Monday, June 06, 2005 :::
maybe I just needed a dose of sg1?
like... I'm still kinda wallowing atm, but I feel loads better.
methinks watching sg1 has a euphoric effect on me.
I still don't know if I'm gonna publish this is or not.
I blog a lot, but some posts don't ever make it to the page. I've got a few that are just drafts, that I either didn't like the way I sounded... like, if I can't really translate my thoughts into words.
and other drafts are like this... when I don't really want anyone to know.
/me sigh
this is, after all, my diary.
think I'll just blog now, and decide whether or not to publish in the morning.
I dunno how else to describe the way I feel... aside from this analogy I pulled outta my arse earlier, when I was talking to doke on the phone.
I feel like... like I've got a glass of water. and this water is me, ya know?
and like... there are all these people around that are thirsty... and I keep passing my cup off to those around me, even though I'm just as parched as they are.
and when I finally have my cup back, all my water's gone.
I know that's pretty cryptic, but really that's the best I can do right now.
I wish there was someone around who'd let me drink out of their glass.
just a sip, ya know? just so I can remember what it feels like to drink.
::: posted by tinafish at 6:36 AM :::