Friday, May 20, 2005 :::
and I'd also forgotten just how much of a fool I am for justin.
it's really funny, actually... when I see he's logged in, without even opening an im window or receiving one from him, I get all flustered and my heart starts beating faster.
I swear that boy has caused such an uproar for me.
*shaking head*
I was like... ~so~ into him... (seems maybe I still am?)
it's made dating quite an obstacle now, instead of something I was doing just 'cause I'm bored.
I've become really short with the guys I date... and I'm in no mood to even talk to or chat with them, much less hang out.
seems all they do is echo... like a shadow of who I want but am unable to have.
and honestly this is a good thing - the my-not-having-him part.
this way I can keep that perfect memory of him.
'course that'll just make finding the next guy more difficult, but it's ~such~ a pretty picture.
::: posted by tinafish at 2:33 PM :::