Saturday, May 15, 2021 :::

oi
 

last friday we got our first moderna shot. we both had fevers all weekend with varying other issues. we skipped work on monday and half of tuesday. only managed to hold out for a full day on wednesday due to an afternoon full of meetings. we've both still got lingering side effects... but the worst part of all of it is that the old recurring stress injury in my shoulder is back in full swing. burning throbbing that is too deep for massaging to help, it's dreadful. I'm amazed that I used to just live like this. and I'm sad that the bf is now experiencing it too.

::: posted by tinafish at 1:14 PM :::


Saturday, March 13, 2021 :::

jfc I wanna get off this wild ride
 

welp, the bf got diagnosed with rce so that's been fun. and we've both got terrible allergies and with how the wind has been blowing (plus both of us spending significant amounts of time outdoors while on site) we are both sick now. aaaand the deadlines aren't going anywhere.

::: posted by tinafish at 11:27 AM :::


Wednesday, January 27, 2021 :::

it'd been a long time since I cried at the office
 

 I also officially told my advisor that I'm dropping out of school.


::: posted by tinafish at 6:16 PM :::


Monday, December 21, 2020 :::

“hand me the bone file”
 

welp, it wasn’t a bit of tooth.... apparently it was bone =/

::: posted by tinafish at 8:11 PM :::


Saturday, December 19, 2020 :::

jfc @ the last couple of weeks
 

 last week the bf's car essentially died so we made an impromptu day trip to DFW to get him a new car.
(couldn't make it more than a day since we had already RSVPed to the company christmas party on saturday so we left friday morning and returned friday night - he got a pretty great deal and the new car is really nice!)

on thursday I missed a call from the dentist's office
I got an email about the insurance claim from the ins provider and it showed that they only covered less than half of the total cost (both visits) and that I'd owe the dentist ~ $700 (I already paid ~ $850 up front for both visits).
so I wasn't entirely blindsided but tbh I was shocked at what the ins co covered and what I'm left responsible for.

PLUS the entire ordeal was so physically painful!
I didn't eat anything solid from nov 19 (due to the infection) through dec 4 (had some soft noodles the bf made). counting it out that's only 16 days but I lost about 10 pounds in that time (even drinking fluids was difficult so it was near impossible for any real kind of calorie intake).
in fact, I've still been struggling with what I thought was some weird scar tissue (it was raised) that was still tender.

it was not actually scar tissue.

when I woke up friday morning the back left side of my tongue was sore and achy.
turns out what I thought was scar tissue was actually a portion of tooth that was not removed.
it busted through my gums overnight and has been a pain in my [tongue's] side since then.

I called the dentist on my lunch break on friday.
they close at noon on fridays.
I left a really awkward voicemail about returning their call and also could I get back on the schedule as there's a portion of tooth sticking out and causing some pain.

it's funny in that I had just talked to my advisor on wednesday about the car and the water heater and he said something like, "well hopefully you can make it through the rest of 2020 yada yada," and I sure the fuck could not.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:18 PM :::


Wednesday, December 16, 2020 :::

fml
 

my shower this morning was dreadful... tepid water even with the heat turned all the way up.
turns out our water heater was fucked up.

since I struggled through the shower you're god damned right I was going to work!
my truck doesn't have heat.

real...  fun morning today.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:26 PM :::


Friday, December 04, 2020 :::

so hungry
 

I can eat popeyes mashed potatoes (though their gravy is fucking spicy) but I cannot eat the cheesecake factory's mashed potatoes without mashing them further (too chunky)
had popeyes on tues and cheesecake factory's last night.

smoothies, yogurt, and soylent for 2+ weeks straight

so fun.


::: posted by tinafish at 9:14 AM :::


Tuesday, November 24, 2020 :::

I cried about it
 

 it went pretty terribly.

we tried just laughing gas and I ended up having a panic attack and crying and they had to stop for a while. gave me some anti-anxiety drug and then went another round.

apparently those long roots combined with a dense jaw bone made things go not-so-smoothly.

I've got a prescription for an opiate and swallowing hurts so much it brings me to tears.

I'm currently trying to decide between having a smoothie for lunch/dinner and just waiting until tomorrow to eat anything.


::: posted by tinafish at 3:28 PM :::


Sunday, November 22, 2020 :::

consequences
 

I haven't been to a dentist since I left the valley. 
over the years I've considered going but have essentially been paralyzed by the amount of choices here.
on thurs I woke up with pretty extreme pain so I broke down and went to a dentist suggested by a coworker. 

I got put on antibiotics due to an infection, got lectured about needing to get my teeth cleaned, and got my teeth cleaned. they did say my teeth looked good for someone who hasn't seen a dentist in 15 years (and I also have long roots!), but they did not look good otherwise (5 cavities, yikes).

on monday my wisdom teeth are getting removed.
I'm pretty nervous. it'll only be my left side for now; will do my right side once my ins resets with the new year.

I also developed a stye yesterday.

super SUPER fun.

and just in time for the holiday, too. hah!


::: posted by tinafish at 12:02 PM :::


Thursday, October 15, 2020 :::

rain man
 

 he is rain man when it comes to all things RF,

wish I had something I was that passionate about.


::: posted by tinafish at 9:59 PM :::


Sunday, October 04, 2020 :::

lazy days
 

now that the playoffs are over I have a fair bit more time.

I had some work to do today but I can't get into my comp at the office atm.

so instead I made some tea, did a load of laundry, and have been half-assedly doing schoolwork.

it's been a nice day.


::: posted by tinafish at 1:10 PM :::


Saturday, September 12, 2020 :::

what a fucking waste
 

 yesterday was our anniversary.

he bought some booze and surprised me with stuff to make breakfast over the weekend.

and all I did was have a few drinks, apparently announce that I was trashed, then fell asleep on the couch.

at about 2030.

what a fucking waste.


::: posted by tinafish at 2:42 AM :::