Monday, February 21, 2005 :::
he's dared me to quit today.
more of a request, really... he's been awful worried about me since I started drinking.
So I may as well.
I mean... the reason I had such plans to get trashed today is 'cause today would be my & david's anniversary.
but it's obviously not.
(times like this I'm really glad I decided agst buying tinandavid.com)
So it's not our anniversary today, and I was gonna drink myself into oblivion because of it.
But you know... I'm really not as bad as I used to be.
I used to drink every day w/ the sole purpose of forgetting about him for even just a couple of hours.
And it's true what I used to say - my problems are still there when I sober up. But it's so nice to be able to just not worry about anything for a while... a little vacation every day.
Now I don't drink near as much - twice a week at most. As opposed to a few months ago when I'd wake up and have a couple of drinks right after I'd brushed my teeth, and I'd keep drinking throughout the day.
I was really bad there for a while.
Now I'm not so bad.
I go out now for the company. And I can keep doing that, even if I stop drinking.
At least, I think I can.
And with the money I save on not drinking I can finally start working on that wishlist of crap that I want.
so wish me luck, ya'll.
here's to a sober tina.
*cheers*
::: posted by tinafish at 1:17 PM :::