Wednesday, March 09, 2005 :::

oh but there ~is~ intimacy on the net
 

lus and I have discussed internet rltnships more than once. he doesn't think that my friendships w/ people online are... palpable. Like... he just doesn't understand how I can consider people I've never met irl to be my closest friends.
but it's true.

my oldest friend that I talk to on a regular basis is my friend Rob. I've known him for 5 years now... but I've never met him irl. We cam fairly often, and we chat mostly every day...
and that may not seem like much... but lately... well I went to jr high in the town I'm from, high school in a town 40 miles away, went to houston, then back home, then here... it's really hard to keep in touch w/ everyone.

I met lus a while after I moved up here.
he's the best friend I have irl, and I've known him for... maybe 2 and a half years.
and we're pretty close, ya know?
but I tend to have issues w/ opening up irl.

I've been trying to convince rob to come visit me.
he said earlier that I don't even know him.
and that stung.
mostly 'cause it's probably true. He and I were really close up until david & I started dating. since then he's had a serious gf, and my whole outlook on life has changed.
so he's right.
and that makes me sad.

I think at this point slave may be my best friend, just 'cause even now we have so much in common. I've only known him for ~ 2 years, but we have a really good friendship.
only... I know I'm not the person he calls his best friend.
I don't think anyone would call be their best friend.
and that more than stings.
::: posted by tinafish at 4:20 AM :::