Friday, February 20, 2004 :::
I used to have hidden links on my website... pictures and thoughts, and a poem...
I've been missing him. I'm not sure if "missing" is the right word. I want to know him - how he's doing and such. I wanna see him again. That hasn't been a realistic thought for the last two years.
I'm going down in November. I could see him again.
I might run into him by accident. He'll know I'm down. Someone who knows both of us is bound to see me.
What would I say?
...
what would i do?
I want to say I'd be civil. There's just no telling, though.
I am happy now. David is a wonderful person and I can't imagine my life without him anymore.
I used to say that about him.
I still do.
I was driving home from school this past afternoon. I was worrying about David's gift getting here in time.
"It's been a year."
Such a short time.
I cannot explain how I made that leap in my mind... from today and tomorrow... back in time to yesteryear.
I do miss him. But I don't want to go back.
This makes no sense.
David is all I want - he fulfills me.
Then why do I miss someone else?
I miss the way he laughs... the way his eyes go from hazel to brown when he's angry... I miss his fuzzy hair when he sweats... I miss...
I do not miss the jealous rage. I do not miss the angry hateful looks he gave me.
But I do miss him.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to accomplish with this.
I love David.
How can I miss someone else?
::: posted by tinafish at 4:24 AM :::