Tuesday, September 30, 2003 :::

written during history class

Well I'm sitting here in History class trying desperately to stay awake. I just can't seem to do it. I've been dosing in and out all class period. I think maybe it's her southern drawl. Seriously, it kinda lulls me to sleep.
Oh I'm sooooooooo excited! My financial aid finally went through!!!

Oh gawd I'm fighting to stay awake but I'm sitting here typing and falling asleep!!!

FYI: That was written yesterday afternoon while I was in history class. As you can see, it did not go well.

::: posted by tinafish at 10:22 PM :::

more pics!

ok so looks like that worked!

Here's one of me and David in that toke (sp?) shop in Albuquerque. lol.

Here's one of me and David in the garage before my bday party.

Here's another of us smoking out at that bong shop!

And I'll add more pics later on! For now enjoy these!
I just dloaded iBlog, and I may start using that...

::: posted by tinafish at 9:22 PM :::

Monday, September 29, 2003 :::


so I'm trying to use my .mac homepage to host some pics so I won't have to hound David to host them for me. I'm not sure if there's a reference number involved and I don't really have time to check so here's the quick c&v.

we'll see how it goes...

off to school for me!

::: posted by tinafish at 6:34 AM :::

mango ice cream

well I can't sleep. I put a load in the wash and now I'm just waiting for the day to finally get here.
I'm jamming to Joan Jett & the Blackhearts and eating mango flavored ice cream.

I can't get Fire to log in to my yahoo acct. I'm thinking maybe I'll just do what David does and only use msn & aim. But there are loads of people on yahoo!

yes so I guess this is all for now.

Dunno why I'm eating ice cream when it's 57 degrees outside.

And gawd my shoulder's been hurting!

::: posted by tinafish at 5:24 AM :::

Sunday, September 28, 2003 :::


jeezuz my shoulder is doin some serious hurtin

::: posted by tinafish at 4:51 AM :::

*crazy stoked*

And oh muh gawd!!!
Someone's used my tagboard too!!!

Gee this is like.. an AWESOME day!

ok gonna go work for real this time...

::: posted by tinafish at 12:06 AM :::


oh I'm sooo stoked that someone's actually using my feedback system!!!

Yes comment all you want! I'm paying for that option so puh-leeze feel free to use it!

;o) <- in honor of my awesome VeggieCake!

::: posted by tinafish at 12:00 AM :::

Saturday, September 27, 2003 :::

Gotta write another song...

lol. Yes, we did finally go to the fair. And I had sooooooo much fun! I ate sooo much and had such a great time!
Yes and the highlight of the day was when we saw this person dressed in this outfit... some sort of robot... it was great. The person who was in the outfit had these platform shoes on.. the end result was a larger-than-life cartoonish robot that stood... oh maybe 8 or 9 feet tall.
I had the deep fried Snickers bar. It was kind of disappointing. I'm not sure what I was expecting, but the whole deal just tasted like a Snickers that I had left out in my truck on a hot day. Very disappointed.
Oh and we only got on 2 rides. The first one was... a let down. Didn't even need the little restraint.
The second ride... well... I forget what it was called, but there's a good chunk of it that you spend upside down and spinning in circles. Now I had bought a showerhead (yes, I know it sounds like an odd thing to get at the fair) for one of the girls that I work with, and I had it in my sweater pocket. I also had some keys in my pocket too. I didn't want any of this to fall out so I kinda swiveled in my chair to where the restraint (that made a "V" over my chest) came to a rest directly above my sweater pocket, to insure that I wouldn't lose anything. haha. Now here's the funny part. Since I was swiveled... well the restraints are made to grab on to someone sitting straight. While we were spinning around in circles and upside down I started to fall out!!! I kinda hollared over at David, "I need my seatbelt!" He hollared something back about how he thought it was a cool ride too. lol. Guess he thought that I was just saying it was fun instead of saying that I was dangerously close to falling out. Now that I think about it I shouldn't have been so concerned since most likely my bodacious hips wouldn't have made it out. lol. So that was the last ride we rode.
Oh and someone noticed my shut up shut up shut up shirt! hehe.
We also saw Joan Jett and the Blackhearts in concert... and let me tell you she is A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!! I totally love her... and I noticed tonight that she kinda reminds me of Bryan Adams.
Ok I've gotta get some work done now. That's what they pay me the big bucks for, ya know.
*rolling eyes*

::: posted by tinafish at 11:43 PM :::

oh how I hate... H-A-T-E my VeggieCake


Yes it's true I hate my VeggieCake!

He's a turd!
A Turd Extraordonaire!
Who takes oh soo soooooooooooo long to get dressed!!!
And even longer to shower.... oh!

Yes it's true... I hate my VeggieCake!

By the time he's dressed -
After spending hours on end deciding what to wear...
And then still more time he spends...
on how to comb his hair!

Yes it's true... I hate my VeggieCake!

After all this time I spend waiting..
For the fair...
has run out ...
... of food !!!

oh how I hate... H-A-T-E my VeggieCake

::: posted by tinafish at 10:40 AM :::

wow that blows

ok so one of my friends just got admitted for ventricular tachycardia... that blows.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:48 AM :::

I (L) my VeggieCake...

oh hun I know I can be difficult... You are just so crazy awesome for putting up with me! Yes hun, you are THE AWESOMEST VeggieCake I know!!!

*fishy kisses*

so yes... I was late to work. Now don't get me wrong - I'm always late to work. Thing is tonight I was an hour late for work. And my sis had been calling and harrassing me this afternoon so I had changed my voicemail greeting to something like, "Yes, this is Tina. Don't leave the time you call. Unless you want to leave a different callback number don't tell me what number to call you at. Don't assume that just because it's been a couple of hours since the last time you called that I want to get the same message again. Don't waste my time!" So yeah... since I was late my cn called and got to hear that. lol. She was like... "Hate to bother you but you should be working tonight..."

Oh we're going to the fair tomorrow!!! *stoked*
I'm going to eat sooooooo much! I can not wait! I'm gonna go home and wash my shirt (I'm wearing my shut up shut up shut up shirt right now and I want to wear it to the fair too!) and then shower and comb my hair and then I'm going to wait for David to wake up so we can go!!

On a completely different note... Squishy, the HellSpawn, chewed through my power adapter so now I'm unable to charge my computer. So I can't do my homework. *grr* And it's gonna cost me ~ $100 to get a new one!
It's like... why couldn't he have gotten fried while he was chomping away?

Yes David and I got into a sort of fight tonight. He dumped me, kinda. Then he came back and said he was sorry. I'm really glad he did 'cause I'd be crazy bummed without him. See there's a sort of difference of opinion in regards to what "love" means. I love him with like... all of me. No matter what, ya know? And he says he loves me "unconditionally, as long as.." So you can see why there's a disagreement. *sigh*
We kinda duked it out in front of Aromas and all. I can't hardly tell when he and I are fighting. We both just kinda sit there and talk.... but we're both kinda peeved, ya know? It's intersting.
Anyhow... All's well in Tinaville. lol.

off to do some work - caio!

lol... I was finally able to be bothered enough to look up the image.
I my VeggieCake!

::: posted by tinafish at 3:45 AM :::

Thursday, September 25, 2003 :::


oh man I had some really good meat earlier this evening! I'm not sure what it was... could have been either chicken or beef... I'm leaning towards beef though.

Did I mention that at that wedding we went to they had some steamed vegetables that were sooo sooo soooooooooo good.


::: posted by tinafish at 11:27 PM :::

the human mind...

Aoccdrnig to rscheearch codnutced at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in
waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are tpyed, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the
frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit oedrer. The rset can be a total mses and
you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not
raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh?

::: posted by tinafish at 4:14 PM :::


so I took Lucky for a walk just now.. were were gone for like 15 mins maybe... and David came out looking for us in case we'd been stolen...


::: posted by tinafish at 1:40 AM :::

Wednesday, September 24, 2003 :::

shut up shut up shut up

my shirt came in!!

w00t w00t!!!

and my buttons too! they're crazy small but no worries!!

::: posted by tinafish at 6:50 PM :::

Reply to the Question: "How Can You Become A Poet?"

take the leaf of a tree
trace its exact shape
the outside edges
and inner lines

memorize the way it is fastened to the twig
(and how the twig arches from the branch)
how it springs forth in April
how it is panoplied in July

by late August
crumple it in your hand
so that you smell its end-of-summer sadness

chew its woody stem

listen to its autumn rattle

watch as it atomizes in the November air

then in winter
when there is no leaf left
invent one

--Eve Merriam

::: posted by tinafish at 5:56 PM :::

Sonnet 130: My Mistress' Eyes Are Nothing Like the Sun

My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun;
Coral is far more red than her lips' red;
If snow be white, why then her breasts are dun;
If hairs be wires, black wires grow on her head.
I have seen roses damasked, red and white,
But no such roses see I in her cheeks;
And in some perfumes is there more delight
Than in the breath that from my mistress reeks.
I love to hear her speak, yet well I know
That music hath a far more pleasing sound;
I grant I never saw a goddess go;
My mistress, when she walks, treads on the ground.
And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare
As any she belied with false compare.
-- William Shakespeare

I just think that's the sweetest poem ever... It's like.. I'm ugly as sin but my guy still loves me...

::: posted by tinafish at 5:25 PM :::

Tuesday, September 23, 2003 :::

another chapter closed

I talked to my ex, BoB, last night. Apparently he's getting married. I feel differently than I thought I would. I'm not upset, or jealous, or angry... I'm happy for him. When I first moved up here all I could think about was him. Over the last 2 years I dated around and learned a lot about myself. I like to think that I'm a different person now than I was when he and I were dating. And I'm sorry that I didn't know all the things I know now back when he and I were together. I do hope that he's doing this to be happy, and not to see what kind of response he'd get from me. When I was younger I was mean, and jealous... and he let me. He put up with everything... which is amazing, honestly. If David thinks I can be difficult he should have known me when I was in high school. lol.
As I lay in bed last night I couldn't get to sleep straight away. I stared at the ceiling and thought about this. I guess somewhere along the line, I got my closure from BoB. I had been really concerned 'cause a close friend of mine asked me to be in her wedding... and I was afraid to go back to the Valley. BoB and I were together for a long time... it'd be difficult to go back there and face everyone, and everything, I left behind. My old stomping ground, ya know?
BoB was a huge part of my life for so many years...
And David? David's my life now. From the moment I met him I knew that he was the one. lol. He still doesn't believe me when I tell him this.
A couple of weeks ago he and I had a sort of "disagreement." You see... I tell him I love him all the time. And I do, ya know? Which is really odd, if you know anything about me. When BoB and I were dating BoB had to practically pull my teeth to get me to say that. And with David I just kind of spit it out all the time... daily, or more. So I was concerned about that. Why do I keep telling David that I love him? I mean, who am I trying to convince? Him? or Me?
That concept bothered me loads. At this point all I know is that I do love him. I've still not had the nerve to meet his mom, though. I'm scared outta my mind that she's gonna hate me. She's gone by his apt before and seen some of the things I've put up... so I don't think she's real impressed. I soo want to make a good impression, though. David's an only child and I know that if I jack things up there it'll be BoB's mom all over again, only infinitely worse.
I dunno... just feels like another chapter has closed in my "Book of Life." Guess we'll see what this next chapter's all about.

::: posted by tinafish at 6:24 PM :::

Sunday, September 21, 2003 :::

she looked beautiful

I just got back from a wedding. One of the girls at work, Rouselle, got married.
I love her dress. Plain white satin... a chiffon shawl... a string of beads woven into her hair.... a small sort of tiara... with her hair up. She looked beautiful. I need to remember that when I get married I want people to look at me, not at my dress. I hate those dresses that are covered with light-refracters and long trains. I really do love her entire entourage.

so sleepy... must do hmwrk....


::: posted by tinafish at 9:22 PM :::

Saturday, September 20, 2003 :::

whatachick'n combo with bacon and cheese, onion rings instead of fries, root beer, and an apple pie

the breakfast of champions.

::: posted by tinafish at 11:23 PM :::

here I sit, once again...

For those of you who've known me long enough... you know that's part of a poem I wrote a few years back. And just so you know... No, I'm not that bummed.

I'm sitting here at Aromas trying to stay focused on my history hmwrk but it's not happening.

You know.. I've been thinking about tanning. If I had a darker complexion I'd wear light colored eyeshadow. Like yellow. Or pink, maybe.
It'd be great.

::: posted by tinafish at 1:04 PM :::

buy stuff

I just created an account with CafePress.com so now you can buy stuff from me!
Not just yet.. I've gotta put stuff in... so I should be good to go here in about a week.

::: posted by tinafish at 3:56 AM :::

Friday, September 19, 2003 :::


I was reading over these last few posts and judging from my grammar and such you'd guess I was in grade school!
Yeah... I dunno what I had intended this blog to be, but I'm fairly certain I missed whatever I was aiming for.

::: posted by tinafish at 11:58 PM :::

an orange bag with a yellow stripe just isn't enough!

ok so I put a splat on my comp, and then I added a tink sticker too.
Now my bag came in and I need to put some patches or some buttons or something on it 'cause dammit an orange bag with a yellow stripe just isn't enough!!!

::: posted by tinafish at 1:30 AM :::

Wednesday, September 17, 2003 :::


it's been a hell of a day...


::: posted by tinafish at 10:10 AM :::

fucking itunes man

no Led Zeppelin
no Tim McGraw
no Ani Defranco

fucking itunes man

::: posted by tinafish at 2:01 AM :::

Sunday, September 14, 2003 :::

gawd I need a new truck

My truck is broken. Again.
Makes what... 4 times in the last 2 weeks?

::: posted by tinafish at 5:30 AM :::

Saturday, September 13, 2003 :::

new features

so I've not posted in a while and when I come back I see all these new features and stuff. ooh...

School's started and I've been keeping busy.

I bought a new satchel and a diskonkey on Thurs. They've already shipped so I'll have them within the week.
David's comp still hasn't come in.

Lord I need some madd scrilla!
I applied at cox tonight so we'll see how that goes.
Stenocall never did call me.
I have such plans for the next $1500 I have to spare. Now if only I could come up with that amt of cash.
*daydreaming of owning an ipod and a new phone*

::: posted by tinafish at 4:30 AM :::