Tuesday, May 31, 2005 :::

oh I'd forgotten

I'd forgotten how different things look in ie when compared to how things look in safari.
the about page I made last night looks ridiculous in ie at 1280x1024.
I'll hafta keep that in mind when I get home tonight.
I'd meant to go to the hospital last night to see what it looked like... but I didn't get the chance (it started hailing when I was fixing to leave my apt).
so yes... that's how I'll be spending tonight.

adrian came over last night - we watched the bourne identity.
I had a good time with him... the little ass kept poking my ears for no apparent reason.
I had been hoping he'd bring over both identity and supremacy, but no go.
and he took my matrix movies... I still need to get him something for christmas (left over from this past year when he gave me t3h sword).

I'm ~really~ thirsty atm... I feel like I do when I've gotten trashed a couple of hours ago and had my nap - I wake up absurdly thirsty.
I dunno why, though... I didn't go drinking or anything.
I did go out for brkfst with aj this morning, though... he's disgusting, ya'll. no manners around me whatsoever - since I'm "just one of the guys..."

::: posted by tinafish at 4:26 PM :::

so much for that money-making scheme

it's true - I was unable to produce and bottle creativity.

I've made some changes to the main page... still using hotspots, but I added a few... you're now linked to my blog, my photos folder, my moblog, my old site, my videos folder (I still need to make a page for this one, though), and my long awaited about me page.
the about me page is still under construction... and the video page hasn't even been made yet. but if you've got any suggestions, lemme know. there's a link to email me over on the right, and also one on the about page.

wow it's hailing like madd atm.
sounds like it'd be really painful to get hit by one of them.
think I'm gonna sit in the living room and watch it fall.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:14 AM :::

Monday, May 30, 2005 :::

I know how

How Do You Get That Lonely, by Blaine Larsen (Off to Join the World)

It was just another story written on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on the bedroom floor

There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know

Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?

I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...

::: posted by tinafish at 10:24 PM :::

bow down before the one you serve

you know, sometimes I get so wrapped up in myself, and what would make me happy...
I forget about my friends.
I'm thankful that when I'm in danger of becoming completely self-absorbed they're there to bring me back... I'm not thankful that it's usually something dire that drags me out of my tina-only zone... but I am glad it happens.

adrian came over last night and we watched rambo.
he's near impossible to wake up once he's fallen asleep...
I'm guessing he turned off my alarm clock this morning, and he didn't wake me when he left, but overall I had a good time with him.
it still amazes me how similar he and I are... and how we both tend to just take turns throwing tantrums.
/me shaking head

because I didn't hear my alarm go off I didn't get to spend time with aj this afernoon.
I did talk to him before I went to bed, and we'd made plans to get together for lunch... but I fell asleep and didn't wake up 'til 14 (like I do most every day). I called him when I woke up, but he's not answering.
I feel pretty bad, 'cause I so want to talk to him about how he's holding up and all...
/me sigh

my niece and nephew are in town. we all went to see madagascar (it was a disappointment) on saturday, and yesterday afternoon they came over and watched the boondock saints with me.
justin didn't come over last night, so I was bummed. it was expected, though... so at least I was prepared for it.
and the stuff with the guys that happened, or didn't, probably wouldn't have happened at all if I'd been busy being stupid happy.
I'm still kicking my own ass about not going out with aj.
I hate when I pull shit like that.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:30 PM :::

Sunday, May 29, 2005 :::

weird dreams, and I don't need drugs to have 'em

um... �it was like I had written a book about my life... but either I was a guy, or I was into chicks
I think it was a story... �'cause it involved a tree coming to life... and I was a chick who was into chicks.

I met this chick who had a d00d and they were so happy together... and I guess there was a famine or maybe just high unemployment, but we decided to go on a trip - like a massive road trip or something... and when we got where we were going all 3 of us went looking for a job and we all got them at the same company. I got a job as a school picture photographer, and the d00d was some sort of art person, and the chick was a teacher...
and then the d00d... he got in some kind of accident or had broken the law or something... so he couldn't really work anymore... �but he was always trying to ride the elevator up to floor 47 where there was this art gallery/museum thing, only he couldn't ever access it since he was on leave or something so his security pass wouldn't work
then one day he got in the elevator with me, and it worked. now he and I had been rivals of some sort, 'cause I guess we both wanted to bed the chick... so we'd never really talked or anything... but he told me what he was planning and I figured "sure, what the hell, right?"
so instead of going to take pictures I went with him to the gallery
we ended up getting stuck, and there were other people with us in the elevator.... �and I was talking to some d00d about how I was just along for the ride, that I thought it might culture me up and then the chick might want me. the d00d I was talking to was sitting btwn 2 people... a brother & a sis... and they were mac users.
and I was wearing my "playing video games makes me sexy�tshirt..
and then he says something about how much he likes video games.... �but only ever plays with mac users, meaning the 2 siblings he was with, but I like... �thought he was talking about me... then he mentions something about his 5 meg connection...
then I guess I went home with him, 'cause the next thing I remember is that at some point I was at some cave and found this d00d to be a tree
near a cave, really... kinda swampy, with lava too, I think...
but when he came to life someone... �I think it was that couple I was friends with... �they were trying to kill him
I guess I was so into this tree-d00d... and they weren't really my friends, either... so I killed them
and I guess my plan was to live in the cave with my tree d00d with his awesome internet connection.

and uh... yeah, I think that's mostly it.
I told you it was weird.

::: posted by tinafish at 3:07 PM :::

maybe I'm all mesed up

oh but they ~are~ poons, aren't they?
I'm chatting w/ this d00d... and like... my ~awesome~ social skills are seeping through into the conv.
/me rolling eyes

so like... I'm trying to be nice... and I ask him if he listens to nin... and when he said yes I did a %_tunes (that inserts a "Now Playing:" bit into the conv).
and this d00d, the ~awesome~ d00d that he is... he says, "I cant hear it" (with no punctuation, mind you).
I was like, "obviously."
and so later he says, "blah blah blah" and I laugh and say, "deal with it or don't. either way I expect you to stop bitching."

and omfg he made an excuse and is still chatting with me.
/me shaking head
oh yes he's a keeper, all right. <-note sarcasm

::: posted by tinafish at 3:36 AM :::

sleeping alone does suck

I've got a twin bed I'm borrowing from my sister. I didn't bring my bed from back home when I moved up here, mostly 'cause I moved overnight and it's a 10 to 12 hour drive back home.
so I'm using one of the bunk beds my sis has.

one thing that kills me about bigger beds... they make me lonely.
like... in a twin bed it's so small there's not much room for anyone but me... and so I don't feel lonely 'cause the bed is full with me and my bear.
but on bigger beds (or my futon, for example), even in my sleep I can tell there's enough space for someone else. I feel so alone.

After 2 years with david... even though it's been 9 months now... I just can't help but want someone to hug on.
guess what I'm saying is that yeah, I've got a small bed... but it's big enough for me.

::: posted by tinafish at 12:55 AM :::

Saturday, May 28, 2005 :::

what I'm listening to

I set up my audioscrobbler acct back aaaages ago, but hadn't been using it since my comp isn't fond of me.
since my comp's been on for a while, I've dloaded & installed the plugin, and now you can see ('cause I know you've been wondering) what music I listen to.
I set it up earlier, before I went to work... so mostly it's just cycled through one of my playlists... guess what I'm saying is it's probably not very accurate just yet, but it's a start.
I've added a permanent linky for it over on the right, under Interact. if you use it, feel free to add me as a friend.
and with all that said, I'm going to bed.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:30 AM :::

I'm with buddha on this one

well I've had an interesting evening...
the anarchist hippie came by right after I got him from work...
he peer pressured me into doing more than our usual tree climbing bit... at some point since last weekend my (when I say "my" I mean "my apt complex") pool got filled with water.
I jumped in... shoes and all.

just in time to see justin pull up.
I was dripping wet, from my hair to my shirt to my sneakers.
the anarchist hippie took the time to take off his shoes, and by that time justin was here, so I was the only fool soaking.
we all came inside... the guys played some tekken while I hopped in the shower.
when I was all clean and dry I played a few rounds with the anarchist hippie (pwned him of course) then he ran off to visit with his pseudo chick.

justin and I watched soldier (my absolute favorite movie ever) and just chilled enjoying the company.
I dunno wtf it is about that kid... but he's got me in a riot about him.
all this fuss over some random d00d I met on the net.
*shaking head*
no wonder guys don't understand grrls. I don't even understand myself.
guess that's food for thought. I'm gonna turn in early tonight and see if I can truly decide on anything... or to at least understand the decisions I seem to have already made.

and about the title...

::: posted by tinafish at 3:27 AM :::

Friday, May 27, 2005 :::

"there's a 1 in my crotch"

aaron's fleet was demolished, due in part to my destroying his flagship.
I was just heading for the fog when he attacked me!

I'm left with 2 ships, jordan with 4, and tim with 6.
instead of jordan coming to help me, he ran back to his home island with all the gold he could grab.
I'm currently repairing one of my ships on my home island... waiting for tim to attack.

it's time for a donut break.
I'll leave josh in my stead and make a trip to krispy kreme.

::: posted by tinafish at 7:33 PM :::

I was just looking for fog

we're playing pirates of the crimson coast tonight...
aaron just took out my little one mast ship. he did roll badly 3 times, but hit me twice sinking me.
and I wasn't even heading towards him; I was just looking for a fog patch to chill in for a while.

and I'm soooooooooooooooo hungry tonight.
apparenlty yesterday one of the web guys bought a box of krispy kreme donuts and the box was here 'till 1630.
I didn't see 'em so I didn't get to eat any... and now I'm trying to convince jordan we should have donuts for dinner.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:41 PM :::

Thursday, May 26, 2005 :::

you take it, then

and um... I have ~no~ idea why it's showing up so far down...
erm... yeah.

You are 71% Rational, 28% Extroverted, 71% Brutal, and 57% Arrogant.
You are the Sociopath! As a result of your cold, calculating rationality, your introversion (and ability to keep quiet), your brutality, and your arrogance, you would make a very cunning serial killer. You care very little for the feelings of others, possibly because you are not a very emotional person. You are also very calculating and intelligent, making you a perfect criminal mastermind. Also, you are a very arrogant person, tending to see yourself as better than others, providing you a strong ability to perceive others as weak little animals, thus making it easier to kill them. In short, your personality defect is the fact that you could easily be a sociopath, because you are calculating, unemotional, brutal, and arrogant. Please don't kill me for writing mean things about you!

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.

2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.

3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle.

4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.


Your exact opposite is the Hippie.

Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Spiteful Loner, the Smartass, and the Capitalist Pig.

If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.

Link: The Personality Defect Test

::: posted by tinafish at 5:49 PM :::

poons are ghey

I think it's funny how serious some guys take me.
like... yeah, adrian spent the night at my apt on monday. ON THE FLOOR IN THE LIVING ROOM, not in bed with me.
and so what if I'm not up for kissing you. I'm not kissing anyone else, either.
and gawd... if you can't take a break from being uptight long enough to enjoy a movie... sheesh.
so that's that, I guess.

I talked to lus for a while this afternoon.
he called while I was brushing my teeth... and I talked to him 'till I ran out of minutes.
so if you try to call me anytime soon... well it's not gonna work, and I already know about it.
I've still not given him his bday card. or taken him out for brkfst/lunch/dinner.
and 'cause I talked to him I was late for work today. only half an hour, so I'm not too worried about it.

I'm supposed to go watch sw:rots again tonight, this time w/ doke.
I think I'll have a pretty good time, and we'll see if I hate the movie more this time.
oh and I finally slept last night... about 12 or 13 hours straight.
so now I'm ready for the weekend. and for doing laundry tonight.
I'll probably spend some time w/ my sis after the movie... and my niece & nephew'll be here this weekend, so I'm pretty stoked about that.
only... I'll seriously hafta clean my apt.
that's never fun.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:37 PM :::

Wednesday, May 25, 2005 :::

so I'm not the only one who noticed...

voldo, a video game character in soul cal... he's got this move...
where he puts his hands down on the ground, with his chest facing up... so he's on all 4s....
and uh...
madd pelvic thrusts, ya'll.
and uh... these guys made a video of it...
dance, voldo, dance
and turn your speakers up.

so I'm still awake.
now I guess n > 8
or something.

::: posted by tinafish at 10:48 PM :::

who's your father?

if you get the chance, play the sith sense. it's pretty fun, and at one point darth vader, after correctly reading tim's mind, said, "who's your father?"
it was really funny.
speaking of funny... psycho star wars fans got hurt making light sabers.
*shaking head*

and about the movie...
I will say that the scene on the balcony (btwn anakin & padme) where she's brushing her hair....
she looks awful - I didn't hardly recognize her.
but anyway.

apparently I've just had an Nth (where n > 2) wind...

::: posted by tinafish at 7:32 PM :::

there be mutineers aboard

*impersonating pirate*

um... so anyway...
I'm dead tired. 2 and half, maybe three hours sleep night before last, and then last night I got in a whopping 1 hour of sleep.
it was madness driving to work this afternoon.

sw:rots was... well I've still not decided, but I know 2 things:
it wasn't as bad as jordan made it out to be,
and it wasn't as good as adrian made it out to be.

watched 2 stargate dvds last night. I love episodes with the unas. if you get the chance, watch all the sg1 episodes that involve the unas. I especially like enemy mine (the one I saw last night), beasts of burden, and the first ones.
good stuff.

aj & his chix0r are at it again.
kills me 'cause he plays the guy and says things he doesn't really mean.
I know he really cares about her, and I wish he'd just be honest with himself and stop pretending with me.
I remember when me & david would fight I'd usually spend the night at aj's... guess I wanna be someone he can lean on if he needs to, like he's been to me.

I'm gonna vacuum the entire building tonight, and do I dunno what other chores to stay awake.
I thought about calling in, but since I close tonight I didn't wanna leave the guys in a tough spot. lol - which we're all still in since I'm mostly useless in this state anyway.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:10 PM :::

Tuesday, May 24, 2005 :::

comment diving

I'm reading my archives... supposedly checking for broken links but mostly to see where I was just a couple months ago.
I just found this posted in my comments...
"someone" commented on this post.
I just now bothered to google them...
remind me to dload the song when I get home, will ya?

Nutshell (Nutshell), by Alice in Chains

We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet I fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home

My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet I find
Repeating in my head
If I can't be my own
I'd feel better dead

::: posted by tinafish at 7:50 PM :::

I wanna get engaged again

so I'm supposed to go see sw:rots with james tonight.
fun fun
all the guys have already seen it... and they all agree that it's better than 1 & 2, but that's not saying too much.
milkdud said he hates it more everytime he sees it (he's seen it 3 times), but adrian loved it both times he saw it.
adrian's a fanboy when it comes to star wars, so I guess I shouldn't place too much emphasis on that.
me? well... I don't think it can be any worse than episode 1.

I've gotta get doke taken off the lease and get the light bill put in my name...
I know it's been a couple of months now, just...
I've just not gotten around to it.
and I'll hafta pay a deposit for the light bill, so that's probably another reason I've not done it yet.
he asked me last night why I try so hard to be his friend... I'm just like that, I guess. I mean... for the most part I keep in good contact with all the guys I've dated... really when it comes down to it most of the guys I know (and most of my friends are guys) I either dated or met with the intention of dating.

you know one thing that still cracks me up? how I get kinda hurt whenever I guy I'm not interested in at all seems to be just as uninterested in me as I am uninterested in him. guess it's just my ego, but I still think it's funny.

I'm really sleepy.
I slept from ~ 0230 to ~ 0430... then pretty much just lay about 'cause I couldn't get adrian to wake up.
he fell asleep on the floor in my living room. I fell asleep on my futon.
when he ~finally~ got up this morning I went to bed... but I couldn't sleep.
you know how it goes when I've had too much to drink - I snooze a bit then wake up ready to take on the world.
only that's worn off now... and I'm dead tired.
I've been up steadily since 0600, and it's gonna be a late night.
the movie starts @ 23... for once I'm glad james is an 8 to 5'er - he's not much for staying out too late.

::: posted by tinafish at 6:11 PM :::

why am I burping ramen?

last night I had some raveoli, a bagel with cheese, and a kumquat. I dunno how that combo manages to taste like ramen, but it does.
and yeah... that's pretty gross, I know.

last night adrian & I went to pour house for a couple of hours.
I'd not been out with him since he and I split up... I had a pretty good time.
I got a little toasty... I'm such the lightweight now. after 3 shots I was buzzing pretty hard, and I'm still not sure why I ordered my 4th shot. maybe hayden peer pressured me into it?
yes, that's what I'll claim.

he picked up all his movies, and returned my sister's copy of how to lose a guy in 10 days.
I'm cleaned out, though... I had his copy of snatch (which I miss already), gladiator, basic, the princess bride... I think that's it. and he picked 'em all up.
and he was trying (like he always does) to take my copy of nemesis.
lol... some things never change, eh?

I'm ~so~ hungry.
I didn't eat before we went out last night.... and I've not eaten since I had the raveoli, bagel, and kumquat this morning ~ 0530.
think I'll be going to get food here in a while... one of my intestines is eating the other one.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:34 PM :::

Monday, May 23, 2005 :::

the pretty picture

this is from good will hunting.
matt damon plays will, the main character.
sean is will's shrink, played by robin williams.
this is one of their sessions.

Will: Yeah, I went on a date last week.
Sean: How'd it go?
Will: It was good.
Sean: Going out again?
Will: I don't know.
Sean: Why not?
Will: Haven't called her.
Sean: Christ, you're an amateur.
Will: I know what I'm doing.
Sean: Yeah.
Will: Yeah - Don't worry about me. I know what I'm doin'.
Yeah, but this girl is like, you know, beautiful. She's smart. She's funny. She's different from most of the other girls I've been with.
Sean: So, call her up, Romeo.
Will: Why? So I can realize she's not that smart, that she's fuckin' boring? Y'know - I mean... this girl is like fuckin' perfect right now, I don't wanna ruin that.
Sean: Maybe you're perfect right now. Maybe you don't want to ruin that. I think that's a super philosophy, Will. That way you can go through your entire life without ever having to really know anybody.

**the rest of this isn't really pertinent (to my situation), but it's a good scene, so here it is**

Sean: My wife used to fart when she was nervous. She had all sorts of wonderful idiosyncrasies. You know what? She used to fart in her sleep. Sorry I shared that with you. One night it was so loud it woke the dog up. She woke up and gone like "oh was that you?" I'd say yeah...I didn't have the heart to tell her...Oh God...[laughing]
Will: She woke herself up?
Sean: Yesssss. Oh Christ....aahhh, but, Will, she's been dead two years and that's the shit I remember. Wonderful stuff, you know, little things like that. Ah, but, those are the things I miss the most. The little idiosyncrasies that only I knew about. That's what made her my wife. Oh, and she had the goods on me, too, she knew all my little peccadillos. People call these things imperfections, but they're not, aw, that's the good stuff. And then we get to choose who we let in to our weird little worlds. You're not perfect, sport. And let me save you the suspense. This girl you met, she isn't perfect either. But the question is: whether or not you're perfect for each other. That's the whole deal. That's what intimacy is all about. Now you can know everything in the world, sport, but the only way you're findin' out that one is by givin' it a shot. You certainly won't learn from an old fucker like me. Even if I did know, I wouldn't tell a piss ant like you.
[Will smiles]
Will: Why not? You told me every other fuckin' thing. Jesus Christ. You talk more than any shrink I ever met.
[Sean laughs]
Sean: I teach this shit, I didn't say I knew how to do it.
Will: Yeah......you ever think about gettin' remarried?
Sean: My wife's dead.
Will: Hence, the word remarried.
Sean: My wife's dead.
Will: Yeah.. Well, I think that's a super philosophy, Sean. I mean that way you could actually go through the rest of your life without ever really knowing anybody.
[A pause. Sean smiles ironically.]
Sean: Time's up.

::: posted by tinafish at 6:55 PM :::

and I descend from grace

my sis stayed over last night, accidently, like always.
she came over with a couple of steaks and we watched a couple of movies. we watched snatch and gladiator, then decided to watch all 3 matrix movies.
she was asleep halfway through the first movie.
so I played some soul cal 2 **unlocked bezerker, finally** and then started reading moby dick.

I was really enjoying the book... when for no apparent reason, aside from wearing my black glasses, I started thinking about my mother.
it was really weird, and I was unable to concentrate on the book anymore...
I wanted to call her and invite her to lubbock, and was thinking about putting a bed in my extra bedroom for her...
then I wanted to go to church.
I thought about getting up and heading to walmart for something to wear (it was ~ 0530) to mass...

I just don't know what happened, or why I suddenly wanted to talk to my mother.
and not just talk to her, mind you... I wanted to tell her everything.
it was so weird.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:22 PM :::

Sunday, May 22, 2005 :::

installing updates to pass the time

I'm bored.
not sleepy, either... even though it's about my bed time.

so I loaded up the ibook and am installing updates.
dunno why, though.
not like this is a reliable computer.

one thing I will say... I sure have missed talking to rob.
I've already decided what I'm gonna get him for his bday... only I'm gonna buy & ship it next chance I get; september is too far away, plus I'm pretty sure he'd like it more now than then.
the sexxxy little brit has gotten me something for my bday for the last 2 years, while I've failed to produce more than a card for him.
he actually gave me one of those star trek phaser remote controls um... 2 years ago?
it's ~still~ one of my prized posessions.
/me loves rob forever

ooh... updates are installed; time for a reboot.

::: posted by tinafish at 7:19 AM :::

Friday, May 20, 2005 :::

I've never been hit by a dodgball...

Stephen Lynch wrote an article titled, "WE FANS BEAR UP FOR LONG GEEK-END" for the new york post. (that's a link to the article on his blog, where you can read the uh... complete article, in it's un-trimmed glory.

the bit I especially love, that didn't make the article, is this one bit that wil wheaton donated in an interview... "'There are so many geek poseurs. Putting on Weezer glasses does not make you a geek,' he says. 'Until you have tasted the sting of a dodgeball on your face, you are not really a geek.'"

::: posted by tinafish at 5:36 PM :::

no yahoo was not a bad thing

one thing I'll say for certain is that I've gotten used to not chatting 24/7.
and I'd also forgotten just how much of a fool I am for justin.
it's really funny, actually... when I see he's logged in, without even opening an im window or receiving one from him, I get all flustered and my heart starts beating faster.

I swear that boy has caused such an uproar for me.
*shaking head*
I was like... ~so~ into him... (seems maybe I still am?)
it's made dating quite an obstacle now, instead of something I was doing just 'cause I'm bored.
I've become really short with the guys I date... and I'm in no mood to even talk to or chat with them, much less hang out.
seems all they do is echo... like a shadow of who I want but am unable to have.

and honestly this is a good thing - the my-not-having-him part.
this way I can keep that perfect memory of him.
'course that'll just make finding the next guy more difficult, but it's ~such~ a pretty picture.

::: posted by tinafish at 2:33 PM :::

juice is not just for justin

I love juice. seriously. I'll take juice over most sodas and sometimes over water.
I especially like orange juice, and pine-orange-banana juice.
and apple juice.
I'm sure I've mentioned it before... welch's makes an on orange-pineapple-apple juice.
it's heavenly, I swear it.

I also really like V8.
it reminds me of my dad, since that's really the only memory I have of him.
um... apparently the 2 or 3 times I saw him in the first 10 years after my parents divorced he'd buy me V8.
and I like the whole line of V8 splash.
very good stuff.

even though all these combos are amazing, sometimes it's more rewarding to curl up with a book and a big glass of apple juice.

::: posted by tinafish at 3:22 AM :::

Thursday, May 19, 2005 :::

it ~should~ be some kind of record...

lus is a bit trashed tonight.
he was at the bar (speeds) for about 12 hours.
drinking the whole time.
I feel bad that I wasn't there with him... but I'm kinda glad 'cause I'd not have been sober enough to come to work.

he's crazy.
he'd gone into a spiel when I called him last night, saying he didn't wanna get drunk 'cause that's so cliche...
what's most funny is that he's convinced he can sober up and be at work in an hour and a half.
maybe he will.
if not, I'm taking him to rosita's for tacos.


::: posted by tinafish at 8:50 PM :::

distant as in aloof

I'm such a horrible friend.
I accidently read all of call of the wild and white fang last night, so I stayed up later than I'd intended.
I'd only been asleep for about an hour when lus called for brkfst. I was awakened easily enough, but my back was hurting from sitting in the metal chair for hours last night.
he was in the mood for some shots, and I was surprisingly sore.
he took a raincheck and I went back to sleep.

james was at pour house last night. he called me a few times, and it sounded like he wanted me to leave work.
he got awful drunk, well, I shouldn't say that. he just sounded a bit tipsy. I don't think he should have been driving, but that's just me.
we made plans to watch sw:rots on tuesday.
guess we'll see how that goes.

there's a possibility I may be closing tonight.
I was kinda upset last night when aaron told me, since I'd already made plans (like... 20 mins before he told me, and since he's known about this for a couple of weeks I feel he should have asked before just assumming I'd cover for him) for tonight.
I get the feeling he still doesn't want to come back (he's at the orientation right now) tonight... and I'm still kinda sore for him not even asking me.

::: posted by tinafish at 7:18 PM :::

Wednesday, May 18, 2005 :::

biodegradeable peanut attack

here's that pic from when the guys stuck peanuts all over my comp.

these little asses!
I went to mcdonald's for these jerks and when I get back I'm stoked to see my chair at my station, all accounted for.
'till I start to sit in it.
my leg brushes it and the chair FALLS APART!
into a thousand pieces all aver the floor.

I think from now on I'm gonna sit in a metal chair with no moving parts.

::: posted by tinafish at 10:00 PM :::

yes it ~must~ be genetic

a friend of mine came over this afternoon, tried to boot up my computer, and....
it loaded right up.
it was on for an hour and a half with no magic eye symptoms at all.
I was pretty stoked, 'cause it finally gave me the chance to rip with teeth and get that baby on my ipod.

last night I fell asleep while reading call of the wild.
after I barely heard my phone ring 5 different times, I answered the 6th call.
it was doke.

after doke and I hung up the anarchist hippie called again... he had big news for me. socom 3, soul cal 3, and ps3 will be released in the next year.
he was pretty stunned when I told him I already heard about all that.
we talked a bit about the ps3, and also about the xbox 360... and neither one of us is too concerned with revolution.
and now I've mentioned it, so there.

doke and I went to walmart last night. I bought mayo, and lots of clean & clear.
if you don't know me irl, my facial complexion has gotten worse and worse lately.
I'm not sure why, but it's about time I did something about it.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:29 PM :::

Tuesday, May 17, 2005 :::

hint: there are 16

I've got a lot on my mind.
I started this lengthy blog post, only...
lots of it was... personal.
personal and not my place.
so I've started over, and we'll see how this version ends up.

doke has gone and gotten offended.
I'm not sure what to do.
I feel bad... if it wasn't for him I'd not have survived The Breakup. sometimes I get this feeling that I owe him.
most of the time, after he moved out, I really enjoy the time I spend with him.
and then sometimes I'm just tired. I don't feel like sugar-coating or overplaying his role in my life.

I guess I don't know how it usually works, but if I'm angry at someone I'm not gonna pout and ignore them, I'm gonna be homest about it.
so here's a hint (no relation to the title):
if you ask me if I'm mad at you and I say "no," then I'm ~not~ mad at you.
persisting questions will only irritate me and there seems to be a pattern of my responses offending the people asking questions.

and about the title.
I had a happy meal for dinner.
the box says, "how many wumpa fruits can you find on this box? (hint: there are 16)"

::: posted by tinafish at 9:33 PM :::

don't let it bounce! answer!!!

work is um... currently only aaron and I are answering phones.
it's not incredibly busy, just...

I went to visit my sis last night - we watched a crapload of movies. I finally saw finding neverland... it was pretty cute.
I've never seen peter pan.
or cats.

my sis brought over some mexican food this afternoon.
she's uh... she's kinda been fighting with her ex-husband lately... so she's always fussing.

I'm tired.
and I've ~got~ to remember to look up soul cal 2 gunk.

::: posted by tinafish at 7:35 PM :::

Monday, May 16, 2005 :::

because I like netflix

so if you happen to use netflix, and happen to use the friend thing on netflix...
feel free to add me (I'm lagoose27 at mac.com).
I'm not sure why I've become somewhat obsessed with that feature... I guess I just wanna see what kind of movies you like?
anyhow... like I said, add me if you're up to it.
guess I'm just nosy, is all.

::: posted by tinafish at 9:26 PM :::

... to see if I still feel ...

over the last month or so I've uh... pretty much lost both of my so-called best friends.
guess I shouldn't say I lost 'em, since really it's just one sided.

slave and I don't talk anymore.
it seemed like the whole thing with nicc would have replayed.
it's not so much that I'm worried about wrecking his marriage, 'cause really... I don't care. if the rltnship is weak enough to allow for temptation, then it's already doomed.
I miss nicc. he was an awesome guy, and I really felt he understood me. he'd call to wake me up, and we'd chat everyday... heh - maybe he was just feeding me what I wanted to hear... I dunno.
I wish them both the best.
really I guess that's the whole "sour grapes" bit coming out.
I'm being honest when I say that I do wish them the best... 'cause I really do. just a big part of me still wishes he'd have left his wife. not necessarily for me (I wouldn't have objected to a meeting, though) but for himself.

I've started praying again. I used to pray for him (wow that sounds cliche) to have the strength to do what is best for both of them... not just what's easiest.
it's not my place to start airing his dirty laundry about... just...
me & david splitting up was not easy at all, and it's true most days I was suicidal and felt so alone... but it really needed to happen.
neither he nor I were... happy.
and I miss him loads, but it's better for both of us this way.

I dunno why I'm talking about all this.
guess I really miss nicc.
best friends, particularly one that understands and can relate, are hard to find.
if you've got someone to lean on, don't throw 'em out.

::: posted by tinafish at 8:46 PM :::

I'd rather die, than give you control

I am a sleepy girl today.

after work on saturday I rushed over to the theatre to watch unleashed. we made it into our seats just as the lights were dimming. we saw all the previews - mr & mrs smith still looks like it'd be a lot of fun - and then the movie started.
after all those reviews I'd read about the movie, I was expecting it to be really bad. but honestly ya'll, I really enjoyed it. parts of it made me wanna cry, then other parts made me laugh at loud, and some of the fight scenes made me wince... and ok, I did cry there at the end.
my sis gave me garbage about that, so I guess it's not gonna be common for people to feel that way about this movie.
but I really really liked it, and made plans almost immediately after leaving the theatre to watch it again.
my sis and I went to rosita's for lunch, meaning we went and I ate. she was pretty busy turning up her nose at the whole place, but she did admit my tacos looked really good.
I went home and slept for about 10 hours. woke up and made some calls, then went back to sleep.

I woke up sunday to aj knocking on my door.
I was laying on the couch watching stargate when he showed up... I wasn't really asleep, but I was certainly not completely awake.
I wasn't much in the mood to play tekken (blasphemy, I know) so he completed story mode with hworang, and then took him from beginner to 1st dan.
then his friend james showed up. and they played... for a couple of hours.
all I'll say is that I was stoked to see the anarchist hippie walk in.

after james & aj left the anarchist hippie and I played some mk:da and soul calibur2. I had a really good time.
I put ramen on the stove for dinner for us (aj made me crave it when he kept saying that's all his chick knows how to cook) and we watched a family guy dvd while we ate.
he left, and I stayed up watching a couple of stargate dvds and then good will hunting.

you know, I remember good will hunting being such an awesome movie... and it's a good movie ya'll, don't get me wrong... but not as awesome as I remember it being.

so I'll be working near 40 hours a week now.
I'm kinda sad that I won't have weekends off anymore, but I'm also pretty happy since all I ever do is fuss about how lonely living alone is.
yeah. I'm a tool.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:48 PM :::

Saturday, May 14, 2005 :::

stupid computer playing favorites

parrot boy brought my computer back to me earlier...
supposedly the whole time he had it he only had a problem booting it up once, and he never saw the screen go magic eye.
as soon as he brought it to me, though...
it won't boot up. and even if it did, I'm sure it'd go magic eye on me pretty much instantaneously.
stupid computer.

looks like backblog's burping or something...
wish I'd host that stuff myself.
remind me to look into that.

I'm going to see unleashed with my sis this afternoon.
I've read some reviews that bitch about how the movie doesn't make any sense... so I guess I'm not expecting much.
still though, jet li's fucking awesome for a d00d who's in his 40s.

::: posted by tinafish at 2:39 PM :::

bury your dead

so after work yesterday I headed to my first "hardcore" show.
I actually had a pretty good time, which is kinda funny, since the anarchist hippie was convinced that if I mentioned that I listen predominately to country music that I'd get beaten to a bloody pulp.
anyhow... there were a crapload of bands that played... the last one, Bury Your Dead, was the group we were there to see.
for the other bands we watched a bit, went over to hastings to look for rumble fish and ended up buying lots of candy.... and we sat outside just enjoying the beautiful night.
met some of his friends, and got a look at the chix0r he's always fussing over.
and omg - this so-called "hardcore dancing" is ridiculous.
like... they look like they're spazzing out.

then we went to convergys to pick up his original sidekick.... waited there for almost an hour....
then we went to rosita's for TACOS!!!
seriously... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm tacos...

after a while the hippie brought me back to my truck, then took his sidekick to his car... then he went by my apt and played some tekken 4.
he was owning with steve.
then I put on ong bak and we promptly fell asleep.

in case you hadn't noticed, I'm at work today.
showed up a couple of mins early, and I'm a little bit hungry.
great fun.

::: posted by tinafish at 10:25 AM :::

Friday, May 13, 2005 :::

spammers lie.

trying to send 1000 emails at once does not sound like a legitimate business to me.
but what the hell do I know, eh? I'm just tech support.

my fingers hurt from putting together boats and forts in that game tim bought.
I accidently broke one of the masts on one of the ships... I feel ~really~ bad about it.
we played for about half an hour, then had to pack them all up 'cause tim was going home.
but seriously, my fingers are sore.
like... it kinda hurts to type.

so I'm going to some "hardcore" show tonight with the anarchist hippie.
it's not my scene, so I asked him if I should wear something special. he asked if have any black shirts, and I was like, "I'm wearing one right now." and then he was like, "cool! just turn it inside out and you're good to go!" so I was like, "fuck you d00d! this shirt has a huge power symbol on it that glows in the dark!" and he was like, "word."
so yeah... I don't remember the name of the band... I do remember it's got the word dying in it.
I'm kinda nervous, 'cause like I said... this isn't my scene. you know... I'm not sure I ~have~ a scene.
I guess I'm hoping he doesn't mosh or accidently get in a fight with anyone.
and I guess I'm hoping I don't either.

ok, that's all for now, since my fingers really do hurt.
I'm working tomorrow for aaron... think I'm gonna see about working saturdays from now on... I could sure use some extra cash.

::: posted by tinafish at 8:16 PM :::

ding fries are done

doke and I got together last night - I had a lot of fun.
we went to pour house for a couple of hours, where I had my first (and so far only) liquid cocaine. it's supposed to be a shot, right? well... brian's near as bad as hayden - it was a ~huge~ shot.
it was pretty good, though. kinda sweet.
then we stopped by whataburger, then went back to my apt and listened to ron white, then we watched an episode of SG1. it was a pretty spooky episdoe, and seriously I was glad I wasn't watching it alone.
we made plans to watch Unleashed (jet li's new movie) then he went home.
I fell asleep on the couch, and woke up when he called with showtimes. I locked up then went to bed. couldn't sleep so I watched the rest of the stargate episodes on that dvd. I really liked the episode, "the other guys," 'cause the guy who plays dr. flox on enterprise was playing a scientist, and they made a couple of references to star trek.
I guess no matter how much I like stargate or star wars, I'll always be a star trek fan at heart.

my sis called this morning. woke me up but I didn't get to answer. not too much later doke called to see if I was awake. he sounded really tired so we didn't go to the movie after all.
I fell asleep and then the anarchist hippie called. all I remember is him inviting somewhere (to lunch?) and I said I was feeling sick and hung up.
I'll call him in a few to see what happened.

and now I'm at work. I'm eating fries and apple pies from mcdonald's (if you're wondering about the title visit ding fries are done)

::: posted by tinafish at 4:19 PM :::

Thursday, May 12, 2005 :::

don't play with fire

so you know those biodegradeable peanuts I've been talking about?
well... we discovered that soy sauce degrades 'em ~really~ fast.
only... after about 50 peanuts we ran out of soy sauce. so we added in alcohol.
after about another 20 or so...
aaron decided to hold a lit lighter up about 4 inches away from the neck of the bottle we'd been shaking all these things up in.

apparently the fumes caught fire, all the way back into the bottle, then shot back out again and burned aaron's hand (the one he was holding the lighter in).

last week when lus & I were at the pour house, I was playing with a matchbook.
I got distracted and burned myself.
then brian came up and put whiskey or something on his hand and set that on fire.

so fire is great fun.
'till it lights you up.

::: posted by tinafish at 9:23 PM :::

and they wonder why I blog about work...

the guys have been bitching lately that I blog about everything that happens at work.

tonight was my night to throw garbage. that means I hafta walk around the building emptying all the trash cans, then taking that out to a dumpster in the alley out back.
when I got back... I more than half expected to find my chair either missing or in pieces.
I saw my chair intact.
then I looked at my computer.

remember how I said tim got some card game in the mail today? well it was shipped, and they used packing peanuts to prevent damage. not just ~any~ packing peanuts, the biodegradeable ones.

my computer was ~covered~, now I repeat COVERED with these packing peanuts. like... there are like... 75 of them stuck to my monitor.
another 30 or so on my keyboard.
6 on my mouse, and three more on my phone.

my whole workstation looked like it was covered with naked cheeto puffs.
the guys tooks pics, I'll link ya when I get 'em.

::: posted by tinafish at 8:36 PM :::

mexican drinks are teh awesome

so there's some like... mexican nationals-run restaurant called la paletera. my sis stopped by there a couple of days ago, and she did again tonight.
she's brought me some leche quemada cake and some cherry pineapple water.
it's surprisingly good, ya'll.
if you get the chance head over to this place - it's in the plaza where the wells fargo atm is at univ & the loop.


::: posted by tinafish at 6:26 PM :::

coughing in the background

tim's gotten a bunch of cards for some game he's wanting to play... it's a constructible strategy game. he's always buying crazy things.

the anarchist hippie and his blonde sidekick came by again last night. they pulled up at the same time I did, and we watched family guy 'till the anarchist hippie started dozing. they went home, and I watched family guy 'till the sun came up.

james is still in contact, so I guess he wasn't too peeved at me.
supposedly we're getting together tomorrow night, but it's not set in stone just yet.

tomorrow's my girlfriend amy's birthday. she'll be 2-... wait. I'm not supposed to tell you, am I?
she's my age, really. guess that'll tell you enough. well... I dunno. I consider most anyone in their twenties up to mid to late thirties to be my age.
anyhow. I emailed her an icard a while ago - better early than late tomorrow.
I picked a really pretty card too - it's got some trees with blossoms on 'em.

lus's bday is on thursday (next week). he'll be... 37, I think.
I dunno what to get him, or what to do for him.
like I've mentioned before, he and I don't really have much in common.
think I'm gonna scrounge around amazon for a book for him... only I'm not sure what he'd like.
and on top of that I'm pretty broke right now... got maybe $50 to my name atm.
we'll see what I manage.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:57 PM :::

Wednesday, May 11, 2005 :::

quizzes are fun.... not really.

Which Hogwarts house will you be sorted into?

Your Star Wars Masturbation Method Is:
Manually Targeting the Rebel Base

Get your own Star Wars Masturbation Method

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

T is for Tempting
I is for Intelligent
N is for Nice
A is for Arty

What Does Your Name Mean?


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You're a sporty tom boy. That's not a bad thing.
You're friendly, competitive, athletic, and you
love to have fun. You attract a lot of guy
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you are aggressive and might be intimidated.
Don't worry, show them the other side of you
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In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
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and bottle up all or your problems and
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away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
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Gamer Geekiness: High

Geekiness in Love: High

Internet Geekiness: High

Music Geekiness: High

Academic Geekiness: Moderate

General Geekiness: Moderate

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Movie Geekiness: Low

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::: posted by tinafish at 8:10 PM :::

ooh... nifty

apparently itunes is now selling music videos... according to apple insider, anyway.
I can't be sure, since I'm not able to use itunes atm.
I'm pretty interested in this... oh and with teeth is number 3 in the itms today.
guess I'm not the only one who likes it.

I've added some picks to my yahoo personals profile... maybe something'll come of it now.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:55 PM :::

the anarchist hippie returns

I got an awesome surprise last night at work. someone rang the doorbell, and since we were expecting pizza I grabbed a credit card and went to answer it.
no pizza, but the anarchist hippie and a blonde sidekick were waiting for me.
great fun. I'd not seen him in about 2 weeks. we made plans for him to come by my apt after midnight, since I wasn't too sure how james would take the guys.

they showed up at 2215.
between my quirks and the guys showing up, leaving, showing up again, leaving, and showing up to stay... I'm just not too sure james had a good time.

after james left we played some STREET FIGHTER and some tekken, and also soul calibur. I had a lot of fun with them... I've not had a crowd (three's a crowd, right?) over to play games for a while.
the anarchist hippie and I made plans for lunch, and then they left.

he showed up 4 hours late, so we didn't get to go out. we laid around just chatting for about an hour, then he went out for lunch on his own.
I hopped in the shower and then aj showed up... we made plans to get together tonight after I get off work.

and now I'm at work.
started my shift with a meeting... with our owner.
not a good start, if you ask me.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:26 PM :::

Tuesday, May 10, 2005 :::

there is no you, there is only me

I've decided I like with teeth. and I'm not much in the mood to link ya, but if you don't already know, that's nin's new album.
some of them are more rock-ish than I'd like them to be, but overall I do enjoy listening to it.
I don't think any of these songs are gonna wind up no my top 50 list anytime soon... oh wait. I think the hand that feeds is on my top 50 list...
I'll hafta check some time.

james is supposed to come over tonight to watch house of flying daggers with me. he likes foreign films and hasn't seen this one yet, so he's pretty stoked.
I'm also thinking about trying to hoarde his rpg skillz to get me past this level in the devil within. I've been stuck trying to level up for... near a month, methinks.
I'm still kinda... distrustful of him, though... just 'cause of the whole, "what would you do if... " bit that he pulled.
guess we'll see what happens.

my sis bought me a pork siopao and some beef on a stick for dinner for me tonight. also brought me some white rice. I dunno why, but I really like white rice.

on a different note... I talked to BoB over the weekend.
it was very formal and cold.
dunno why I cried, though. you'd think after all the time we've been broken up, and after all that's happened... you'd think it wouldn't phase me.
guess opening that break-up box a couple of weeks ago didn't help.
it just amazes me how happy we were, especially in relation to how badly things have turned out.

and I watched sw:aotc sometime this weekend... it wasn't as bad as I remember it being, but it still sucked.

2 things, from the gutter.
1. aaron is the living spyware.
2. I am ~not~ wearing a clear shirt. to work. with the guys.

::: posted by tinafish at 8:18 PM :::

blogger sux0rz

I've not been able to log into blogger, so I'm emailing instead.
dunno if it'll go through, with blogger being down and all.

parrot boy is looking at my comp, to see if he can fix it or at least maybe narrow down what's wrong with it.
I'm hoping I don't have anything too embarrassing on my drive.

it's gonna rain soon. yikes
hope it doesn't get too bad.
I can see the 600 mile doppler radar on aaron's monitor... madd green with a bit of yellow and red, all over the south plains.
lol - that almost sounds like I know what is considered the south plains. I'm just kidding ya'll... but there is madd green, red, and yellow.

the chach is on a different schedule now, so I don't see much of him anymore. that makes me sad; he's one of my favorite people.

I played a lot of tekken over night and this morning. I got my grrl (christie) up to a 4th dan, steve to virtuoso, julia to 1st kyu, feng to 2nd dan, asuka to 2nd dan... oh and bryan fury from beginner to 1st kyu in 50 matches. that d00d... omg.... he's insane.
like... one of his fight endings is him straddling the loser and pounding his/her face in. I thought it was pretty obscene 'till I fought law (we all now how much I ~hate~ law)... then I thought it was pretty funny.

well work is um... getting hectic.
I'm gonna email this now, and we'll see what time it gets published.

::: posted by tinafish at 7:57 PM :::

Monday, May 09, 2005 :::

star trek is cool... my mom said so

so milkdud is a really cool person... not, by any means, the biggest dork I know (on both the net and irl), nor is he a bigger star trek geek than I am.
we did not get into an argument about what century the temporal prime directive came into being... and I was not proven wrong by the jesus fan siding with milkdud.
this is not a picture of jordan licking his bike.

jordan is NOT a big dork

and since I'm linking to pics, here's the hair I bought for the girls, and what they look like defaultly.

xiaoyu is on the left, and anna is on the right.


new hair


and here's the ranking system, per IGN FAQs:
1. Beginner
2. Kyu 9th
3. Kyu 8th
4. Kyu 7th
5. Kyu 6th
6. Kyu 5th
7. Kyu 4th
8. Kyu 3rd
9. Kyu 2nd
10. Kyu 1st
11. Dan 1st
12. Dan 2nd
13. Dan 3rd
14. Dan 4th
15. Dan 5th
16. Shihan
17. Expert
18. Master
19. Virtuoso
20. Sage
21. Warlord
22. Champion
23. Legend
24. Conqueror
25. Deity
26. Tekken Lord

oh and one last bit of info. for you star wars nerds, here's something you'll here Padme tell Anakin...
"Hold me like you did by the lake on Naboo!"
I can tell you're excited.

::: posted by tinafish at 10:45 PM :::

she's my sister all right

my sis and I spent some time together this morning/afternoon...
she bought some cookies... like... the prepackaged ones, ya know?
she got it into her head that these cookies would taste really good if she heated them up a bit - then they'd taste fresh.
so she put 2 cookies into my microwave...
for 1 minute.


I was laying on the loveseat reading; not paying much attn to her...
'till I smell something.
I ask her what she's doing, and she said that she's heating some cookies up.
it smells... almost burning.

by the time I reach the microwave the cookies are on fire.


there was this stench, ya'll.
worse than her specialty - burning popcorn.
I opened all my windows and my door... hopefully I won't get overwhelmed by the smell when I get home tonight.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:13 PM :::

fat grrls put out

I had an interesting weekend... um... pretty bummed, though.

lus and I went out on friday night, like we'd planned... had dinner at pour house, then I went home and read a bit, then went to bed.

saturday afternoon doke and I played tekken for aaaages... btwn he & I we played at least 300 matches. I acquired enough gold to buy new hair for both anna (200,000 G) and xiaoyu (300,000 G), and various other color changes and accessories for other characters. I got Steve to be a master (the ranking system is kinda weird... you start as a beginner, then go from 10th kyu up to 1st kyu, then 1st dan to 5th dan, then shihan, then expert, and now I'm at master. I'm not sure what's after, though... guess I could look it up, but I'm not bothered enough atm), nina to 2nd dan, and anna up to 1st dan. doke got kazuya up to 1st dan, and I think 1st kyu with lei.
my sis came over late saturday night... we watched boondock saints and sw: rotj. great fun.

sunday we called our mom and had dinner together. we also watched that tv show thing on Elvis. we're both pretty big fans, so that was cool. when the news came on I went home... and went to bed.

I woke up this morning about 0400. jacked around a bit then went to bed ~ 0730. my sis woke me up ~ 0830 with leftovers from ihop. she had marleen with her, and the three of us planned on going to target and the mall and such. I put house of flying daggers on for them, then hopped in the shower, and 15 mins later I was ready to go. guess I wasn't fast enough, 'cause marleen was dozing on the couch.
she opted out, and I got stuck taking my sis to target. after about an hour and a half there I managed to coax her to the checkout...
we went to barnes & noble. I bought this book called... well... something like, "encyclopedia of world religions" or something. and my sis bought about 18 books, 2 for me - moby dick and white fang. I'm pretty stoked.

the guys are talking about someone that almost killed jordan when he was on his bike.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:11 PM :::

Friday, May 06, 2005 :::

there is a god

doke bought with teeth (With Teeth) and is making me a copy!!!
I'm like... ~so~ stoked... kinda apprehensive - hope I like it and all.
guess we'll find out when he gives it to me tomorrow.

*crossing fingers*

::: posted by tinafish at 8:47 PM :::

old friends and new faces

I'm ~really~ bad about keep screennames with faces and irl names.
this d00d I've known for a couple of years... it's all I could do to remember his real name (yes, I admit, I had to look it up) and I had no recollection of ever seeing a pic of him.
so hopefully this time I'll remember.

doke & I went to compusa this morning; I want a mac mini w/ os 10.3 on it. they have one, but I'm not sure if it's got bluetooth or airport extreme ready.
guess we'll see.

we went to walmart last night for food... I was trying to buy some movies but doke kept fussing about me needing food....
so oh well.

we watched house of flying daggers... that part at the end where she throws her dagger... it makes me wanna cry every time I see it.
and the dancing bit (particularly the song she sings) at the beginning is crazy awesome too.

I wonder if I can find a mt dew poster anywhere...
that'd be a good contribution to my living room.

::: posted by tinafish at 6:05 PM :::

wish I had connections

this fella mark something or other has a review of Revenge of the Sith.
it opens on lus's bday... I probably won't see it 'till a week or two after opening, since star wars does have a cult following.
doke brought over episode 2 last night, so I'll be watching (and bitching about) that soon.
supposedly lus and I are going out tonight... not telling, though.

I went to see hhgttg this morning. I liked it a lot more than I did the first time, but it still sucks hairy ones when compared to the books.
what irks me most is that they don't even explain the towel bit. maybe that's a nod to those of us who've read the book?
I emailed my sis that c&v about towels, but she didn't ge tthe chance to ready it before this afternoon, so she had no idea why they kept mentioning towels, or why I wanted to take one.
I ended up not taking a towel; I spent a bit too much time playing with a jack russel/rat terrier mix at the pet store in the mall.
she was a fiesty little thing, with lots of personality.
she misses me, I can tell.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:47 PM :::

Thursday, May 05, 2005 :::

I think it was his pants

there's a new barback at the pour house. his name is brian, and I think he's gay.
now don't get me wrong, I'm not gay bashing. thing that cracks me up is that doke is convince we (brian and I) had a "moment" last night night.
he even used air quotations. lol
anyhow... this fella seems like a good kid. kinda reminds me of that d00d from soldier.

as you can tell, doke & I went to the pour house last night. I got pretty toasty, ya'll... and I only had 3 shots and 2 smirnoffs. In my defense, I took six gulps of my red-headed-slut and there was still liquid in my cup. guess what I'm saying is that it was a huge shot. also had a shot of special reserve, and then some minty stuff that tasted like scope.

at closing we went to my apt, and I crashed out on the futon for a couple of hours. I woke up ready to go to walmart, only to find out that doke had gone while I was asleep.
he bought food for me. that's really nice of him. I think he's afraid I'll starve. He was kinda... shocked that all I had in my fridge was some juice and red bull. I don't do cooking, so I don't buy food like that.
I go to the hospital to visit and eat. my sis'll buy me food, if it really comes down to it. and if it gets really bad, I can always scrounge up a decent meal just from stuff found in nutrition rooms.
plus I've got a case (literally) of ramen that dan gave me, and assorted other canned foods.

so I'm still looking for a cool nin poster. I haven't been able to find another copy of that awesome UK fragile poster... but I'll keep looking.

::: posted by tinafish at 7:33 PM :::

que embidiosa soy

I'm like... lusting after tom's template, ya'll. I really like it, and if I wasn't so caught up in blogger I'd switch.
and since I've not had this template for too long, I oughtta keep it for a while. I really do like it - particulary the purple and grey.
r00 is changing again... he does that about as often as I change bf's.
ouch. why'd I just say that? that's mean.

anyhow... happy cinco de mayo ya'll!

::: posted by tinafish at 6:39 PM :::

supposedly she had a stroke...

you know how I bought all those garth brooks albums on ebay?
well I've still not received them...
I got an email today from the seller, apologizing for the 2 week delay... and her excuse is: she had a stroke.
now I dunno if I believe her or not, but either way... I read it and laughed.
she's offering to give me her dr's name & number, and all sorts of other info...
really I don't care. as long as she does send me the items, I'm not in too much of a hurry to get them right this minute.
I'd probably be in a huff if I had a working computer, but since I don't I'm just working with the music that's already on my ipod.
doke & I are supposed to go to compusa friday morning to look at macs... after I've got one the first thing I'll be buying is nin's new album.
hopefully by then I'll have the garth brooks cds.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:16 PM :::

Wednesday, May 04, 2005 :::

4 issues, aching to be read

you know how I was bitching about ordering macworld to be viewed irl?
well I'm glad, now... 'cause I've got the march, april, may, and june issues, just waiting to be read.
not completely true... I've already read march, and I started on april earlier.
that's what I'm gonna munch on for the next hour.

doke and I are supposed to go to the pour house for a drink tonight... I spent about 45 minutes on the phone w/ sbc trying to work out an issue... with no luck.
also I'm planning on going to walmart tonight for a loaf of bread and some coldcuts... and hopefully a toaster.
and peanuts! omg I'm craving some peanuts!

ryu is sexxxy ya'll... for a pixelated musclehead.
remember him? from streetfighter?

say it with me now - haduken!

::: posted by tinafish at 10:22 PM :::

"I wouldn't lick it, if I was you..."

words of wisdom, from the chach.
he and the married d00d are cleaning up a bit, and found a power cord of some sort... that was tim's bit of advice.

well one down, two to go.
I just acquired a monitor. now all I need is a keyboard.
if I can find someone to lend me one, that'd be super - then I can wait a couple of weeks and get a bluetooth keyboard/mouse set.
fun fun.

I'm starving.
looks like I'll be scrounging through nutrition rooms tonight.

::: posted by tinafish at 6:44 PM :::

lusting is a sin

so I ~really~ want to at least listen to with teeth (With Teeth) sometime soon.
like... seriously.

r00's got a new design... and this fella tom has a nice look...
the jesus fan has a new color scheme... and looks like some design changes as well.
as for me, I've not made any changes at all lately.
like I mentioned a few days ago, my plan atm is to buy a mac mini. I'll still need a keyboard and monitor (anyone willing to lend me one for a couple of weeks would be my hero!), but at least I'll have a working mac.
I flirted briefly with getting a cheap pc & installing linux on it, but methinks I'll just get a mac mini. I'll get some aftermarket ram and probably a bigger drive, but at least it's a good start. also, I'd like to buy one irl, or somewhere where I can get it with panther (os 10.3) preinstalled, so I can take all those screenshots, then upgrade to tiger (os 10.4) for more screenshots, and eventually make a chasms of my own - mac only, and free of charge, of course.
I'm trying to talk lus into letting me take screenshots w/ his version of os... and I'm gonna try to find out what happened to my old mac (the one I had in jr high).
then in october (when my lease is up) I'll buy a new ibook, and since I'll be able to afford broadband I'll probably get a couple of cheap pcs, keep one set up w/ windows and the other with linux, and then I'll have a network of my own.
also I'd ~really~ like a powermac g5, but chances are I'll end up with an imac.
this does sound like a lot of gunk to be buying, but with an extra $700 a month it shouldn't take me too long.

I've really cleaned myself up, so I'm actually looking forward to moving back in w/ my sis. I just wish there was more parking space available at her house. Since for the most part my dad lives w/ his chick, there should be enough room for my truck and my sis's van... just wish she'd throw her old car away. then there'd be room for a guest.
All that's left is for me to refind my faith.
I've been reading some books... and it's helping. I'm back to believing in God, although not that he/she/it is omnipotent.
Most likely I'll go to confession soon... not so much to confess, but to talk things out w/ my priest. When I say my priest, I'm talking about Fr. Greg, my priest back home. I dunno if I can really make a trip to the valley for this... guess it's a good thing I like Fr. Adres (my priest here).
we'll see, though.

when I do move back in with my sis, I'm not sure what I'm gonna do with all the furniture, etc I've aquired.
and I'm gonna try to get squishy back. assumming he's even still alive, and that david'd let me have him.
I miss the little guy.

::: posted by tinafish at 5:56 PM :::

Tuesday, May 03, 2005 :::

the importance of towels

"A towel," it says, "is about the most massively useful thing an interstellar hitchhiker can have. Partly it has great practical value-- you can wrap it around you for warmth as you bound across the cold moons of Jaglan Beta; you can lie on it on the brilliant marble-sanded beaches of Santraginus V, inhaling the heady sea vapours; you can sleep under it beneath the stars which shine so redly on the desert world of Kakrafoon; use it to sail a mini raft down the slow heavy river Moth; wet it for use in hand-to-hand combat; wrap it round your head to ward off noxious fumes or to avoid the gaze of the Ravenous Bugblatter Beast of Traal (a mindboggingly stupid animal, it assumes that if you can't see it, it can't see you � daft as a bush, but very ravenous); you can wave your towel in emergencies as a distress signal, and of course dry yourself off with it if it still seems to be clean enough.
More importantly, a towel has immense psychological value. For some reason, if a strag (strag: non-hitch hiker) discovers that a hitchhiker has his towel with him, he will automatically assume that he is also in possession of a toothbrush, face flannel, soap, tin of biscuits, flask, compass, map, ball of string, gnat spray, wet weather gear, space suit, etc. Furthermore, the strag will then happily lend the hitch hiker any of these or a dozen other items that the hitch hiker might accidentally have 'lost.' What the strag will think is that any man who can hitch the length and breadth of the galaxy, rough it, slum it, struggle against terrible odds, win through, and still knows where his towel is is clearly a man to be reckoned with."

and ~that's~ why I'm taking a towel with me to see hhgttg on friday afternoon (I'm going w/ some nurses & my sis).

::: posted by tinafish at 8:31 PM :::

I want an 8 meg connection

and since I have no comp atm, it'd fit with my current luck if an 8 meg connection was suddenly available at my apt.

we went to thai pepper this afternoon - well, we ordered, and I went to pick up the food.
traffic was insane (yes, even a town as small as lubbock has rush hour) and I took forever to get there and come back.

I was talking to lus last night... he doesn't agree with my whole dating scheme.
he said he feels like it cheapens the rltnship that he and I have.
I dunno... I can see where he's coming from, but if I don't date around how will I ever find someone I truly like?
david and justin were both chance encounters - just guys I met on the net.
BoB and I first started talking 'cause one of my girlfriends was semi-interested in him.
I guess whatever works, though. Lus is a lot more comfy being alone than I am. He thinks I should take more time for myself... I dunno.
I think one of the reasons he is so agst me dating (in general, and this kid in particular) is 'cause he thinks I'm doing it ~just~ 'cause I'm bored.
now don't get me wrong, I ~am~ bored... but I'm also hoping to meet someone that I really get along with... ya know?

well I've gotta do my chores now... I'm blog some more when I'm done.

::: posted by tinafish at 6:51 PM :::

overdrawn already...

so everything I've charged these last few days went in today... on top of a $100 check I wrote a week and a half ago... and the check went through first (like they do) and all the other $5 - $10 charges are coming out as overdraws.
it makes me sad.

in other news....

with teeth

with teeth has been released today...
anyone wanna buy it for me?
*blink blink*

::: posted by tinafish at 4:39 PM :::

Monday, May 02, 2005 :::

"I am the gatekeeper...."

so this will be a really cool thing to have, once I get a working mac.
if I had one right now, all that'd show up is "hurt" and the occasional "closer."

so I'm starting to like... get really antsy and stuff... like... seriously.
I've ~got~ to get a new mac like... soon.
I'm thinking about like... not paying rent or something, so I can buy like... a cheap mac mini.
ideas or suggestions, anyone?

::: posted by tinafish at 9:41 PM :::

"I'm gonna break you in, fat boy!"

it's cold. my sis brought me some pork siopao for dinner, so I'm pretty stoked. if you ever get the chance, have a couple or 5. they're ~really~ good.
I shared one with doke saturday night, and then had one later that night after he went home. my sis just bought and brought me 3.

the anarchist hippie came by saturday night, for the first time in aaaaaaages. apparently he's got a chick now, so that's what he's been doing lately.

work so far has been... odd.
our owner was in a really good mood today... and richard (one of our admins) broke something... lol.
nm. you just had to have been here.

I'm still listening to hurt (Hurt) almost exclusively.
I dunno why, though. I mean, don't get me wrong, it's an ~awesome~ song... but I've been listening to it for like... the last 5 days.

ooh! lus is on the phone!
/me scampers off

::: posted by tinafish at 7:04 PM :::

methinks I will just hate men

I went out on saturday with this d00d, Zicoh, who's been bitching for the last 6 months about me not going out with him.
I've known him since before david & I split up, and we've talked fairly often since then. All this past week he'd been giving me garbage about going out with him... so on Saturday night I called him.
/me grr

Friday night my sis called, so I went with her to Manila Cafe. I ate some stuff there, while we waited for our order... then we went back to my apt. I put on Return of the Jedi for her, and I was asleep before all the yellow text was off the screen.
Saturday my bro was in town, and I spent 3, almost 4 hours with him and his kids. I'm not exactly a "kid person." I don't like kids at all, really. There's um... 2 of my nieces, and adrian's niece, that I like. all other kids... I pretty much consistently hate them.
So I got home and eventually was in the mood for a beer.
Justin called looking for vicodin... told him I'd call him back and let him know...
called Zicoh (that was my first mistake)... then called Leticia (this chick I went to nursing school with) and talked with her 'till Zicoh showed up.
he and I talked for about half an hour or so... then we headed to the pour house. He said he wanted to drive... and I let him. that was my second mistake.

we were at the pour house maybe an hour when, and I'm not sure how it came up, I told him that I would not be having sex with him.
blah blah blah
"I'm leaving!" he said.
"so leave, then!" I said.
and to my surprise, he did.
I finished my smirnoff, paid our tab, and walked home.

doke came over (I talked to him while I walked home) - we watched star wars episode 1. and uh... it's a lot grosser than I remember it being. but anyway.
when he went home I watched 4 stargate dvds, then went to bed.
I woke up this morning thinking it was sunday...
I hit a moving van when I was backing out of my parking space at my apt... I asked the guys what they were doing moving on a sunday...
so apparently I accidently missed a day.
at least I found out early enough to still come to work.

::: posted by tinafish at 4:15 PM :::