Wednesday, January 12, 2005 :::
like I said on r00's blog, I'd have sex with him if he had that mac mini.
lol.
what's most funny is that it's true.
I went out with my boy Chris last night.
hadn't seen him since before david & I split up.
it was... trying.
and I was drunk.
and crying.
I made a fool of myself... like I do.
lol.
no really I did though. Seems I was looking for some sort of validation? or some answers? I don't know.
But I feel really bad 'cause I was a mess. I don't usually get that busted up unless I'm provoked. And I wasn't provoked last night.
*sigh*
Got home a bit past 0200... and I had to get up at the crack of dawn.
today's my dad's bday. we went to ihop this morning. My eyes were all puffy from crying... it was pretty bad.
plus his chick showed up. It was supposed to be just me, my dad, and my sis... but his chick always goes anyway. I dunno if she just doesn't care, if he doesn't tell her 'cause he doesn't wanna hurt her feelings, or if he just doesn't care. It reminds me a bit of Father's Day the first year I moved up here. In my whole life I've never seen him on father's day. And here I was in the same town he is... and he decided to go to dallas to spend the week w/ my brother.
*shrug*
After brkfst I went home & napped for a bit... well, not really napped... mostly I just laid in bed with my eyes closed & waited 'till it was time to come to work.
Yes, I'm at work. Gizmo & Milkdud aren't back from Cozumel yet... so here I am at work at such an ungodly hour.
methinks I'm gonna nap a while when I get off work.
*yawn*
::: posted by tinafish at 11:49 AM :::