Thursday, January 29, 2004 :::
Squishy managed to chew up David's new glasses last night.
Lucky bit me this morning when I was trying to take his harness off after I walked him.
Fought with David.
I got pulled over on the way to school.. making me late.
d00d gave me a warning. At least I didn't get a ticket.
Fought with David some more.
I was making dinner... I guess to try and smooth things over... only... I didn't expect him to stay. He went out to study last night... but he didn't get to 'cause the guys he was studying with were talking to him. So I figured he'd be studying like a madman tonight. Only... he told me when he walked in that he wasn't gonna be staying at the apt for long.
'Cause he was going to a hockey game with the guys.
I know I shouldn't have gotten upset... only...
*shaking head*
Well I got upset.
*sigh*
So we talked.
And I told him the truth - about how I feel, why I've been snapping at him... and what I want from our rltnship.
He said he didn't know that getting an email from him mattered to me.
I dunno what hurt me more. That he's not been doing that, or that he didn't know it mattered to me.
And I don't want him to change. Not for me. Not for something like this.
I can learn to live with it. I'd rather live with it than leave.
Maybe I should change?
::: posted by tinafish at 8:38 PM :::