Thursday, July 07, 2005 :::
held me up on such a breakable string
it's done.
I wonder sometimes...
it would have been so much easier to just block him off months ago...
but you know, I'm on really good terms with almost every guy I've ever dated...
that's something I'm really proud of.
but with doke... it's harder than with anyone else.
what I wonder is... if this was my self-assigned penance.
and I wonder if it's worse or better than just flogging myself.
lately more and more I've been wanting to get in a fight...
fist/bar fight - you know what I'm talking about.
I still haven't been able to decide what I find more attractive...
finally venting my frustrations...
or being beaten for them.
::: posted by tinafish at 2:06 PM :::