brulee, lemon cake, carrot cake, chocolate confusion.
I only remember lus' fave was the créme brulee as well, but I know his list didn't match mine.
and not to say the chocolate confusion wasn't awesome, 'cause it was. seriously they were all really REALLY great.
if I keep talking about this I'm gonna end up typing in bold, italics, and increasing font size trying to get the point across, lol.

and now some not so fantastic food:
tuesdays are all-you-can-eat ribs at the rib crib.
they were pretty tasty, though a bit spicy.
I felt fine last night, but after digesting them for 12 hours my body wants nothing to do with them.
so imo, if you have the chance to eat ribs from the rib crib, you should pass.
=/

budd doesn't like it =/

2010-05-22T12:50:00.004-05:00

my hair a few months ago:

here's how much I'm gonna send to locks of love:

this is the shortest I've ever had it:

I didn't mean for it to be this short, but I kind of fucked up with the pony tail placement. and I had hoped the length difference wouldn't be so drastic, but I guess I needed more than just tightening the edges and trying to make the center loose. oh well!
it'll grow back soon enough. >.>
and while I do have more than just one shirt, that is my favorite shade of grey :P

it takes one to know one

2010-05-20T16:45:00.002-05:00

yeah yeah, I know I said I was gonna upgrade to wordpress. I've been saying that for years.
I've been wanting to talk and haven't been able to because of the ftp stuff, so here we go.
I set up redirects, and hopefully I'll be motivated enough to properly upgrade sometime soon.
(I don't really believe it either, but I promise it's on my mind)

more leet than you

2010-04-26T12:58:00.004-05:00

due to a scheduling error I'm off all week, so I figured I'd dick around in battlegrounds and break 100k hks.
because of the ridiculously low pay and the erratic hours I haven't purchased my ipad (YET!) but I am still hoping for one.
I think maybe I will try to convince budd I was kidding about getting a real table (lol @ trying to have dinner with budd while breaking los to both the tv & his comp screen) and try to squeeze my books into the tiny dining room area.
in which case I won't buy an ipad (or if I do, it won't be with the same urgency) and instead will get a papasan. we all remember how badly I want one, yes?
I don't think he'll go for it, but it would be nice to have some of my stuff here. aside from my mr coffee coffeemaker, that he recently replaced with a super fancy keurig coffeemaker. I still have my tea press, but that keurig thing heats water extremely quickly. plus I don't have any fresh loose leaf tea anyway. super-plus, summer is coming and it's not really hot tea weather around here. we'll see, I guess.

I've been working on a family tree over at ancestry.com. I'm hoping to get a calendar made for my mom for mother's day, which is kinda silly since I had to get everyone's birthdays from her anyway. but she didn't give me years! I'm sleuthing!
I'm also wishing I had taken more photos of family and less photos of food while I was home. maybe instead of pics of family members I'll put in pics of food they prepared while I was home for christmas. lol.

happily ever after

2010-04-15T14:20:00.000-05:00

I got my truck back on monday. ^_^

debridement

2010-04-08T11:14:00.002-05:00

slave's cut me out of his life.
deservedly so.
I suppose it's for the best, but he was my closest friend.
I'm hoping in a couple of months he'll come around to at least talking to me again.

I cry alone

2010-04-03T13:35:00.004-05:00

things have changed.

he says he's quitting WoW ^_^
I log more hours in-game than he does (lately, anyway, which is why I think he'll actually do it), but I've never been as hardcore as him.
I'll be sad if he just picks up another mmo, but I'm sure we'll manage.
he's talking about actually working on my millenium falcon model! wooh!

I got a job.
some work-at-home bullshit, but it's a job.
I was talking with milkdud about maybe just grabbing a ccna for the short term.
not that it'd be easy... especially not for me. but Lord knows I can't find a job doing anything but tech support anyway.

things with slave need some work.
he's my best friend and I've been hiding from him.
I know he means well, and I need to put the effort into our friendship before he walks.

my truck is still MIA, but my dad has been extremely helpful with the moving.
AND we managed to give the monster-tv away.
speaking of my dad, sounds like he just pulled up.
I'll try and be 'round more often, but between moving irl and needing to move to wordpress... yeah yeah.
I think, once I start working on the site, I'll see about adding the photo albums back in.

I tank galv

2010-03-07T17:36:00.002-06:00

I know it's been a while, but I'm trying desperately to not get all emo.
or at least to not document it so clearly.
I went from mostly being ok (or at least thinking I was ok) to random fits.
even hit the bottle a bit last weekend with mcrough... that was a bad idea.
I can see myself falling into another downward spiral if I let myself.

it's always fun to realize I'm not who I thought I was.

^_~

2010-02-19T08:04:00.003-06:00

blogger is stopping ftp support.
I think I am being forced to upgrade to wordpress.
/sigh
I'm gonna hafta run my own backups.

seething mass of self loathing

2010-02-10T06:10:00.002-06:00

ok so I totally screwed up the move out date! by a whole month!
on the bright side, I get to squander my time for an extra few weeks.
on the not-so-bright side, pretending sure sucks ass.
oh well; I've been through worse.

I'm meeting lus for brkfst this morning...
I'm aiming for the pork chop plate over at ranch house.
yum~

twilight

2010-02-01T06:59:00.005-06:00

so I read the books, and they're nice stories.
I'm still surprised by how much I enjoyed them.
it's a helluva love story.
didn't really help my mood, though.

I had a fantastic time in dallas.
I've been meaning to post about it but I wanna include photos, and really that's a big hassle.
so for now I'll just sum it up.
we stopped by the new cowboy stadium. we ate at a place called chef pointe cafe. lus & I had lunch with my brother. we went to ikea. and I think that's it. oh we also hit up a dunkin donuts.

the show was amazing, btw.
I was concerned because I've watched dvds of comedy shows.... like, there's 2 versions. the live version and then the dvd version. the live version is usually about twice as long as the dvd show, and it usually sucks pretty hard even though the dvd version is funny.
so yes, I was concerned it would be like that.
but it wasn't at all, and I really really enjoyed it.

I need to start packing.
only a month left and there's so much I need to do!
well, pack and rent a storage facility. so really not that much, I guess.
can definitely pack up most of my dishes and most of my clothes.
I need to find a job for when I move. =/

I've been toying with not getting an internet connection, but I think my guild might kill me, lol.
did I mention I got promoted to officer? about a month ago.
I was confused, since I had been class lead whenever budd & I left the guild.
they hadn't filled the position when I rejoined, and then a while later they made another priest class lead.
so I figured it was bad blood btwn me & budd and some of the other officers.
and then some officers were getting demoted and decided to leave instead, and then I got offered a seat in upper management.
I was a bit concerned, at first, that slave would be offended. he is, after all, real life friends with most of the guild.
he seemed to take it in stride, and really there's been nothing different aside from one meeting and then a couple of conversations in-game.
what with me being unemployed I've been spending a lot of time in-game.
not so much recently, I guess. with the trip and then the reading.
but I've finished the books so I'll probably spend all day idling in dalaran.
or maybe I'll finally start the lotr books.
of course, I should really be packing.

^_^

2010-01-22T00:47:00.005-06:00

the show was fantastic!
will properly update maybe tomorrow? or when I get back to lubbock.
seriously though this trip has been pretty great so far!

zomg!!

2010-01-18T23:49:00.000-06:00

baron dropped his mount!!

the big seven three

2010-01-12T13:07:00.002-06:00

today's my dad's birthday... my sis & I took him to ihop this morning.
had a good time, and had originally planned on taking him out to a movie but I think all three of us ate and got tired.
I came home and got a bit sick (yeah, I shouldn't have eaten so much all at once) so here I am.

I'm watching west side story.
I haven't seen it since high school, and while I don't really remember it I do remember being underwhelmed.
but oh man, it is soooooooo sad.
and adorable.
and then even more sad.
like, holy shit, it's really fucking sad.
and on that note, I'm gonna go grab some more tissue.
:'(

wooh

2010-01-08T05:50:00.001-06:00

got my wintersaber mount today :D
bedtime!

dear blizz,

2010-01-08T02:12:00.001-06:00

RE: wintersaber rep

plz lower respawn timer for furbolgs.

SRSLY!

it's always on heroic

2010-01-05T20:25:00.003-06:00

so we went to the mall to pick up bayonetta and I picked my new glasses too.
they're super different! like, the lens is a lot smaller, so it's taking some getting used to. plus, of course, the prescription is different.
I'll see about posting some pics of them, but atm I'm still getting used to them.
I've already got a headache, but I'm determined to at least wear them for the raid tonight.

I've been talking to my brother a lot lately; he's really pushing for me to move to dallas rather than back to the valley.
we'll see, I guess, but I doubt I will.
while dallas is a lot closer than lubbock is, it's still kind of missing the point.

in wow news,
the guild got a new site today.
it's cleaner than the old one, but I think I like it less.
plus I'll need to make a new post in the 'introductions' forum... I've been here for a year and I just dunno what to say.
welp. raid time. I'm gonna feel bad if we wipe 'cause of my new glasses, but hey! I'm not the only healer!

there is a glow

2010-01-01T01:20:00.000-06:00

happy new year everyone :)

how I've missed holidays at home

2009-12-24T20:09:00.002-06:00

and crazy family too!

ten rounds with wells whiskey

2009-12-20T21:20:00.003-06:00

budd's company christmas party was significantly nicer than mine (seating wise) but the food was about the same.
afterwards we went to some bar with his coworkers where I had a few drinks.
they seem like a nice crowd. :)

we had dinner with sarah tonight :D
went to outback (yum!) and had a chance to catch up.
also got to meet her pugs! they are so adorable!
I guess I always thought they were small dogs, but they're medium sized stocky little fellows with skinny legs.
they're also really good-natured; they came up and loved on us and everything.

I'm getting a little nervous about going home, but it's too late to change my mind.
plus my dad is going with me and we're renting a room, so it can't get too bad.
I am really looking forward to midnight mass. it's gonna be so nice to see my priest again, in my church.
there's nothing quite like it, and every church I've ever been to is measured by the small brown church I grew up in.
don't get me wrong, I like other churches... but none of them are home.
I haven't asked my mom if it's been remodeled, and I will be quite let down if it has been.

top gear is on now, and they're doing holiday gift ideas.... it's great, lol..

I believe I can see the future

2009-12-17T11:31:00.000-06:00

we had our company christmas party last night.
the entire evening was pretty mundane.
the seating was terrible - felt like we were in a high school gym for a sports banquet.
I ended up sitting next to the guy from corporate, and the seats were so close together we kept bumping elbows.
the food wasn't bad, but I still prefer the steaks at fridays.

I went and ordered new glasses yesterday.
also got a pair of sunbglasses (wooh driving during the day here I come!) that I think are pretty cute but the salesguy and my sister weren't very impressed with.
I've still gotta get my last eyedrop prescription filled and then I'll be all ready.

work hasn't gotten any better yet, but I only have a week left.
I really doubt that I'll come back to work here, but I guess it's possible.
maybe a little break is all I need and I'll come back to work happy.
it could happen, right?

hermmmmmmmmmmmmman

2009-12-12T00:21:00.003-06:00

I had a meeting with the bigwigs of wbs today...
well, not the biggest wig, but the second biggest and then one maybe 4th down the line.
whatever, I've never even talked to these people before but they supposedly want me to stay.
/shrug
they talked about changes coming soon and all the usual nonsense (even a raise! lol @ staying for only $1/hr more but whatever), but there is no further room for advancement (unless chino drops dead or I move to the corporate office) and I'm not even interested in this field, ya know?

so I dunno.
I am still going home for the holidays and we'll see how things go.
for now, I'm dragging ass so I'm going to bed.
long day of farming the icc 5mans in wow tomorrow!

grats to me!

2009-12-10T08:40:00.000-06:00

I put my notice in yesterday.
wooh going home for christmas!

underwhelmed

2009-12-07T20:51:00.002-06:00

nothing came of that meeting, btw.
well, nothing drastic. just more of the same things-will-be-tight-until-we-get-the-new-investor-and-then-things-will-get-better (they never get better)

I've got errands to run on wednesday!
new glasses? perhaps!
more eyedrops (just in case)? yes please!