Sunday, April 10, 2005 :::

so maybe stupid happy is a bad thing
 

I was really in the mood for some crown last night. just a nightcap, like I'd said.
/me sigh

you know how I'm always saying justin makes me stupid happy?
well.... I get this buzz from being around him... giddy and in a really good mood.
thing is, the buzz I get from being around him is... way better than the buzz I get from drinking.

last night, I drank ~way~ more than I'd intended to.
I used to give lus garbage for drinking half a bottle of crown that one night... and now I can't talk, 'cause I did the same thing. at least he had the sense to do it at home, when that only adds up to about $20 worth of liquor.
/me sigh

I kept drinking and drinking last night...
and I never did reach that same giddiness that I can acquire from just talking to justin.

I'm glad I got sick.
I don't think someone my size needs to keep that much alcohol inside.
what I just can't get over is how I ~didn't~ feel.
I should've listened to slave.
::: posted by tinafish at 12:56 PM :::