Wednesday, November 30, 2011 :::

I wanted to ring out the bells and fling out my arms and to sing out the news

we had a fantastic time in the valley.
and in houston.
and briefly in dallas.

even after spending 12 hours stuffed in a car with him,
what I wanted most in the world was to curl up with him and nap.
and after 6 straight days together,
I still just want to curl up with him and nap.

the fall will be terrible, but I do love him.

more to follow eventually :x

::: posted by tinafish at 2:08 AM :::

Thursday, November 17, 2011 :::

strangely burdened

the company I work for is providing me with a phone now.
$100 for an iphone 4s, or a free iPhone 4.
I went with the free one.

they'd been threatening for months,
but yesterday they finally handed me one.

I think I need a proper purse or something.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:40 AM :::

Monday, November 14, 2011 :::


"We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.” ― Dr. Seuss

::: posted by tinafish at 10:33 PM :::

Friday, November 11, 2011 :::

stabbing with sweetness

he put a soda in the fridge for me last night (while he was locking up the house), so I could have a cold mountain dew (some flavor I'd never tried) while at work today.

there may or may not have been tears, but I know I misted up pretty badly.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:14 AM :::

Tuesday, November 08, 2011 :::

it's shit like this, cabbage

edit for my last post - instead of "had I always felt I belonged in the jesus fan camp?" it should read "had I never really belonged in the jesus fan camp?" and I am updating that post to reflect it.
I ended up with a mesh of my thoughts and I don't proofread as often as I should.

so the bf had a friend come into town.
he asked if it was ok if, instead of spending his evening with me, he could spend them with his friend.
there's no way I can say no, you know?
but the illusion of choice.... I am eating this up.
I am consistently surprised by how well this dude handles me.

he's also really sweet. randomly.
I like to tell him that most of the time he's a dick (we both talk a lot of shit) but randomly... he'll stab me with a random act of extreme sweetness that is often so poignant I tear up.
like, he writes me notes. pen and paper notes that he leaves for me to find when I wake up and he's not home.
I can't think of any other examples, but I promise... random sweetness.

::: posted by tinafish at 10:36 PM :::

Tuesday, November 01, 2011 :::

in the light, I'm quite transparent; in the dark, I'm such a dream

so the little chick who sits next to me in my bible class is a pretty hardcore jesus fan.
she used the phrase "science nerds" as a derogatory term to describe people who don't believe in creationism.
it was like the first time someone called me a "fucking breeder"

had I always felt I belonged in the jesus fan camp?
that I was never exposed to the other side of the name-calling coin?
that I didn't even know the phrase even existed

::: posted by tinafish at 8:48 PM :::