Thursday, November 30, 2006 :::


so tooter & I were talking about people we used to date, and the dumb reasons we've dated them.
justin and oregon trail came to mind.
and I had a dream about him last night.
when I woke up this morning, I had a message from him.
weird, huh?

::: posted by tinafish at 3:53 PM :::

Wednesday, November 29, 2006 :::

there's only one reason you play cheating songs

sunday night mcrough and I went to chinastar.
I had dinner; he was there for the company.
the highlight of the evening was when I took the raw fish off my sushi and placed it in his wallet.
budd and I were... fighting? I dunno... it really frustrates me that he doesn't eat anything but certain foods.
he's always saying he'd do almost anything for me, the almost being his eating habits.
I was in a foul mood, and either mcrough didn't notice or didn't feel the need to ask. so we jacked around laughing through dinner. it was nice.

monday I was in the mood for pot roast from ihop (we'd been to ihop on saturday, and I accidently ordered french toast instead of pot roast - in my defense, they do sound kinda similar)
so I had my pot roast, and it was amazing. I enjoyed it so much I drug budd and my sis to ihop again last night for more pot roast.

I still have no idea what to give him for christmas.
it's gotta be something awesome; something I'm excited about giving him.
so far... all I've come up with is a wii.
and as much as he wants one, I think that'd be kinda generic.
just 'cause I know he wants one, 'cause all he's talked about since it launched is how much he wants one.
plus, he'd totally expect it. well, maybe not ~expect~ it, but he'd hope.
so I dunno. he likes anime and video games, but I don't know enough about his likes to make an educated purchase.
looks like he may be getting a gift a few months late, since right now I'm drawing a blank.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:14 PM :::

Monday, November 27, 2006 :::

for all that you are

budd's great.
I think we're serious.
I also think I wanna leave him.
because of what could happen.
nothing beats how it feels when he hugs me - something about him wrapping his arms around me feels like home.
and when things go to shit, I'll be fucked.
horrible reason.
had kind of an involved talk with the sexxxy brit about this the other night.
I just don't know.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:24 PM :::

Wednesday, November 22, 2006 :::

walking talking true love

friday budd, sarah, and I went to go see the prestige.
it wasn't a bad movie, but I don't think I liked it. I didn't ever relate to or even like any of the characters.
I was sad, 'cause the preview looked so awesome.
and it was absurdly cold out that night. budd likes to park out in bfe, so I'm certain I was near hypothermia.

saturday... hm.
we stopped by the hospital to take my sister dinner, then headed over to walmart to see about a wii.
they had 20. passed out little tickets to the first 20 people. guy number 20 had been there since noon. guy number 1 had been there for 2 days. we rolled in at 2230.
half an hour to wait, so we did. budd had read somewhere that walmart was getting 50, but I was just kinda hoping that in their haste to get a place in line someone had forgetten his (yes, all guys) wallet. no such luck.
drove by toys r' us when we left... there was a line out front. they open at noon.
guess just neither of us was dedicated enough to get one. in my defense, I'd voted for camping a website.

I don't think we did anything sunday.
monday we went to best buy and to a movie.
I finally bought dirge of cerebrus (yes, I too have heard it sucks) and star trek encounters (a game spock is awesome was raving about a while back).
also picked up this movie called 'kinky kong' with a cover that made me laugh. it's just a guy in an ape suit. purchasing it made budd uncomfortable, so I laughed some more. he's just so bloody prussian.
we watched the new bond movie. it wasn't bad, but gawd it was long. especially the opening credits. I don't want credits to dazzle me. I want to think they're not there.
we got out late and budd was sleepy and it turned into him not going in to work yesterday.
I think maybe I'm not being such an awesome impact on his life... but he claims he's happy, so I guess I can either believe him or not.

today's been quiet so far, and I'm sure it'll be boring. with the holiday tooter's not in today and I do believe gizmo's asleep.
guess if I don't get back before then, have a happy thanksgiving.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:13 PM :::

Tuesday, November 21, 2006 :::

good with the bad

so wooooh I made rank 10. but booooooh I still can't afford the riding skill for my av epic mount.
and as much as I swore off pvp after rank 10... I can get a super cheap epic mount at rank 11.

hopefully the patch'll go through soon and none of this will matter. ugh I can't believe I'm saying that, but it's true; pvp's turned into a chore for me. gotta churn out my 300k worth of honor to rank/not lose my rank. when the patch hits it'll all change, and really I think it'd be nice to do stuff aside from sit in wsg/ab while I wait for av to pop (wsg, ab, and av are all battlegrounds - that's where most of my honor comes from).
in other news, (or as lus would say, "on a less boring note") neither james nor I are the proud owner of a wii. it just breaks my heart, ya'll. I'd totally quit WoW for zelda.
we had an awesome weekend, and we met up earlier this evening as well... I promise I'll write more later, but for now I'm gonna get to bed.
my eye hurts.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:33 AM :::

Saturday, November 18, 2006 :::

break up is imminent

when things go to shit btwn budd and I... well... I can assure you the primary reason (the one I'll be citing, anyway) will be his incredibly limited diet.
chicken. pizza. burgers.
and only american chicken.
no asian food.
nothing but american chicken. pizza. and burgers.
it's shit ya'll.

::: posted by tinafish at 7:59 PM :::

Thursday, November 16, 2006 :::

it's not penance if it's self-inflicted

I talked to adrian today.
we're so similar.

budd & I went to see stranger than fiction on tuesday.
it occurred to me that it was a chick flick when he buys her flours. not flowers, but flours. she's a baker.
I was like, "awwwwwww..." then "wow that's mushy."
I think I'd have liked it a lot more if I'd gone into it expecting mushy.

and wooooooh I've got an extra debit card in my pocket.
porn city here I come!
not really. milkdud'll be here to grab his card in about 20 mins. :(

::: posted by tinafish at 8:58 PM :::

Wednesday, November 15, 2006 :::

just another battle in just another war

compromise is shit. it really is.
I mean, say budd wants to go skateboarding.
say I want to go swimming.
so as a compromise, we end up spending the day surfing.
we both may have a mediocre time, neither unsatisfied yet neither truly enjoying the activity.
so maybe what compromise means is to suck it up and do something you don't wanna do in order to make your SO happy.
say I hate skateboarding. but if he wants to do it I'd rather he be stoked we're skateboarding instead of him feeling 'meh' about surfing.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:25 PM :::

Tuesday, November 14, 2006 :::

this message may save your life

naked juice's "protein zone" is fuck. all. disgusting.
avoid this drink at all costs.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:43 PM :::

the aftertaste oozes disappointment

and budd showed me this; it about breaks my heart.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:20 AM :::

Monday, November 13, 2006 :::

status: resolved

I had a horrible saturday night. or sunday morning. or whatever.
headache. nose bleed. vomiting. gross in general.
sunday evening budd came over to watch unleashed.
great fun. I felt loads better.

I had the nerve to try another naked juice thing today.
"mighty mango"
it's not so bad... almost good, really.
if I was just a bit more of a mango fan I'd love it, I'm sure.
I bet my sis would; she's a mango fanatic.
(see what I did there? /me glances in mcrough's general direction)

budd's been talking about wanting to take a vacation.
have I mentioned that here already?
I really don't know; but it's been on my mind a lot lately.
he said something this weekend about us having been together for a couple of months.
gross, huh?

::: posted by tinafish at 12:51 PM :::

Sunday, November 12, 2006 :::

you're the love I've found

well I feel gross, and to top it off I'm at home dozing on my couch.
I had this extravagant plan to nap a bit earlier, then stay up all night for mass in the morning.
at the moment I'm in a foul mood and I have a horrible headache.
I've been feeling gross since this evening, so I didn't eat anything.
I ate a while ago, just in case I've been feeling gross because I hadn't eaten anything.
no such luck.

and since I'm playing WoW, may as well give an update.
my priest hit 58 on wed, 59 on thurs, and I've been trying desperately to make rank 10 before I hit 60.
dunno how that's gonna work, though. honestly I don't think it will, but I can try anyway.
budd's still 56, and I certainly don't wanna leave him in a different pvp bracket. plus having a full set of gear at 60 would be nice too (I've got 4 of 6 pieces right now; the last two I can't get 'till rank 10),

I think it's about time I started thinking about what to give budd for christmas.
I've already decided what to get my sis, dunno about my dad, though.
so I still feel gross, and I can't think of anything else to write... I'm gonna go back to moping.

::: posted by tinafish at 3:04 AM :::

Thursday, November 09, 2006 :::

the face in the dark

night before last budd & I went to walmart. I bought assorted crap, some socks, and some juices.
naked juices.
the two I've had so far are absolute crap.
berry blast = shit
that green one with kiwi = shit.
I'm almost afraid to try any of the others I bought (did I mention I bought one of every flavor they had?)

::: posted by tinafish at 1:34 PM :::

Wednesday, November 08, 2006 :::

on the darkest day there's always light and now I see it too

remember how justin made me stupid happy, and it annoyed me?
gosh that was a long time ago...
now I think it's so nice to want to be close to someone.

::: posted by tinafish at 6:52 PM :::

Tuesday, November 07, 2006 :::

he wants american chicken

I had another wonderful weekend with budd.
we watched the marine (crazy awesome!) and the 5,000 fingers of dr. t on friday night.
saturday... wait... maybe we watched that dr. t movie on saturday? I dunno... but I do know we watched a load of naruto.
like... 8 episodes? maybe more?
we got into a bit of a spat about dinner... I wanted so badly to go to saigon, but he's such a damn picky eater.
oooooooh and we went to sheridan's for a pumpkin pie concrete (yum!). I think that was to make up for him not liking any food I like, and it totally worked.

yesterday was javi-er's birthday. we made plans to go out for lunch or dinner this coming weekend - saturday, I think.
gawd I haven't seen that guy in forever.
and lus! last night! bought a bmw (a green one, that's the best I can do)! and he comes by my house so we can go for a drive, end up going to ihop. on my try to get back into the car, my bodacious hips caught something on the panel where the seatbelt is. long involved story short, I broke his new car. :(
he laughed about it, though, but I still feel like a douche.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:16 PM :::

Monday, November 06, 2006 :::

all the broken pieces

I had a dream sometime last week - thursday, I think - that BoB is having a child.
I've been really restless and not sleeping well since then.
made for an interesting weekend with budd.

speaking of budd.
I'm happy with him.
not saying I'm in it for the long haul, but I am happy for now.
and I feel guilty.
when I met him things kinda just evolved in a matter of days.
I can think of a few people who were put off by me suddenly being part of something again.
especially when I'd been so adamant about not wanting to get involved with anyone.
honestly I still don't know why I felt (feel?) budd is different.
but I sure alienated a lot of people, and when things inevitably go to shit with budd, those people'll still be out of my life.
and the ones that stayed... well... I doubt things'll ever go back to how they used to be.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:31 PM :::

Thursday, November 02, 2006 :::

[between the sheets]

::: posted by tinafish at 8:35 PM :::

Wednesday, November 01, 2006 :::

that ain't my shadow on your wall

today is nicc's birthday.
funny how all this worked out, huh.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:14 PM :::