Friday, October 31, 2003 :::

I've decided

Yes it will be the 14" iBook.

~Summary ~

� 640MB DDR266 (128MB built-in & 512MB SO-DIMM)
� 60GB Ultra ATA drive
� Combo Drive (DVD-ROM/CD-RW)
� AirPort Extreme Card
� Keyboard/Mac OS X - U.S. English
� 14.1-inch TFT XGA display
� 1GHz PowerPC G4
� ATI Mobility Radeon 9200 w/ 32MB DDR video memory

so wish me luck guys! Godwilling I'll be ordering soon.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:32 AM :::

so where's the beef?!?

I "made" dinner tonight. Cake and ice cream and mt dew. mmmmmmm....

Oh! My truck broke again today. It was kinda funny - I called a friend of mine that I haven't talked to lately to gimme a ride to david's. And just a couple of days ago I'd been giving my truck props for surving another accident unscathed.
I was coming off the loop onto the spur on my way to David's house. There was a car, a truck, me, and another car all coming off the loop going... oh about 70 mph. The traffic on the spur is supposed to yeild to us but for some reason this car decided to mosy on out in front of that first car. So we all brake like madd. And I come maybe... 4 inches from hitting the truck in front of me, and the car behind me gives me a bump. So we all get out and look at what happened and stuff... the car that hit me lost his bumper and got all jacked up. My truck - nothing. So she's still got a little life in her yet.
Anyway.. gonna talk to cliff now...

::: posted by tinafish at 1:31 AM :::

Happy Halloween!

An extremely modest man was in the hospital for a series of tests, the last of which had left his bodily systems extremely upset.

Upon making several false alarm trips to the bathroom, he decided the latest episode was another and stayed put. He suddenly filled his bed with diarrhea and was embarrassed beyond his ability to remain rational.

In a complete loss of composure he jumped out of bed, gathered up the bed sheets, and threw them out the hospital window.

A drunk was walking by the hospital when the sheets landed on him. He started yelling, cursing, and swinging his arms violently trying to get the unknown things off, and ended up with the soiled sheets in a tangled pile at his feet.

As the drunk stood there, unsteady on his feet, staring down at the sheets, a hospital security guard (barely containing his laughter) who had watched the whole incident walked up and asked, "What the heck is going on here?"

The drunk, still staring down replied: "I think I just beat the shit out of a ghost"

Happy Halloween!

::: posted by tinafish at 12:01 AM :::

Tuesday, October 28, 2003 :::

*dancing around in underwear*

I'm gonna get a new computer...

Yes, I'm getting a new computer. *stoked* My buddy, r00, is buying this one from me for $1500. I'm oh sooo very excited. I, personally, don't think it's too bad a deal. It's coming with Dreamweaver, Fireworks, Flash, Freehand, Virtual PC, Office vX, iBlog, Virex, and Panther pre-installed. I'm also sending all the cd's and extra junk that apple sent me.

I'm very excited. After his $1500 I'll only need about $400 more to buy my new one!

So it looks like there's no ipod in my near future. *sigh* Still though, this is crazy awesome.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:46 PM :::

Sunday, October 26, 2003 :::

*bored out of my mind*

gawd I'm soooo bored! I'm sitting here at Aromas waiting on a picture to upload and David's doing a physics lab.

I had such great plans to post last night, but I just never got around to it. I was so sleepy and then add on that extra hour at work... I was not a happy camper. David was a sweetie and took me some ice cream... but that only helped for about an hour. So I took a little nap during my lunch break. And let me tell you it helped. I went back to the floor feeling refreshed. And the computers went down for 3 hours last night... and when they came back up the system was all jacked.

I'm hoping we'll go see a movie tonight. If David finishes his lab before 2215 we're gonna go watch... the Rundown or something like that. I don't really remember the name of it... but it's the one with The Rock.

Gawd I wish this picture would hurry and load! I've decided to edit my calendar... so I'm going through and using Fireworks to up the pixels to something like... 6000 by 5000. And it's taking ~forever~ to upload.

I saw a bed that I'd like to have. I'd never seen anything like it before, and I thought it was just ~the~ awesomest! Apparently they're called loft beds. I looked 'em up and they're absurdly expensive - so I'm gonna see if I can't talk my dad into building one for me. I'm sure it'd be awesome. I've just gotta convince him.

I signed my sis and me up for a workshop at The Home Depot. We're gonna learn all about Installing a Sink and Crown Moulding. haha. It's gonna be great. Gloria can be so prissy sometimes.

::: posted by tinafish at 9:07 PM :::


yes, already... seems like just last month we were springing forward.

Fall Back, ya'll!

.oO(gee I sound like I'm from Texas! hehe)

::: posted by tinafish at 3:48 AM :::

Saturday, October 25, 2003 :::

city-wide chest pain

gee it's been a busy night. Before I'd even been here an hour I'd already gotten 2 admits, a transfer, and another admit on the way.
busy busy busy.
I finally found the stuff to make a new necklace like the one Squishy busted. I had wanted to work on it tonight, but I dunno if I'm gonna get the chance. I'm supposed to interview David for my speech class. I've not even looked at the assignment but I've gotta do that tomorrow since he's always so busy.
I talked to him earlier - he said things are going well with his graphics project. I'm glad too; maybe we can do something aside from study this weekend. Not that I'm complaining, just that one of his favorite study spots has turned into a fairly popular gay gathering, and David gets hit on fairly often. Now I don't have anything against the "alternative lifestyles," but I am a ~very~ jealous person. It's kinda funny, really. I've obviously got some inner issues to be so jealous... And I've always thought it was ridiculous if say.. Say I was cheating on David, and David found out and was crazy peeved at the d00d I'd been cheating with. I've always thought that was ridiculous - he should be mad at me, ya know? So I dunno how to feel since I can't really be mad at the guys for trying, and I can't be mad at David 'cause I know he doesn't swing that way... But these guys, shouldn't they be a little more... respectful? I mean, I'm not gonna hit on a gay guy trying to convert him, ya know? Especially if he's got a boyfriend.
And I've got a paper due in English. I seriously need to look at that assignment. David kinda threw a fit (admit it hun, it was a little one) the other night (erm, morning?) when I showed up at his apt to print out a speech assignment. So it was *cough cough* 0500... At least I did get it done on time, and he got a fresh black ink cartridge out of it. And I didn't wake him up or anything, I mean, after he let me in... So anyway. He's kinda demanding that I start doing things sooner.

I added a calendar to my store.. 2 actually, but one was by accident. I'm gonna order them for my new room. I've decided to paint if Mountain Dew Green... with some purple thrown in for fun. Still undecided on the bathroom, though.
And I still don't have a plan for my new site!

Guess I'm gonna work on my necklace 'till med sheets print up...
And I have ~got~ to remember to finish coloring VeggieCake!

::: posted by tinafish at 1:02 AM :::

Thursday, October 23, 2003 :::


so I had another nosebleed. After having about 7 months or so of freedom, I am again haunted by the thought that at any moment I could start bleeding all over the place. It's rather unappealing.

Well we've started ripping up the concrete in the garage to lay the plumbing for my bathroom. And this brings up one of my pet peeves. I can not stand when people call something by anything other than it's name. Like I hate when people call concrete cement. Oh and I also hate when people refer to a generic object or another type of the product by the name brand. Like asking for a Coke but they want a Mountain Dew. I mean... I've always said "soda." If I ask for a Coke then I want a Coke. Like the day we went to the fair - David asked for a Coke but wanted Mountain Dew. It's kinda funny 'cause he'll ask me for a Coke and if we have Coke and Mountain Dew in the fridge I'll grab a Coke 'cause it's what he asked for. Yeah, I know. Most people around here say Coke no matter what. And Kleenex. *grr*

And it's freezing here! I wish I was back home... Gawd I miss the ocean. I miss just being able to drive for a few mins and then be able to run barefoot through the sand or watch the sun set against the horizon. Yes, it's in the mid sixties here but I'm fairly certain it's in the 80s back home.

Now off to sleep for me!

::: posted by tinafish at 10:18 AM :::

Wednesday, October 22, 2003 :::

so afraid

My mother and I don't really get along - that's no secret. But with my father.. well, he and I have a better relationship. I've spent most of my life... trying to live up to what he expects from me.
A few weeks ago my truck wouldn't start. Now David (and I must admit it's something I do love about him) is useless when it comes to that kind of stuff. He wouldn't know the water pump from the alternator, ya know? So anyway... I pop my hood and poke around for a bit 'cause I was hoping that maybe it was something I could fix myself. I didn't see anything wrong, and like I mentioned David is useless, so I ended up calling my dad. When he got there, he opened up my battery and said it needed water. Now I should have known to check that! I still can't believe I didn't. When David went inside to grab something my dad kinda mentions to me that I should've known.
I felt... so... small. Like I'd totally let him down.
A couple of days ago, whenever I was supposed to tape and float the new ceiling... Well I didn't have time to do it and my sis had said she'd do it for me. But she didn't. Whenever I got home my dad had already started and was kinda peeved 'cause he'd asked me to do it and I didn't. So I asked him if he wanted some help, and he asked me if I knew how. And that kinda stung. Like a slap in the face, ya know?
I'm sure I'm just being over-sensitive... I am a girl, after all. I'm just so afraid that I'm going to feel like I've disappointed both parents. And what kind of daughter does that make me?

::: posted by tinafish at 5:29 PM :::

Tuesday, October 21, 2003 :::

So I decided on a domain and bought it. Then I bought a host. So now I'm all ready to migrate.
Only I'm not sure how...

::: posted by tinafish at 5:04 PM :::


so I slept through that meeting this morning...

::: posted by tinafish at 12:57 PM :::

I keep posting in the wrong blog...

Tina, could you please remove me from your blog so I don't keep posting in it?

::: posted by Anonymous at 12:31 AM :::


Rhapsody playlist

Look! You can listen to my favorite Deltron 3030 tracks if you have Rhapsody by clicking above.

::: posted by Anonymous at 12:29 AM :::


Some Rhapsody playlist

Look there! If you use Rhapsody, you can listen to my playlist! Praised be Technology.

::: posted by Anonymous at 12:22 AM :::

Monday, October 20, 2003 :::

didn't even break a nail

well I just finished up the ceiling in the garage. taped and floated like there's no tomorrow. Actually, I started out kinda iffy. My dad had bought some tape that I'd never used before... took a little getting used to. Wasn't too bad, but my arms got all dirty 'cause you have to wet it to make it stick.
While we're waiting for it to dry I'm taking my dad over to the Home Depot to show him the shower, toilet, and sink I picked out. He's gotta add a couple of walls and needs a feel for how big to make the bathroom and how much room will be left over for the closet.

lol. Gonna go wash up.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:34 PM :::


well it's my first night off and here I am staring at my ceiling fan thinking about doing laundry.
You know... I've heard that anyone who would fall asleep in a dark room at a comfortable temperature and low noise level after being left alone for only 10 minutes is suffering from sleep deprivation. If that's the case there's not many people I know that are actually getting enough sleep.

So I have a key to David's apt now. I've been kinda... resisting getting one for the last few months. He's been offering for ages now, only I don't know if that would be such a good thing for our relationship. It's true that it is kinda stessful to make sure he's home so that I can print things or dload things... but to me, this is a really big step in our rltnship. It's like, he trusts me. I'm not saying that I don't think he should... just it's kinda funny. I have a key to his apt, but I don't know a single password he uses for any of his log-ins. I've tried getting him to log me into things.. various sites or email apps, but he totally refuses. Says he wouldn't want to be liable if something happened. So how should I take this whole key thing?

We've been working on turning the garage into another bedroom. I'm supposed to tape and float the ceiling... was supposed to do that earlier today, actually. My sis said she'd do it for me, since my dad wants it done by Tues. I'm leaning towards also adding another bathroom, just for me. i've picked out a shower and sink and toilet. Gotta see if my sis approves, since this is her house and all. Dunno why it should matter, though... since I'll be paying for the bathroom.

So I've stopped wearing makeup. No more makeup for me. Just my face.
No one's said anything so far. Either they've not noticed, or they're biting their tongues.
David doesn't seem to mind one way or the other. He's real big on the "you're beautiful no matter what." Don't get me wrong - that's the most wonderful thing to hear... Just I'm not happy with the way I look anymore. I've gained so much weight.... I don't ever dress up anymore... I can now honestly say it'll take me 20 mins to shower and get dressed. And that includes blow drying my hair. *sigh* I remember when I was in high school it took me 2 hours every morning. I spent at least half an hour in the shower! I'd paint my nails every day to match what I was wearing... Spend ages deciding what to wear, and then which shoes to put on. *shaking head* Now it's all I can do to put sweat pants on instead of scrubs or pajamas.
David and I went to Chili's on Saturday. It was one of my "pajama" days. lol.... He's a great guy, ya know?

Well I guess I'll do laundry and maybe take Squish to the park for a while before I go to school. And I'm getting hungry.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:01 AM :::

Sunday, October 19, 2003 :::

in response...

Pictures Of You
The Cure

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you
That I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you
That I almost believe that the pictures are
All I can feel

You standing quiet in the rain
As I ran to your heart to be near
And we kissed as the sky fell
Holding you close
How I always held close in your fear
You running soft through the night
You were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow
And screamed at the make-believe
Screamed at the sky
And you finally found all your courage
To let it all go

You fallen into my arms
Crying for the death of your heart
You were stone white
So delicate
Lost in the cold
You were always so lost in the dark
You how you used to be
Slow drowned
You were angels
So much more than everything
Hold for the last time then slip away quietly
Open my eyes
But I never see anything

If only I'd thought of the right words
I could have held on to your heart
If only I'd thought of the right words
I wouldn't be breaking apart
All my pictures of you

Looking so long at these pictures of you
But I never hold on to your heart
Looking so long for the words to be true
But always just breaking apart
My pictures of you

There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world
That I ever wanted more
Than to never feel the breaking apart
All my pictures of you

::: posted by tinafish at 4:51 AM :::


I want to buy a domain... but I don't know what to buy! I had planned on buying , but as we all know squishy is not the most wonderful dog. So then David suggested that I buy , but that's just kinda mean. And imagine the people I'd be getting visiting my site! *shocked*
So then I started messing with or but those would be more appropriate for him.
So I'm open for ideas and suggestions for a domain name and a layout.

::: posted by tinafish at 3:15 AM :::

Saturday, October 18, 2003 :::

visit my store!

I've recently added more merchandise to my store!


So feel free to visit it and buy stuff with that awful drawing David drew or a pic of Squishy back when he was still cute!
Also I'm selling at the base price so no, I'm not making any money...

::: posted by tinafish at 7:53 PM :::



::: posted by tinafish at 1:32 AM :::

Friday, October 17, 2003 :::


ok this is a bit much, even for me...


This is an apartment for the ULTIMATE Star Trek Fan. Originally a Studio Apartment but after just over 3 years it has been transformed into the interior of the starship Enterprise. Designed and built by interior designer Tony Alleyne the Star Trek Apartment has made world news and been featured on many television and radio shows around the world. The apartment will also be featured in the TREKKIES 2 film directed by Roger Nygard and starring Denise Crosby who played Tasha Yar in Star Trek TNG. More info at The apartment also has voice activated lighting fitted, supplied by - For someone looking for traditional living and design features this is NOT for you. For someone looking to own something just a little bit different.....WELL! There are more interior shots at this site: For all enquiries about science fiction interior design, please visit:

::: posted by tinafish at 12:33 AM :::

Thursday, October 16, 2003 :::


yay I bought a new phone!

::: posted by tinafish at 9:13 AM :::

it's been a while

well I guess I should update all of ya'll...
Before anyone really responded, I'd thought about gluing the button back on. I dunno, but I didn't really wanna use the whole chewing gum technique on this $2,000 computer I've had for... what, 3 months?
So david thought to check ebay, and we found a couple of people who sell keys. So I bought a whole new set of keys, and I'm also planning on buying a key protector from if only I can pick out a color.
In other news... I've received the first tshirt I orderd - my sister's Christmas gift. For those of you who don't know us irl, my sister and I both work nights at a local hospital. As you may be able to tell from my posts, I am usually up late at night and such. So I bought her this tshirt from that says "Carpe Noctem: seize the night." I think she'll like it.
I've been bidding on a Sanyo SCP-6400 on ebay and I keep getting outbid! I want one soooo badly that I've gone from my highest bid being $76 to now $150. *sigh* It'll be over in about 4 hours, so I guess I'm just gonna keep my fingers crossed and hope I actually win.
Aside from that, there's still the whole school thing going on. For my speech class I need to interview someone who has a job that I'd like to have when I'm through with school. I had kinda wanted to interview my old charge nurse, only he's nurse manager now and it'd be a lot harder to work into his schedule. So I'm going to interview David. He's got a real job, something I wouldn't mind doing - he's the computer guy for one of the buildings over at tech. While it's true that I am heading for a nursing degree, I still wouldn't mind running a building, ya know?
Well I think my sis and I are gonna take my dog for a walk here in a bit. I'll probably be back later to surf and I may post a bit more.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:44 AM :::

Sunday, October 12, 2003 :::


so I just preordered Panther! *stoked*

My dog broked my keyboard. He jumped on my computer last night... and his little nail got caught up under my delete button. When he ran off, he popped off the delete button and in the process broke one of the little clasps that keeps it attached. You may be thinking, "So what? Nobody uses the delete button save for the 3-finger salute." Well, I own a mac. No backspace button. Well there is, only it's called Delete. So I'm SOL.
My Hellspawn sure does like to test me. And I've not been able to locate a replacement button. Ideas, anyone?

::: posted by tinafish at 6:55 PM :::

Saturday, October 11, 2003 :::


man it would be so awesome if david would finish his homework so we could go eat!!!

::: posted by tinafish at 9:32 PM :::

I'd buy one

I'd buy one...

::: posted by tinafish at 1:12 AM :::

Friday, October 10, 2003 :::

gawd I'm broke!

so I'm seriously thinking about setting up a paypal donation thingy... don't think it'd really make a difference but I seriously need more cash. I'm gonna go get my inspecion sticker this morning for my truck. After that, if I'm awake enough, I'd like to go look for another job.
My nurse manager now, the same d00d who used to by my charge nurse, said that if I wanted to go back to full time that I could. Thing is, it's so so sooooooooo hard making the switch from being awake all day and then being awake all night. So I'm trying to find a part time job sometime during the day.
I don't want to wait tables or anything, so I'm kinda leaning towards working somewhere at a job kinda like the one I have now - sit in front of a comp and answer phones and such. I only have school on Mondays and Wednesdays, so I'm hoping maybe I can work something out.
I seriously need more cash though. I'd planned on using this refund check for stuff I want: a new phone, an ipod, a gym membership, new clothes, you know... stuff like that. But now it looks like I'll be saving at least $700 of it in case my financial aid for next semester doesn't work out. And I've gotta give David $500 since I'd rather pay him back and be broke than feel like I owe him. And he needs it now too. Things with his loans and stuff have kinda gone to hell so both he and I are getting concerned about how we're gonna pay for school.
My eye hurts. My left eye is kinda red and hurts when I blink. I'd go to my doctor's office but apparently they think I didn't pay them the last time I was there. I dunno why... I'm gonna have to go through my checkbook and find the carbon copy of that check to show them. It's kinda funny. I never use checks... I'm on the same checkbook now that I was using back around easter, when I was having all those nosebleeds and stuff.
I seriously hope I can get another job. Just something part time, to bring in an extra couple of hundred dollars. I guess I shouldn't really care what I do, since most likely I won't have this same class schedule next semester so I'll be quitting around the time the Spring Semester starts.
I told one of the secretaries here that I'd work for her on Monday night - only 4 hours but still that's a little extra cash.
And I'm depressed too. My ex kinda laid out the question... asking if I still love him. What a ridiculous question. Of course I love him. Love doesn't go away. Seems kinda funny he should ask. Of all people I thought he understood that. I dunno if David understands that. I think maybe he feels a little threatened by all this that's going on. There's a reason that my ex and I aren't together anymore, so I dunno why he's worried. And on the other hand I sure never meant to hurt my ex. *sigh* I'm just so torn btwn still wanting what's best for him and then trying to be happy myself. I've never been so happy as now that I am with David.

I've sat here staring at that last sentence for a few minutes. It's the truth.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:36 AM :::


::: posted by tinafish at 5:06 AM :::

Wednesday, October 08, 2003 :::

I raped it! (my history test)

ok not really, but I didn't fail.
I got a 76. I know this seems really low... but seeing as how I thought I'd been "violated" I think it's pretty darn good!
I'm still waiting on results for my other tests. I slept in today so I only made it to one of my classes. *sigh*
Oh and my refund check came in today. We stopped by the business office so AJ could ask about his. So since we were there I asked about mine too. And it was there! *stoked* Poor AJ, though. His loan check won't be coming in for another week or so. Poor me too, for that matter. I've not seen much gas money. I'm not sure this whole carpool thing was that great of an idea. So far all that's happened is he's put a little gas every other year! It has crossed my mind to just start leaving him in Lubbock if he doesn't start coughing up some madd scrilla. I'd feel bad, sure... but the deal was that I'd take him with me if he paid for gas.
So enough about that. Fixing to go to Daybreak to start studying. My history teacher man... the spawn of satan.

::: posted by tinafish at 7:40 PM :::

oh I'm sooo proud of David!

David just called me a cabrona!
This is a big day indeed...
He's not very good with Spanish but he just used a gender specific noun correctly!!!

::: posted by tinafish at 1:31 AM :::

Tuesday, October 07, 2003 :::


well I went to bed at about midnight last night... and woke up at about 1500 this afternoon. Yes, apparently I slipped into a coma. I'm such the bum, eh?
I should be studying right now but I'm sitting here eating a Brownie Earthquake from Dairy Queen. I love these things.
I'm thinking whenever I get my refund check from school I'm gonna get a gym membership. Just a short one - 6 months or so.
Oh and I'm buying David a new phone! hehe. He soooo doesn't want one but the phone he has now is older than I am!
So yes... I must play with Squishy now.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:13 PM :::

Monday, October 06, 2003 :::

no ky

well I had those 2 tests today...
All I'm gonna say is that there was no ky involved.
At least I'll know for next time.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:33 PM :::

Sunday, October 05, 2003 :::

engagement rings

So when I get engaged I hope I remember what I'm thinking of right now.

I hate when women have huge engagement rings! especially after they're already married!
Geez if you're married then why not wear the plain wedding ring, ya know? No engagement ring. Especially in nursing. That's just aiming to help spread nosocomial diseases!
So yes I think that I will design an engagement ring and/or wedding ring.
*hint hint*

::: posted by tinafish at 6:34 AM :::

Local sculpture irks some on Kansas campus

ok so this is interesting...

There's this bit in the article:
The base of the sculpture bears the following inscription: "The artist says, I was brought up Catholic. I remember being 7 and going into the dark confessional booth for the first time. I knelt down, and my face was only inches from the thin screen that separated me and the one who had the power to condemn me for my evil ways. I was scared to death, for on the other side of that screen was the person you see before you."

::: posted by tinafish at 3:18 AM :::


yes hun... is there a reason that you're unable to make a real post?!?!

What's with all the lyrics?!?!

And what's with the time stamps?

::: posted by tinafish at 3:01 AM :::

Saturday, October 04, 2003 :::

Real Muthehehe just kidding.....

Artist: Eazy E
Album: 187um Dre Killa
Song: Real Muthaphukkin G's



Real muthaphuckkin G's...
Real muthaphuckkin G's...
Real Muthaphuckkin G's...

Verse One

Hey Yo doctor, here's another proper crack
and it's phat, watch the sniper, time to pay the piper
and let that real shit provoke, so you's a wanna be 'loc
and you'll get smoked and i hope that yer fans understand
when ya talk about playin me, the same records that ya
makin' is payin me
Motherfuck Dre
Motherfuck Snoop
Motherfuck Death Row
Yo, and here comes me left blow
'cuz i'm the E-A-Z-Y-E, and this is the season
to let the Real motherfuckin G's in, ya like a kid ya
found a pup and now yer dapper, but tell me where the
fuck ya found ya found an anorexic rapper
talkin 'bout who ya go squabble with and who ya shoot
you're only 60 pounds when yer wet and wearin boots
damn E, they tried to fade you on Dre Day
But Dre Day only met Eazy's pay day
all of a sudden Dr Dre is a G thang, but on his
old album cover he was a she thang
so Nigga please, Nigga please don't step to deez
motherfuckin' Real G's

Yo Dre, what's up? *bang*
Yo Dre, what's up? *bang*

Now take it to the rapper, claimin to be dapper then
the Dresta, smoother then a bitch but Dre's a rollin
gangster, ain't broke a law in yer life, yet every time you rap
you yap about the guns and knifes, just take a good look
and the Nigga, and you'll capture the fact, that the bastard is
simply just an actor, who mastered the bang and the slang
and the Mental, of Niggaz in Compton, wattz, and South Central
never ever once have you ran with the turf, yet in every verse you
claim you used to do the dirt, but tell me who's a witness
to your fuckin work, so ya never had no buiness, so
save the drama jerk, Niggaz straight kill me
knowin that they pranksters, this is going out to
you studio gangsters,see i did dirt, i did work, so
many Niggaz can vouch that, so since i got stripes
i got the right to rap about that, but Niggaz like you
i gotta hate ya, i'm tired of Suburbian Niggaz talkin about
they comin from projects
knowin ya ain't seen the parts of the streets G
think ya tryin bang around the time of the peace treaty
wearin khackis and ya mob while ya ryhme, little fag
tried to sag, but he's gettin flooded at the same time,
and ya set don't accecpt ya, so ya scared to kick it with yer homies
'cuz ya know they don't respect ya, So Nigga please check
nuts before ya step to deez, motherfuckin Real G's

Verse Three

Well, it the Knocc Out, definition orginal baby gangster
approach me like you hard, motherfucker i'mma bank ya
shank ya, with my fuckin shank, if i havta
Dr Dre an Snoop Dogy Dogg are fuckin actors
pranksters, studio gangsters, busters
but this time yer dealin with some real motherfuckers
G's, Nigga please, don't try to step
because if ya do, and i pill cap is all that would be left
see, young Niggaz like me, will break ya off somthin,
claimin my city, but Dre you ain't from Compton
Niggaz like ya'll is what i call Wanna be's it aint shit compared
to Real Motherfuckin' G's

funky is this track...
Yo Dre, What's up? *bang*
Yo Dre, what's up? *bang*

I never met an OG who never did shit wrong
ya tried to dis the Eazy-E so now Nigga it's on you
and ya Doggy Dogg, think yer all honk and shit
both of you bitches, can come and suck my Doggy's dick
beatin a bitch don't make ya shit, but then agian some Niggaz
think it makes a man, Damn it's a trip
how a Nigga could switch so quick from wearin lipstick
to smokin on Chronic at picnics, and now ya think yer bigger
but to me you ain't nothin but a bitch ass Nigga
who ain't worth a food stamp, but at
Deat Row, i hear yer gettin treated like Boot camp
gotta follow yer seargents directions, or get yer ass
pumped with a Smith and Wesson, learn a lesson from the E
Stay in your place and don't step to Real motherfuckin G's

Yo Dre, What's up? *bang*
boy ya should have known by now..
Yo Dre (what's up?) *Bang*
Boy ya should have known by now...
Yo Dre (what's up?) *bang*
Boy ya should have known by now, Eazy duz it....

::: posted by The Great One at 10:15 PM :::

Gimme dat' Nut! oh shit all over your face kid!

Cruisin' down the street in my Six Four (0:08)
It's like that and it's like this (0:10)
I took her to the pad and we started to kiss (0:12)
Now my dicks on hard, you know what I'm thinkin' (0:15)
Took her panties off and her pussy was stinkin' (0:17)
Pulled off my drawers and I started to begin (0:19)
And her pussy's wet so my dick slides in (0:22)
Oh Heidi Heidi Heidi, you ho (0:25)
Ridin' on this back and I'm fuckin' kinda slow (0:27)
So, fi fie fo fo fum (0:29)
She's scratching on my back; oh here she comes (0:31)
Now, I gotta getta nut (0:33)
gotta get a nut (0:34)
gotta get it quick, ya know because I love this shit (0:35)
So, gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, gimme that, gimme that nut (0:45)
OK, back, back to the fuckin' basics (0:47)
Still got yours and mine; want you to taste it (0:50)
Open wide and no don't you waste it (0:52)
Ahh, shit; all over your face, kid (0:54)
You know, you know one thing (0:56)
You know me, I like to swing (0:58)
That dick, you know what (0:59)
So roll over girl while I stick it in your... (1:04)
But, I'll turn it out (1:06)
While I'm ridin' that ass; scream and shout (1:08)
My name is the same; just another pussy that I had to tame, so... (1:13)
(moan) get off, baby
(moan) get off, baby
(moan) get off, baby
Gimme that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, gimme that, gimme that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, gimme that, gimme that nut
Now I love pussy and pussy loves me (1:42)
Like a lemon to the lime; like a bumble to the bee (1:45)
You know it's real good; a nigger can't resist it (1:47)
Couldn't be a fruit loop, so don't get me twisted (1:49)
'Cause "In some pussy is the place to be (1:53)
Always fuckin' is the life for me (1:58)
Spread them legs open far and wide (2:03)
Fuck this shit; just let me put my dick inside" (2:07)
So... (2:08)
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, gimme that, gimme that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, gimme that, gimme that nut
(moan) get off, baby
(moan) get off, baby
(moan) get off, baby
Gently ... put the (laughs)
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, gimme that, gimme that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, that, that nut
Gimme that, gimme that, gimme that nut (2:55)

::: posted by The Great One at 10:12 PM :::


and this is what david looks like when he's just rolled out of bed...

::: posted by tinafish at 10:00 PM :::

sexual harrassment in my workplace

yes, sexual harrassment is a real problem in the workplace.
I, in fact, have been a victim of sexual harrassment. I'm not sure how it is for these other people, mostly women, who file suits and stuff, but for me it's not so difficult to deal with. It just so happens that I'm at work when I'm getting hit on, ya know?
I've been a girl my whole life, and while I'm not going to say I'm all that great, I am going to say that I don't feel I need to wear a paper bag over my head.
It's just something I've been thinking about - we're covering sexual harrassment in the workplace in my speech class.
I'm not saying that it's right, or that it's ok... just that it's something that happens everyday... just like I was at the mall or something. I know that I'll probably get slammed for saying this, and maybe there are women out there where their jobs have been in jeopardy so they feel pressured to do things... But I've never felt that way.
There have been a few times where it's gotten kind of old and it's like "Leave me alone you dirty old man."
But I've never felt that if I didn't oblige that I'd lose my job.
In fact, most of these people that have made "unwanted advances" have become friends of mine. Now I guess I shouldn't say friends, because I would testify agst any one of them if it ever came to it. Like a certain doctor said about me, "She's too opinionated anyway." If there's another girl out there who, for whatever reason, is unable to stand her ground, then I will do what I can, ya know?
It just seems so unreal... the whole concept of a superior imposing on a subordinant. lol. I should stop now because I think I just described the dominatrix fetish.
Yes, I know this isn't a laughing matter. And I'm not sure what got me thinking about this just now. Oh wait, I do remember. I was talking to a friend of mine up here earlier tonight and school came up. As you may or may not know I have 2 tests on Monday, and one of them is going to be a real killer. Now in high school there were 2 ways to do on a test. Either you raped it, or it raped you. That's just an expression I'm used to hearing and saying (and I guess I got myself into this kind of uncomfortable situation). When my friend asked about these tests I said it was going to rape me. Now I'm not sure what this counts as, but I do know it made me feel a little uncomfortable. He came back with, "Lucky test." Now this friend and I have had our occasional run-ins with these things, seeing as how when I first started working here there was a pool as to who would get me to go out with them first... and it did stretch beyond my unit, beyond my department, even beyond my shift. Yes, apparently I was in high demand. *rolling eyes* So I was like, "Geez friend how is it that you and I never hooked up? Oh yes, it must have been for your awesome intelect and daring wit."
Last Halloween I dressed up as The Crow, and came by the hospital to give my sister something, so I showed up dressed but not yet painted. I was wearing black leather pants and this fitted black shirt that I had cut tears into over the bodice and arms... and my hair was wet and hung about... And this was back before I was whaling. Yes and for some reason he was talking to me, and was saying that the way I was looking made him need a cigarette. I pulled out my lighter and threw it at him and said, "Smoke it, Bitch." Word kind of got around about that and he's not real fond of the topic.
So then just earlier tonight I grabbed a lighter out of my bag and kinda echoed my words.
I dunno... I kinda have a short temper, and I was so close to just kicking him in the face.
And just because this happened at work I could sue him and my employer and loads of other people.... So like I was saying, it just happens to be at work.

I've gotten some emails and while I do appreciate you responding... post some comments so those of you who do read this can see what others are saying!
And yes, I do admit that it may have been that my friend was just complimenting me, but it still made me uncomfortable. And since that's all that's needed (plus documentation, of course) to file a suit that's what I was talking about.
Thanks again for your responses!

::: posted by tinafish at 5:13 AM :::

Friday, October 03, 2003 :::

I hate ie!

I always forget how awesome a browser safari is until I get to work and am bombarded with pop ups.

::: posted by tinafish at 11:53 PM :::

the ultimate guide

ok so this is how david feels about me and my spending habits.

at this point I've only about $10 to last me 'till next friday.... now I'm seriously considering r00's suggestion of setting up an online fundraiser, so that maybe I can afford to do all those luxuries like eat and buy gas and stuff. lol. well, at least maybe I'll learn.
See it's all part of the plan... I'm just trying to build character.

::: posted by tinafish at 7:32 PM :::

Wal-Mart will be the Death of Me

I stopped by Wal-Mart on the way home and spent even more money. I finally bought a new phone line, and a long one too. I'm actually sitting at the foot of my bed right now. I also bought some new headphones, and let me tell you... these are c-o-m-f-y! (compared to my old ones, anyway)
And I'm eating a Starkist Lunch To Go. My dad's asleep and my sister's not home, so there's no one to make anything for me to eat. Yes, I know.. I need to learn to cook. I'm planning on doing that before I get married, and most definetly before I have kids. In my defense, David's the master of Fish Sticks and French Fries.
Speaking of French Fries.. I've got a funny story... I was at this Diner and was looking over their menu. I was ordering something... not too sure what... Now there was "Toast" and "Freedom Toast" on the menu. Now you've gotta keep in mind that I'd don't really keep up to date with current events. So I asked the waitress, "What's the difference btwn 'toast' and 'freedom toast'?" And she says something like.. "blah blah blah, same as french toast only we call it freedom toast." Apparently we Americans were peeved at the French again. No matter to me, ya know? So I was like, "I'll take some French toast." And she says, "We have Freedom Toast." lol... And I come back with, "In that case, I'll take an omelet." Now she looks at me like I've just shot her mom, ya know? And that just made my day. I still dunno what we were peeved about anyway... no good reason, ya know?
So yes... David can't cook either. But we're both soooo good at whipping out our debit cards and buying dinner. So I think we'll be all right. lol. We're both trying to stop spending so much, and in turn trying to quit eating out so much, hence the fish sticks and french fries. And I just eat fruit. lol.
Anyhow... I'm done with my tuna so I'm gonna see about putting some pics from Albuquerque somewhere for Cliff before I go to bed.
Oh and Cliff, apparently I've screwed things up (re: yahoo photos) but I'm gonna try emailing you the pics and if that doesn't work then I'll load them to .mac and see how it goes.

::: posted by tinafish at 8:04 AM :::

gay by nature fabulous by choice

yes, i love the button. thanks!!!!!!!!!!!

::: posted by Cliff at 6:21 AM :::


wow, look at all this really cool new blog stuff!! im so excited..:D (tic)

::: posted by Cliff at 6:17 AM :::

rofl... new dress code... hahaha

yeah so the nurses here had me type up a petition that we're going to give to our nurse manager about the new dress code. Up to now, our (inpatient cardiology) dress code had been: scrubs, either navy blue, forest green, or maroon. And secretaries (me!) are supposed to wear this khaki jacket thing that's gross. So I usually wear a tshirt and central supply scrubs. In my defense, I don't make very much money and I am here in the middle of the night. I do try and keep the tshirt a solid color.. but here the last few months I've been wearing pretty much anything. But anyway we're up for a new dress code and to try and convince me to sign it the nurses were like, "sooner or later it'll get back to you." It's like... "I do have a dress code. I just ignore it." Yeah, I was at the mall a couple of days ago and a friend of mine was like, "You look like you're going to work!" I was like, what a jerk! I was wearing a tshirt and jeans, btw... So anyway... I've signed the petition lest they start enforcing my dress code.
I am a bit concerned that my name on the petition will bring unwanted attention to me....

::: posted by tinafish at 4:41 AM :::

tag-board enhanced

David's gonna kill me but I just upgraded to the Tag-Board Enhanced....

So now that I'm paying for that too feel free to use it!!

::: posted by tinafish at 4:05 AM :::


well I'm here at work and I'd rather be in bed. At least I've been making use of my spare time, ya know? Been studying and all.
Oh gawd! I spent like $50 on music earlier! Oh muh gawd it's tough paying for music!

Time for lunch...

::: posted by tinafish at 3:34 AM :::

Thursday, October 02, 2003 :::


geez it's cold outside.. maybe 50 degrees or so. I sooo couldn't have made it through the night without Squish. So obviously I'm through with boycotting him. I'm still planning on getting him a little play pen, just I'm running kinda low on funds right now. That check I wrote for aj finally went through so I'm back with no money in my acct. It felt kinda good having money in my bank acct, even though I knew I couldn't use it. Guess it's a good thing that it cleared so there's no chance that I'll eat into his money.
I bought David these Oscar the Grouch house shoes... 2 days ago? I think that was it. I also got me some Cookie Monster house shoes and a PacMan tshirt. I bought all these buttons to put on my bag... but they looked really bad so I took them off. I bought Cliff this button that says "Gay by Nature, Fabulous by Choice" that I'm fairly certain he'll love.
Think I may head over to Aromas to study here in a few... I've got those 2 tests on Monday.
I didn't see David last night... He went off talking about priorities and all I could hear was my mother's voice echoing in my head, "You always have time for what you put first." So I got kinda tore up about that... I know it sounds dumb but for half a second I felt like he didn't really care about me. Then I guess he could hear me get bummed 'cause he went off saying stuff... and I know I made him feel bad. The last thing I want is for him to have to worry that if he doesn't spend every day with me that I'll leave. *sigh*
rofl.... Squishy's chasing his tail... cracks me up everytime he does that...
So yeah... I didn't get to chill with David last night. I ended up falling asleep maybe.. 10 minutes after yesterday's last post. And I woke up at maybe 0900 today. I'm thinking I'm gonna go back to sleep and get up around noon - I have to work tonight.
So anyway... Going back to bed now.

::: posted by tinafish at 10:12 AM :::

Wednesday, October 01, 2003 :::


You think that I go home at night
Take off my clothes, turn out the lights
But I burn letters that I write
To you, to make you love me

Yeah, I drive naked through the park
And run the stop sign in the dark
Stand in the street, yell out my heart
To make, to make you love me

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho

You may not believe in me
But I believe in you
So I still take the trash out
Does that make me too normal for you?

So dig a little deeper, cause
You still don't get it yet
See me lickin' my lips, need a primitive fix
And I'll make, I'll make you love me

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho

See me jump through hoops for you
You stand there watching me performing
What exactly do you do?
Have you ever thought it's you that's boring?
Who the hell are you?

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho

Average every day sane psycho

::: posted by tinafish at 5:27 PM :::


lol... And David, hun... Grab a napkin - you're gonna need it.
Grand Canyon Monitor

::: posted by tinafish at 5:16 PM :::

Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God

yeah... that's how I feel. *sigh*

Had 2 tests today and talked to BoB too. And I didn't get much sleep either - couldn't find my sister all night long.

Dunno what's gonna happen with BoB. David said he's not concerned... but sometimes I think he's not telling the entire truth when he says that. I dunno... I mean, there is some definite tension btwn BoB and me.... Just I dunno.

Well I'm too tired to really say much just yet... chances are I'm gonna go to walmart here in a bit and buy Squishy a child's play pen so that he'll stop chewing up my stuff! Did I mention that he chewed through my phone cord? *grr*
So yes I'm going to try putting him in a play pen while I'm gone. Godwilling he won't chew through that too.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:40 PM :::

tests tomorrow

well I've just realised I have 2 tests in the morning, one in ~ 5 1/2 hours.

I should have bought all my books, huh.
Oh well. It's only the first test anyway.

I am concerned about next week. I have tests in both gov't and history. I'll start studying... day after tomorrow. I've got plans for this evening.

::: posted by tinafish at 2:26 AM :::

sharing music is bad...

according to david it is, anyway... We've just spent the last hour or so working on how to make our music files accessible to each other but at the same time inaccessible to everyone else...
We were at Aromas a couple of nights ago and wanted to share some music we'd each just bought off iTunes. So we set it up to share with each other and I set mine to where no windows (eek!) users could access my drive. For whatever reason I guess David just didn't notice that we were leaving our drives open to other mac users...
We were at Aromas again tonight and there's this d00d there, Scott, who also has an iBook. I messaged him through Rendevous saying he had a nice pic or something.. just to keep up with the friendliness he's always shown me. Anyway, he comes back with, "I can see your music." So I was like, "Oh?" and then leaned over and told David (while I was typing in, "See anything you like?" to Scott.) David throws a fit and demands that I disable my file sharing options. *rolling eyes* This coming from someone who's used various file sharing programs before. Puh-leeze.
So now that I've been working on this post and changing settings and such it's been close to 2 hours...

Seems a little ridiculous to me. All purchased musice from iTunes requires a username & password... so stuff that I've bought that David's using needs to be cleared by my username & password. That's cool and all, if you ask me. I can authorize 3 computers (I think) to play music that I've bought. That's plenty. I only listen to the stuff I have on here anyway...
Thing is.. I'm thinking I could make an audio cd of anything I've bought and then give that to someone else. And they can rip it off that, then convert to .mp3s. So it's all useless?

So yeah... now we're sharing music files and no one else can share with us. *sigh*
We used something called SharePoints... and for a good while it absolutely hated David. lol. Anyhow... looks like now I'm gonna sift through all his stuff 'till I find something worth listening to!

::: posted by tinafish at 2:02 AM :::

pretty girl?

ok so there's this girl at school, and she's really pretty, right?


She's only pretty when she's wearing makeup. Otherwise, when she's not wearing any... well, let's just say she doesn't look too great.


::: posted by tinafish at 1:15 AM :::